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Saturday, 7 October 2023

164. WHAT IS THE PROBLEM NOW? WILL BEING TONKA TOUGH HELP?

After what is "Stopping You Now?" (Please click here for more information). "Karl Josef Silberbauer" (Please click here for more information) has reincarnated so my biggest problem in my head has gone. The problem now is the large numbers of souls that have spent years doing what Karl demanded which was treating me like shit & placing "Hypnotics" (Please click here for more information) means now they do not know any better & continue to behave that way even though he is no longer existing in "Heaven" (Please click here for more information). I have been living back in Sydney Australia since mid 2011 (Please click here for more information) & besides "University & College" (Please click here for more information) not done anything else. All these women in my head that annoy the shit out of me & say they do not care about me because i am always frowning & unhappy & say i am as boring as bat shit do not understand that with them in my head i do not even have the ability to talk to myself or sing to myself & entertain myself & make myself smile. They are not standing in front of me, they are inside my head! If they actually reflected on what they say & do whilst in my head then they would understand that a miracle needs to occur to make me smile. They expect me to somehow give off a good effect to make them feel good because they have level five Ora (worst ora Possible) & feel uncomfortable to hopefully make them restore the white light around themselves. If i do not make them feel good i am a selfish asshole even though if i give off a good effect which makes them feel good they "Harness" (Please click here for more information) & refuse to allow me to feel good or the good effect i produce! To them i am just a Cash Cow that THEY DO NOT CARE ABOUT! And now even worse "Automated Harnessing"!

Even Tonka Tough i cannot deal with Whores (Please click here for more information) who never thank me for what I provide?

Majoraly its Women in my head & so used to treating me like shit because that is all they know & they don't know any better & for years (3 - 8 Years)?

For more information regarding the problem. Please read on




Another problem is that I have been back in Sydney after being forced to move home from living in the "USA" (Please click here for more information) since 2011 & besides "Studying" (Please click here for more information) i have not accomplished much. How can i accomplish anything with voices in my head? The women in my head claim to know me???

Yet another problem is that all the women in the afterlife/Heaven are completely bitchy! For example if a women fell in a nasty hole & really hurt herself (ie fucked up their fate/destiny & karma) would they then warn & tell all the other women about the hole so that they will not fall in the same nasty hole? Yeah fat chance! Instead they make the hole bigger & push other women in in a hope to feel better about themselves???

What is even more insulting to hear from these uneducated women is the countless numbers i hear in my head, which they do not have permission to enter, because they feel i need to know that they need "Stimulation". Sorry but i am gay & seriously what the fuck does your lack of stimulation have to do with me??? Oh thats right all you know & have learnt Hypnotics & is to treat me like shit so if you are unable to treat me like shit or i manage to miraculously somehow stop you from treating me like shit you feel bored & unstimulated???

These women want for me to entertain them? I do not have unlimited time!

Plus some women do not realise that the notice board in Heaven that lists every Hypnotic & every harm i have every had done to me with the reasons why i was treated like that (None of the reasons are justifiable) actually has a picture of them, so no matter how many times that they change their name or be unknown, that there is a clear as hell photo of them looking like a whore? Not many realise this & the women do not bother to notify & tell each other. Yet telling all "Alan is a no-hoper" was said none stop that sadly that no one exists that has not been told i was a "No-hoper"!

Fucken hell these nasty cold blooded sadistic women that cannot even reflect on self behaviour are a insult to the intelligence & sadly i spend most of my limited time, unlike their unlimited time, yelling my head off in their best interest to help them, but they need stimulation??? FUCKEN FINGER YOURSELFS EVIL WHORES OR JUDGING BY THE FACT THEY ARE SO NASTY THEY ARE TOO LAZY DO THAT!

POOR MEN THAT HAVE TO DEAL WITH THESE WOMEN I PITTY EVEN MORE THAN MYSELF! CROTCH-HOLA ANYONE??? NO THANK YOU! PLUS THEY DO NOT HAVE WHITE LIGHT & SO THEREFORE THEIR PUSSIES HAVE SIMILAR TASTE TO BATTERY ACID? 


These women say i am an asshole, that i am selfish, that i am a cunt and pretty much non-stop in my head without my permission EXCEPT i have white light around me which kinda means they are full of shit which would be an improvement for them & their lack of white light! If anything they said was true then wouldnt i have bad/worst Ora's like them???

Lastly if these women need stimulation, then rather than gaining enjoyment from cunting me, why cannot they reinstate their white light & pay attention to another with white light and TINGLE??? Yes they have that ability to feel amazing & do just that. Pull funny faces while paying attention to one another for fucks sack or freakin talk about brain surgery for all i care, make it as stimulating as needed! It is still best form of stimulation you can get i say!!!


Whilst i am pointing out the obvious! When i take my anti-psychotic medication (For medications please click here for more information) Solian which forces souls in my head to pull away & lay dormant, these women go to the effort, apparently all know how to do this, of making the drugs i take have no effect. i might as well be taking a tic tak its is then that useless, however laying dormant is the best thing for them. Totally in their best interest! They still get to enjoy any effect that i provide, they are not fucking up their destiny & fate, they do not have to cunt me because they are in my head & hate hearing me or hate being aware of my vision as my eyes tell my brain what i am seeing & they stupidly then go to the effort of cunting me to accomodate their needs whilst in my head without my permission. FUCKEN CRAZYNESS! OMG I CANNOT TELL YOU HOW SICK TO DEATH OF THESE WOMEN I AM. THANK GOODNESS THE MEN HAVE GOT THEIR SHIT TOGETHER!!!

Their reason for doing this “You need to understand that we need to feel good!”. But fucken hell the reason you do not have white light around yourself & bloody well do not feel good is because your fucken “harnessing” or doing same thing but called it something else to continue doing the wrong fucken thing!!! Remember fuck wits that if you have White Light around yourself all you have to do is pay attention to another person with White Light around themself whilst in Heaven & YOU WILL TINGLE! YOU CANNOT GET A BETTER FEELING PLUS 
MAKE IT AS STIMULATING AS YOU BLOODY WELL WANT.  


I AM GAY & DO NOT HAVE UNLIMITED TIME LIKE THEM AND SORRY WHY SHOULD I CARE ABOUT THEM & PROVIDE THEM WITH STIMULATION WHEN THEY TREAT ME LIKE SHIT & GIVE NO RESPECT! I AM SO PISSED OFF I CANNOT EVEN FEEL EMBARRASSED FOR THEM!!!


No one will ever understand how much fun I could have had if no voices had ever entered my head way back in 2009! Touch my Baby pillow to see where i would be if voices never entered my head?



I have only achieved 5 & a half days of happiness since i reached "Optimal" (Best living of life you can have (Please click here for more information)) almost 15 years ago back in the year 2009 so you can understand why i am pissed off! I wish i did not feel the women in my head were sadistic & nasty & an insult to the intelligence!

Blog Story Posts the voices in my head should read are as Follows:

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