9. THE WRITING IS ON THE WALL - DOCTORS DIAGNOSIS MYSELF AS SUFFERING A SEVERE DISORDER!

The doctors explained to me that i have onset Psychosis and irreversible schizophrenia.

Apparently I should have confused thinking, delusions, & hallucinations? Fantastic… except i am not!. Instead I am hearing voices loud and clear and they are boring the shit out of me! I am seriously jealous of Emily Rose (Please click here for more info)  Anneliese Michel's (Exorcism or Exorcist) was her real name) as the voices she heard were evil & established individuals or so they said??? Although if i am thinking truthfully all her voices were afterlife fuckwitz that were beyond nasty!!! Mine are worse than wannabe industry people loving the sound of their own voices! (Please click here to hear some of voices i am hearing). THAT TAKES BEING NASTY when they are dealing with me TO A WHOLE further severe WORLD!!!

Trust me when i say i know what a drug induced state can cause & not cause that is how i know half of what is going on is something else!..& half of what is going on can't be explained by medical science I'm sure, thats why this is such a problem for me.... plus I gotta ask am i a patient or a test rabbit??… fuck I'm over drugs!....but at least i have not had any of these following drugs (listed below) on the dance floor like i have had everything else! LOL 

I am not proud to admit i spent too many years off my tits at dance parties or getting hammered at home any & every day of the week to make cleaning the house more interesting! 

If you find yourself cleaning the bathroom floor with a toothbrush & unsure if its even yours or not you know you may have gone too far!

Yes I have done more, yes more than my fair share of drugs…but makes a person self aware & it has given me in-depth knowledge of the entire alphabet of chemicals & all their side effects… so bloody hell i'd say i am well aware of what i should/shouldn't be feeling???

Wanna know all the drugs & medication i have been on? Please read on.

8. HMMMMM... I GUESS MY LITTLE UNIVERSE WAS WRONG! :(

DID MY FAVORITE T-SHIRT GET IT WRONG?

The T-Shirt below (My favorite & so i purchased two of them) features Grover (One of my nicknames as i unintentionally make Grover sounds all the time) but who is he with? 

Similar height to Grover but he has a bigger nose, bigger build and nice smile! Sexy for sure! Tele-Monster is his name. 

That is whom i should be with. That is not that crazy is it?

On Sesame Street "A", "B", always finishes with "C"? Doesn't it? Well that is how the song goes. "Its as easy as ABC"

That's how easy love should be??? 

A hot bloke named Mark told me when chatting on "Manhunt" website that his name finishes in "c" Marc? Marc Wilcox? (Hard_novelty@bigmucle.com where he did say he liked hairy butts which i can accommodate but i wax it all off). 

On "Manhunt" Marc with a "c" exchanged numbers & said he might hook up with me the following weekend at Pool Party in Palm Springs. Serioulsy if you had read his profile online i fit the bill. Almost exactly 10 years younger (Tick) tall (Tick), & possible red haired (Tick) (I was once labelled as being "Tawny" (Please click here for more information)) & he said he wanted someone that had brains so he could fuck them out (Tick) (Please click  here for more information). 

Or maybe it should have started with capital "C" Craig? Craig Hibbard (Toughboy@bigmucle.com but he had in capital letters HIV NEGATIVE which does not work for me) 

Or maybe I was wrong & it was neither to be & maybe i am meant to be with neither?

In this Photo is the Tele-Monster strangling Grover ???

Yes it sounds crazy & Yes I know it sounds crazy PLUS if either of Marc Wilcox or Craig Hibbard were the slightest bit interested years ago when i first met them both & said the same thing twice as they made me nervous & I was new in town... they invited me to a party but i got too shy & nervous & never went... & needed to find out what the hell was going on with the guy i was with at the time, but sadly now i have yelled, screamed, harassed, texted, phoned, stalked, begged & pleaded that neither will speak with me face to face... so i get even more crazy...

CRAZY PEOPLE NEED TO BE TOLD IN PERSON 

"YOU ARE FAAAARKEN CRAZY"!

Then maybe i can deal with this crazy shit i am going thru! (Schizophrenia & Psychosis (Please click here for more information).

Wanna hear more crazy? If finding Love Prospects on the basis of a Sesame Street T-shirt & Sesame Street song is not crazy enough... 

Plus what happened on every App known to man? Please read on.