212. TIME TO WORKOUT??? HERE THE MUPPETS ARE INSPIRING!!!

@thisaintcanon Muppets Aerobic Championship Thank you 80s. #muppets #america #dance #funny ♬ original sound - This Ain't Canon

Sadly when ever i go to the gym the voices "Harness" (Please click here for more information) & i do not manage to get a good workout in (Please click here for more information). I wanna get fit & healthy & try to achieve what i had planned to do when i entered my forties (Please click here for more information)

LEGAL-WELL-BEING ADVICE & LAW ADVICE PUBLIC RELATIONS SERVICE!

Legal-Well-Being advice for LGBTI Community & their friends now available. A Friendly face whom holds a Juris Doctor (JD) degree (Please click here for more information) (Law Masters equivalent) from UNSW (Please click here for more information), BA in Marketing from London Metropolitan University & certified in Work-Place Training & Assessment, Public Relations & Diploma in Community services offers a new type of Legal Service.

Legal-Well-Being Advice examples:

   - You are unsure of the laws & your rights.

- What best practices to adopt being a recreational drug user.

- What rights you have if being searched by police.

- What to do if your caught breaking the law by the police.

- A relationship breakdown with your wife/husband/de-facto

- You require Family law advice regarding divorce or breakup.

- What to do if your being harassed/stalked/intimidated.

- You need general wills & estates advice.

- You are suffering from discrimination.

- Your a Sex Worker & unsure of rights & State laws.

- You maybe breaking a law but unsure what the laws are.

Having a troubled mind myself, consisting of Psychosis & schizophrenia, being a ex-porn star, & self confessed Party Boy & Rent-Boy in my time. I am street wise & I can say that I have been around the block several times so I offer to listen first, & then give all the helpful advice that I can. Not to be confused with the advice of a lawyer whom you still might need if trouble you have gotten yourself into has gone too far. My past experiences gives me a view-point from a different perspective to your average fella so it maybe worth running your issue or problem past me first before considering a lawyer or legal firm... Especially if it means your able to avoid law enforcement. I believe in striving to assist & listen to people that others may not & I will never just think ‘you should never have done that in the first place let alone considering doing it again.

I am an expert on doing things the hard way.

Please feel free to call/message me (Please click the following Link) with any concerns that your having or to put it bluntly your thinking shit is gonna hit the fan any minute if I am not careful or change what i am doing. 

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211. TWO MONKEYS (MONKEES) THAT KNOW FUN!

Above is Monkey-Munk (My first ever plushie that enabled me to reincarnate in this life (Please click here for more information) & knows me well from chewing on his face when i was teething! With him the handsome Stephano/Stefano Monkey (Please click here for more information).

Thanks to "The Monkees" for posting this song on Youtube.com Please click the following link to subscribe: 

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I wanna have fun... plain & simple, just like two of my favourite Monkeys as seen above. 

As soon as i cheer up or start doing something that would be fun for me one of the voices deliberately says inside my head without my permission "Your being stupid" or "He is being stupid". It causes me depression & is Psychological Abuse! They do not care about the damage to me that they are doing & are invested in using my head for the game "Search & Destroy" (Please click here for more information). Game Players aim to do something that causes physical damage & hope it takes a long time for me to heal because as i recover they get extra point scores or bonus each time i feel the pain from their actions. Psychological abuse causes me, when i start laughing, to start crying instead... That is what being deprived of fun & their game has done.

"Karl Josef Silberbauer" (Please click here for more information) has been gone several years so i should have my life back on track however he taught the "Women" (Please click here for more information) to play the games mentioned above to fulfill their unlimited time & nothing better to do with no care given in regards to me. They prefer not to change because it is not them who suffers, or have memory lose when they reflect on their behaviour. They should just admitting that they stuffed up, were misinformed about me being an asshole (Please click here for more information) or did not do their homework before involving themselves in my life & then change their behaviour so they can deal with the truth and then move on!  Change their behaviour... Otherwise reflecting on their behaviour worsens. They not worry about the "Consequences" (Please click here for more information) at all.

I miss me & miss being the real me!

210. DIRTY SELFISH POOFTERS! KEEP IT CLEAN OR NO OUTDOOR SEX???

Over the years Beats, Restrooms, Parks & Beaches where men hookup for sexual encounters has drastically reduced mostly because of old restrooms being replaced with new single cubicles or because of a Police presence or lack of action due to online dating apps. I have ventured to an outdoor beat looking for fun however the parkland was covered with dirty condoms, rappers and worse syringes. How can you have fun standing with that much rubbish under your feet. If caught doing the do by Police how can you deny you have broken the law by having illegal Public sex with condoms on the ground still giving off steam? Why leave the evidence behind?A little hard to convince a capturer that you were simply admiring the park land & trees or bird watching & not having a sexual encounter with that amount of rubbish called evidence left on the ground.“Would you throw a dirty condom & rapper and leave them both on the floor of your bedroom?… so why dump used condoms on the ground in the parkland?” & the litterbug answered “But they were dirty!”. For starters learn how to douche if your dirty & secondly please do not be so selfish to expect someone else to clean up the mess you left behind & be aware you are ruining it for everyone.

Please keep it clean by taking your rubbish with you & not leaving it behind for someone else to pick up! What if someone not looking for sex or worse accompanied by children stumbled across such a mess as they would think “Dirty Selfish Poofters”!

Absolutely disgusting & Totally unacceptable behaviour by us Gays/Homosexuals! 

209. TRYING TO UNDERSTAND OTHER MENTAL HEALTH PROBLEMS, DIFFERENT TO MINE, LIKE ANOREXIA???

I understand my own mental health problem such as Schizophrenia & Psychosis (Please click here for more information). I have tried to understand Anorexia Nervosa. The last girl i seen that was suffering from the killer eating disorder was wearing baggy long jeans & a full hoody long enough in the sleeves that it even covered her hands, & in summer weather, so clearly scared that someone might see that she is barely skin & bones & only a heart beat away from being hospitalised & drip fed... therefore true Anorexia has nothing to do with body dysmorphia or wanting to look good because if that was the case why was the girl i seen completely covered up & hiding her body & what she is doing???

This is gonna sounds far fetched but please read with an open mind. I am convinced that girls whom are truely anorexic (end up hospitalised) is that 

it stems from their past life.

A past life that was during the Holocaust & that included being in a concentration camp where if they did survive starvation then they would achieve life? Not surviving via starvation in their past life whilst in a concentration camp probably meant they shut down & did not go straight into the light & did not reincarnate until a time when they were able to be born to people or mostly importantly a special mum that can show her how good life can be without the need to achieve starvation for a good long prosperous great life & fun life.

Therefore, they are predisposed in this life, the idea that the more they achieve starvation the greater chance to succeed in living??? 

Or living life longer???

If i am correct in what i am saying about where true Anorexia stems then maybe since the condition is so deadly that maybe the answer is easier than one would expect. Discovering foods that increase life expectancy rather than simply being less fat/sugar & rather than not eating at all???

Anorexics must be sick to death hearing about Healthy Dieting!!!

208. SOMEONE PLEASE STOP ME FROM SCREAMING?

The main problem with hearing voices is that you never get "Alone" time. When the voices are antagonising me (Please click here for more information) which is enhanced by lack of sleep sends me to boiling point & i have to do the best to avoid "Self Harm" (Please click here for more information). I rely on Nicorette Quickmist to calm myself down. The voices still keep calling me "Asshole"(Please click here for more information).

Still unable to stop the voices from "Harnessing" (Please click here for more information) although tonight i went to the "Gym" (Please click here for more information) & managed to have a reasonable workout which i hope continues as this week goes on.

When i am able to think & entertain myself the voices because they are in my head & playing a "Game" (Please click here for more information) say that i am Stupid & instead of having fun they make me depressed. They expect me to entertain them but cannot understand that is impossible when i cannot even think. 

Some of the voices are proud that they have treated me badly for 5 years or more & need me to be an asshole or make out that i am an asshole to be proud & so they can name call me & get a rush (feel Good) when they abuse me inside my head without my permission. None of them, even though treating me badly for at least 3 years still have never thought "What would it be like if i were him & he were me?"

Sadly i find myself screaming my head off, unlike my true personality & nature, & fearing "Hospitalisation" (Please click here for more information). 

I hear them inside my head & get no alone time to calm down & it is hard for people & the voices to understand what it is like for me!

207. SICK TO DEATH OF HEARING THE VOICES CALLING ME ASSHOLE!

Voices in my head constantly call me an "Asshole" because they want to do "Hypnotics" (Please click here for more information) & are aware that they are nasty & hence why they need to convince themselves & others that i am a asshole or something that is nasty. Do they realise how stupid they are when i have "White Light" (Please click here for more information) around me that is brighter than the average person meaning i am anything but an asshole! The women tell others to not look at me or my overlay or soul which is stupid because who in their right mind would do something nasty to someone without checking who you are dealing with or without knowing anything about the person & just going on the word of someone that has level 5 Ora (the worst ora possible). They also tell women not to read anything i write. If i am sleep deprived the women take that as a good excuse to treat me like an asshole & "Antagonise Me" (Please click here for more information) & sadly last weekend i found myself in "Self Harm" (Please click here for more information) territory again.

If i were an Asshole... How many times should I miss out on having fun?

If i were an Asshole... How many times should I miss out on my endorphins? (Please click here for more information).

I am no asshole.. Instead... 

Super Grover???

206. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

"Well its Birthday time again" (Please click here for more information). Its not the big 50 yet, this year only 49 years old. Even on my birthday the voices in my head refuse to make it a day for me with no hassles & me getting the full effect of trying to "Get off my face" (Please click here for more information) but nope the voices are as selfish & arrogant as usual (Please click here for more information) & although when attempting to get off my face they Harness as they refuse to miss out. Even complaining makes the voices feel they have every right to give me an "Episode" (Please click here for more information) because i am not focused on making them feel good or entertaining them which i cannot do when i cannot think... plus why should i when they do not even speak respectfully to me (Please click here for more information) whilst in my head without my permission. My time is limited & they could lay dormant & allow me fun.

Photo January 2026

You would think being my birthday the voices would be good to me?

All the voices want to do is antagonise!(Please click here for more information). 

Happy Birthday???

  

205. HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!

I hope 2026 will be a good year?

"Past Years" (Please click here for more information) I am sad to say again have been dictated by the voices in my head which i dream changes?

"My Dreams" (Please click here for more information) seem to get further away from being a reality. The move with my family from "The Shire" (Oyster Bay) to the Western Suburbs (Please click here for more information) was less painful than expected & was best chance of escaping the voices but was an epic fail! 

"Current Medications" (Please click here for more information) should mean I am doing better & thinking more positively about what i can achieve & the successfulness of this new year but is difficult considering having had several "Episodes" (Please click here for more information) during this past December.

It is hard to have fun when the voices cause grief & treat me badly!

I just watched the fireworks on TV with a few friends.

204. WHAT CAN I DO WHEN THE VOICES ARE ANTAGONISING ME???

Thank you to "Dreamtime" for this image.

My Case Manager says i should do Mindfulness??? My mum says put on some music with head phones??? But the problem which only another schizophrenic would understand is that i hear them not with my ears but inside my head which means none of these suggested ideas work??? Any suggestions??? Medicate???

"Self harm" (Please click here for more information) is definitely out of the question. If i am lacking sleep i should be very chilled & laid back but this is when the "Women" (Please click here for more information) take advantage as it is easier for them to antagonise me so i get revved up and pissed off!!! 

What can i do?  

PLEASE leave any suggestions on what i can do???

The women in my head, (Please click here for more information) if not antaganising me, still spend their time trying to convince others that i am the biggest asshole or a selfish cunt (Please click here to learn what these "Women" expect) or anything they can think up that is negative so they can continue to do "Hypnotics" (Please click here for more information) & to treat me badly & get off on doing so! They just dont realise they would feel better with white light around them as they would tingle the whole time. Therefore my "Problem(s)" (Please click here for more information) worsen rather than improve? The Women give themselves point scores for treating me badly & attempt to do things that cause damage or takes time to heal to get a point score that continues as i heal from the harm. They refuse to leave my head because if they did then they would not be able to regaine entry & i would no longer be Schizophrenic! They are in my head because i make them feel good when they do not have "White Light" (Please click here for more information) & therefore remain, due to "Harnessing" (Please click here for more information) & doing the wrong thing, with level 5 (Worst Ora possible) which they do not seem to care about? Having such a bad Ora cannot be healthy??? If by chance I can think or amuse myself, they pretend it was them that said/did what made me laugh/smile to continue to bring me down! 

Here is music i like to get me going.

Please listen to the following song.

Thank you to the clock for producing this song on Youtube.com by placed by 

Dr. Marcelo Ribeiro - Revivendo Clássicos

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203. THANK YOU TO THE GOOD, GOOD, GOOD VOICES IN MY HEAD!

 

Thanks"Dreamstime" for the monsters (Pauline).

If Only Fun Monsters???

There are some good good good souls i do not say "THANK YOU" enough for their help. For fun i have pictured some, this time not as "Orange Monsters" (Please click here for more information) like last time or in another attempt to say "THANK YOU" to the good voices i hear as "Sesame Street Characters" (Please click here for more information), although my Doctor would say "Do not engage?" but instead i have decided to represent them as fun Purple Monsters. They stop me from having "Episodes" (Please click here for more information) & assist with the only ability i have which is to somehow make those doing hypnotics & mistreating me see sense? 

I am scared to mention names, or the fun nicknames i have given them in fear of them getting bad treatment. It seems the more they try & help which i need the help means good souls are also in the firing line & end up harmed or treated badly as well. That should not be the case & i hope they remain being a great help & focused on helping me they tingle & do not loose the "White Light" (Please click here for more information) around themselves. Luckily "Present" (Please click here for more information) does reward them by making them glow & feel good

I will give thanks to Polly (Pauline - top right monster with colourful horns) & Dreamy (Benjamin - Left hand Monster) who always remove bad hypnotics & Dreamer (Sally monster second from the left hand side,) who do the right thing by me. Sadly due to be harassed by the "Women" (Please click here for more information) for doing the right thing & he decided to reincarnate March 2026 & is no longer with us. We miss him but know he is doing well.

Another mention needs to go to the Lady i nicknamed Miss Ferrari Testarossa (Sarah) whom i am grateful because of her pleasantness & helpfulness pictured above 3rd from left as Light purple monster. Also Thanks to Miss Sassy (Pictured with Heart saying "ASSHOLE") because the first time i heard her she said that attempting to be funny except i totally cunted her before realising she was joking... she has been her weight in gold. 

Also Thank You to Sam/Samuel who wants to be heard for the good work he does, pictured as one eyed monster with Megaphone, because he does not like it when he is not heard, but who helps more than I realize & I should be more grateful to him however his love of Hypnotics does get him into trouble especially when he wants me to be involved with intention of making me laugh. He has a new mate named Roy or should i say Monster, as pictured, who helps in his own way & 

when good things are happening for me it mostly due to those fellas mentioned.

All those i should thank prefer to hear me laughing rather than crying!

There are more good souls, not mentioned, deserving a Thank You!

Thank you to Dana Dawson for singing this song "Got to Give Me Love" & posting on Youtube

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202. I MAY NOT LOOK IT... BUT I AM FEELING BLUE?

Photo 01/09/2025

Although the photo does not show, i am blue. Yep sad & depressed. Still waiting to be appointed as a "Lawyer" (Please click here for more information). I wanna get in shape after the new "Medication" (Please click here for more information) increased my hunger & instead of weighing 92-94kg i weigh over 100kg but every time i workout the voices give me problems & will not allow me to have motivation & drive or feel my "Endorphin rushes" (Please click here for more information). What is the point of souls feeling my endorphin rushes when they are not the ones that have to lift weights to failure. A few weeks back because of some amazing souls enabled me to feel, what i call, the "I can climb Mount Everest" rush so i did a major Bicep & Tricep workout & gave off a good vibe as i destroyed the muscles to get them bigger & with my muscle memory from being a gym junkie in the past meant they felt huge. No pain no gain was true. 

"My Master Plan" (Please click the following link to see my master plan) has not been achieved & I only have a few more years to succeed. Sadly tonight (Sunday) the voices gave me another "Episode" (Please click here for more information). 

Rather than being active why can't the voices lay dormant? it is their best interest to only allow themsleves to do that as it means no bad Karma & I would not even know that they were there! 

Good feelings stolen???

Thank you to Scott Mac for producing this song and Trance Classics for posting at Youtube.com. 

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201. MEET WRINKLES THE DOG!

Meet Wrinkles the dog. Puppy Pound Number: 8026430. What is different about Wrinkles the dog is that he shares love by giving people evils? Basically when he is happy he gives nasty looks at those wanting his attention. Not because he is unhappy as he has Snoopy & feels that he is in a dog pack. With those red eyes he gives completely evil nasty stares that do make you think you need to check yourself or wonder what you did wrong to deserve those looks from him...But like i said that is his way of sharing the love. In the photos below he does not look like he is giving evil looks but i think that was because he did not like his photo being taken? Wanna know how i feel about having a dogs life then please click this link. I'd be happy i think if i were a dog. 

Do not you be giving me no evils? 

"Hate is not a creative force: Only love creates" 

Quote by St. Maximilian Kolbe (Please click here for more information regarding him)

200. TATTOO DESIGN FOR A MAN WITH THE INITIALS M.D?

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199. REVAMPING JOCK HUDSONS TATTOOS - ITS TIME FOR AS CHANGE!

Revamp Inspired by Ben Volt Tattoo Designs. 

To view more Ben Volt Tattoo Designs please click here.

Tattoo Designs by Ben Volt.

Luckily i have met an outstanding brilliant tattoo artist named Marty Creak (Ocean Ink - Miranda. Please click here for more information) that listens to what i want & although i LOVE what he did (Please click here for more information to see additions that were done well by him) i have decided I'd rather have something bold & abstract. 

I have never liked the big thing on my shoulder as it was not what i wanted & the tattoo artist would not listen to what i wanted & I was too busy being nervous & concerned about the pain level to stop him from doing what he wanted rather than what i wanted unlike Marty. I was even tempted to try Tattoo laser removal. If i blacken out what is on my Shoulder then being abstract i can say it a Superman Symbol. Plus will make my shoulders look bigger (Please click here to see original of what i wanted).

The original black strip down my abdomen boarded with straight lines is meant to signafiy a road & remind people to read between the lines but its straight with no bends, & no way to change directions & boarded by flatlines, which is not really what my life is about. The black beside it going up to my armpit would signify a road without boundaries & widens as it gets to the top as you learn more & more as you travel down any road. Also finishing in my armpit where you sweat the most reminds me that not all roads are easy & some are hard work. The possible additional strips (Similar to what Ben Volt did in second photo above) on arm/bicep/tricep would signify military lines/double strip like a Sargeant meaning i can follow orders & do my best to care for those that not as well off as me. Also in photo far right the added strip which matches the road, means i need to show discipline not matter what road i am on, small or big. 

The changes simplifies & makes tattoo abstract & means i can read anything into what i want the shapes to be as written above. I should have gone with my own designs in the first place rather than Pagan Symbols that anyone else could have. If you click the following link you see what i mean about why you sould create your own symbols & design.I am keeping one Pagan Symbol on chest meaning "Those who seek to harm me & my loved ones have their intent turned back upon themselves!" 

What do you think? Please leave a comment?

198•5. REMEMBERING PORN STAR HOTTIE, ADAM FAUST.

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198. MOVED OUT OF THE SUTHERLAND SHIRE (OYSTER BAY) & MOVED TO WESTERN SUBURBS! ESCAPED FROM THE VOICES???

The new smaller home

My parents have downsized the Shire (Oyster Bay) family home i grew up in to a new much smaller property in the Western Suburbs (Glenmore Park) to be nearer to my sister & I am have moved with them.

Escaped voices???

Basically It should have been similar to faking my own death (Moving house)???

When i drive through "WestConnex" underground tunnel which is the quickest way to go into the city the voices think i have placed Hypnotics & the Tunnels are not real. They have not even noticed the move???

Thank you to Red Carpet for producing this song & Jenelle for posting it on Youtube.com. 

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197. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT... A ENTIRE MONTH WITHOUT AN EPISODE?

If you have been reading this Blog Story then you will know that the voices in my head have been giving me "Episodes" (Please click here for more information) sometimes twice weekly which i can not handle. During an Episode i cannot speak properly or be understood & usually screaming my head off as they give me jaw stretches & painful neck twists which is just the start of it. It has been touch & go though, been close to having a episode, & almost was not able to swallow at all & choked. Thank you to good souls (Please click here for more information) that stop nasty souls from treating me badly. Sadly the voices are still "Harnessing" (Please click here for more information) so when i want to have fun i miss out. The main reason they harness is to feel good because they loose the "White Light" (Please click here for more information) around them because of how they treat me & consequently feel uncomfortable. 

Is it me or some good souls above that have prevented me having Episodes for an entire month? Either way I am grateful! 

I'm so happy i could cry! 

I pray no more episodes continues?

Thanks to Commander Tom for producing this song & Raffi3o3 for posting at Youtube.com. 

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196. FOXY LOXY SAYS "GET YA MOJO BACK?"

Its been at least 3 years since i have had sex with someone? I even have problems "masturbating" (Please click here for more information) as the voices do not leave me alone. One of the last attempts to have sex with someone was a disaster. The expression on my face showed pure pleasure & enjoyment written on my face, then as i tried to tell the voices in my head to shut up & fuck off, the expression on my face then looked like i was ready to kill someone which, as you can imagine, was very confusing for the guy i was playing with.The arrogance of the voices feeling they were more important wanting attention, with their unlimited time, rather than allowing me fun & fun for the person i was with?

Imagine the Fun if i did not hear voices?

Foxy Loxy showing how to bust a move?

How to be Foxy? How to show off a hairy crack? 

It's not a party if there is no crack?

I need my Mojo back?

The "Women" I hear in my head would rather give me an "Episode" (Please click here for more information) than have that happen?

How can i when i cannot go to the gym? 

(Please click here for more information).

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195. WHERE ARE ALL THE GOOD LUCK TROLLS WHEN YOU NEED THEM?

I need please Good Luck Trolls instead of the large amount of "Hypnotic Whores" (Please click here to find out what a Hypnotic Whore is & how they turned Heaven into Gang Bang City) that keep treating me badly & disrespectfully simply because they have done it for so long (Please click here for more information) & have unlimited time & nothing better to do or get off on the challenge of breaking me. There seems to be an endless supply of stupidity & nastinest! They can see my "White Light" (Please click here for more information why white light is so important) which proves i do my best not to be an asshole & makes them an insult to the intelligence & I do not deserve to be given "Episodes" (Please click here for more information to understand how bad episodes can get) like they did again last Sunday night.

There is light at the end of the tunnel, some "Ladies" (Not women (Please click here for more information explaining my dislike for them)) have finally realised i was not an asshole & now these "Ladies" are doing their best to rectify the situation & help me as i need helping & to stop women treating me like shit & being disrespectful/rude/vulgar for a quick rush! 

Good Luck Troll??? 

Nah... fuck my face doll???

How do i get the women in my head to stop Harnessing? (Please click here for more information & to learn what harnessing is) or whatever they have spent their time renaming/redefining "Harnessing" to continue the bad karma practise no matter what is done to try & stop them which is in their best interest? If they spent half the time getting everyone to lay dormant rather than "Harness" then both them & I would be having more than 100% good times! No one would loose.

What do these women expect from me? Please read on.