5•5. HALLUCINATING HOT GREEN FIGURES! EXCEPT GIRL ON GIRL? I AM GAY ARNT I?

Ever since i started hearing voices almost 11 years ago, right from the beginning, i every so often see as clear as day green images of people. Its almost like they were/are right in front of me! Back year 2010 I remembered the clearest vision i had was of two hot girls, one a brunette and one a blonde! OMG OMG OMG where they hot! Best strip show & erotic hot dancing i have ever seen, with hair flicks & bends that would make any straight hetro man shoot a load in his pants I'm sure... the only problem is that it was slightly waisted on me coz I'm Aussie fag (gay man)! Full poofta! eeeeeeeeek. I probably critic-ted their super hot & erotic dance moves more like a choreographer or dance teacher would rather than enjoying the boner that i had managed to receive. LOL. 

It amazing how many heterosexuals & female voices i hear in my head! I do not dislike women! But Jenny Rothschild & Katherine Jones??? (Please click here for more information) Really???

So what happened in the end? Please read on.

5. WHATS STOPPING YOU NOW JOCK HUDSON? ANOTHER PSYCH QUESTION!

Psych Question 1:

What would you do if you came across a dirty great big brick wall that was in your way, stopping you, too big to climb over and too wide to go around... what would you do? What is the first thing that comes to your mind?

What would you do? What is your immediate first thought? Please answer this question before you read on. Please be honest?

Back when i was first asked this question (aged 21) unlike everyone else in the room who said they would somehow knock the wall down which is what i am guessing was your first thought???

"I honestly said the truth. I would just sit & lean against it & enjoy a cigarette!" 

But years later when i almost turned 32, & after discovering allot about life & doing my best to ensure the worst anyone could say about me i would already know. "My answer had changed to the same as most people & my first thought was that I would think to knock that bloody wall down before you finished asking the question". Coz i want nothing to stop me from seeing what tomorrow brings. 

"Sadly now i may joke & say i'd pull down my pants & moon it, but the truth is now just the thought of being asked the wall question makes me feel ill & I try not to dry wrench!"

Sadly presently my first thought is not to knock it down & to not feel sick or like i wanna dry wrench when asked the question my thoughts are i should turn my back to the wall & walk away from it. 

Why the question? 
Its part of a psych exam question. The wall believe it or not represents your feelings towards death & your answer reflects your love of life. Morbid it sounds, i know, but if your truthful with what you first thought, was it correct? Was your first thought knock it down?

If you have ever been suicidal then you would answer differently to having the first thought of knocking the wall down. 

Back when i originally said i would just sit down & lean against the wall & enjoy a cigarette. 

The Truth is that Around that Time I almost Threw Myself off a Cliff & Killed Myself  (Please click here for more information). 

It was about 2-3 am when i stood there contemplating life & doing my head in before i finally decided to go home to bed because i figured i could kill myself another day. 

Took me Ten Years to get over Suicidal Tendencies (Please click here for more information). 

The only other people (which exist in the afterlife) that have come up with a different answer different to knocking the wall down sadly all committed suicide. One answered he would take a piss on it, the others said they were confused by it & would want more information or to place their head against the wall to get a better sense of it. One lady made me wet myself laughing when she said she could not tell anyone her answer because the wall instantly made her think of how dogs pee on the wall & made her think that was what she wanted to do... & yes she committed suicide.

I really dream I will think of the wall as being encouragement, & nothing to fear since it is surrounded by beautiful souls rather than just something that needs to be knocked down. 

Psych Question 2: 

(A Fun Psych Question)

Do you like coffee? Yes or No? & Why do you like coffee? 

Again it has to be your very first thought? Your first answer?

The Coffee question is certainly allot more fun definitely. Message me and i'll give you the answer. LOL.(But please in the comment include your answer. I said YES, coz its social. My best bud Frank said YES, coz his is Italian, & a hot babe named Helen said YES, coz she loved the creamy froth on top! She laughed her head off when told what it meant & what it answers. X X X PLUS its amazing how that question ALWAYS works out right for the person.

Photos from 2005/6 

@ Castle Howard Estate, York, 

North Yorkshire, England UK 

(When I lived in London & visited friends).


Thanks to JompasFavorites (https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXrhIz1y_t4X-z4E60aULhQ)