Whenever i feel good or off my face souls "harness" my effect which means I miss out. They should "lay dormant" which means they will feel good plus they will not be in my business & I will not miss out.
My problem is that last year on my birthday i said if things have not changed i would take myself out of the equation once & for all, but that means i lose everything & everything i love in life. I do not want to have to do that & i should not have to do that. It would mean no more birthday drinks & cuddles with ALF, Gordon Shumway (Pictured on the bed) LOL.
I wish souls to not "harness" as they are "Harnessing" my dopamine increases, my endorphins, my Valium consumption, my Melatonin consumption, even my Viagra consumption. You can even harness an orgasm! Why? Because when they "harness" anything it means i completely miss out & feel absolutely NOTHING. i have stopped taking the Melatonin tablets (10mg) because i was taking some days 4 tablets & not feeling slightly sleepy whilst the afterlife souls "harnessing" said they felt amazing & like they were stoned or been smoking marijuana although 2 tablets was good & that i was a asshole because 4 tablets was too much for them even although i did not feel a bloody thing. Not even slightly sleepy!. How am I meant to get to sleep?
Luckily i do hear good good good souls & they are trying to help best they can & correct the bad behavior of those selfish souls with problems they expect me to solve. Hopefully the fun in life i am missing will return. It cannot return soon enough.
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