118. WORKING OUT AT THE GYM? WHAT WILL THE AFTERLIFE THAT I HEAR IN MY HEAD DO

Well it first started long before 5th December 2018 (Please click here for more information) when I stopped feeling my endorphin rushes at the gym & back then i was feeling the opposite, feeling sick and nauseous. Even a post written on 9th February 2019 (Please click here for more information) explained how i still was not feeling an endorphin rush at the gym like i should. Same as my dopamine rushes that I do not get to feel. Well it still continues. The afterlife instead of "Laying Dormant" & letting me feel the endorphin rush or anything else "Harnesses" or "Obtains" or "Receives" or"Acquires" (Please click here for more information) my rush & more so that i feel nothing. The last time i was at the gym i did the unthinkable (Please click here for more information). The afterlife says that my endorphin rushes are so extreme that they should feel them & think they deserve to feel them more than i do, but is it not me that is providing them whether they are extreme or not? I cannot work out at the gym without my rushes especially when souls whom threaten me, treat me like shit & play games on my head are getting off on my rushes whilst i feel nothing. The selfishness of souls is unbelievable.

Photo taken 09/03/2022

I would have said that my endorphin rushes are so extreme is because i have not felt my endorphins properly for over four years now. Plus i think that God (Please click here for more information) wants me to be in shape & wants me to enjoy life. Why? Because if i do not enjoy & love life again like before the afterlife entered my head then the afterlife will suffer the consequences of the way i have been mistreated by them since 2009 & mostly because of a game. Apparently just recently (27/02/2022) when i was sleeping some soul who was playing a game on my head (Please click here for more information) managed to take away my hearing. That means if i die unhappy or due to hypnotics (Please click here for more information) the afterlife will have no control over any of their body parts, they will be blind, deaf, unable to speak in their own heads, have difficulty speaking out loud & will not be attached to their overlays, in fact their overlay may be in separate pieces. Not my fault. I have done my best to help the afterlife avoid the consequences but they still seem to be happier making me unhappy! Luckily some souls focus on making me happy & i do love them. I want the afterlife to exist & it should but it may work out that when you die you pass straight onward into the light instead or remain in the living dead. 

The Afterlife should allow me to enjoy & love life & working out at the gym by "Laying Dormant" so i feel my endorphin rushes & then i would work out twice as much at the gym & they could feel my extreme rushes twice as many times more. Also do they not know how detrimental (negative/bad) it is to themselves & "Harnessing" (Please click here for more information) is? 

Souls cannot honestly think bad behaviour will not have its repercussions? Please read on by clicking link below.

Friday 18th March 2022 Update: Although i am providing the endorphin rush, still souls in the afterlife are selfish beyond repair to believe they are entitled to feel them because they are so extreme & continue to "Harness", "Obtain", "Receive" or "Acquire" them & leave me to feel nothing! Do they not realise that even talking about it makes the white light around you flicker and if you do decide to do this then you will loose the white light around yourself! If you do not have white light around yourself you will feel like shit/uncomfortable. Do they not realise that what they do in life & in the afterlife means that when equilibrium occurs or when they pass on through the doors to the next life their destiny & fate is set? Talk about doing detriment to themselves! Blaming me for your detriment just makes it worse.

Saturday 19th March 2022 Update: Today i almost felt my endorphins but sadly too many souls who say they do not want to miss out stole them from me & refused to lay dormant & let me enjoy them too. Selfishness on a level that is out of control. And they say i am a selfish asshole when i refuse to go to the gym & provide them with endorphins that are coming from me that i do not get to feel at all. But they are in the afterlife & they need to feel good??? But they are in the afterlife with no sickness & bad health & if have white light around them (Please click here for more information) should feel good.

Saturday 2nd April 2022 Update: Sadly the afterlife will not let me feel my endrphins at the gym. :( It saddens me to no end and makes working out impossible. Especially when you hear the nasty ones & the ones that call me an asshole oooohing and aaaahing how good they feel. 

Monday 4th April 2022 Update: Believe it or not the afterlife allowed me to feel half my endorphins so got a reasonable workout. So excited i went back to the gym that night for a second workout but sadly they went back to "harnessing" them again & i missed out. Why do they harness? it means they have to be in my head which they have no permission to be in & they are stuck hearing my every thought and emotion.  

Thursday 14th April 2022 Update: Sadly they have gone back to harnessing my endorphins so unfortunately today's workout was a shocker & I could not workout as souls in the afterlife enjoyed how good my endorphins were without letting me feel anything!. Do they not release that if they let me enjoy them then i would workout more and provide more. Not rocket science. 

Friday 22th April 2022 Update: Souls in the afterlife are still being nasty & harnessing my endorphins or not letting me feel a thing anyway. Very unhappy. 

Friday 29th April 2022 Update: Souls keep harnessing but today i decided to continue workout anyways & figure it is going to ruin those who are harnessing. it is their fate & destiny that they are destroying, ruining & changing by being selfish & harnessing. Sucked in to them. Bad kharma for them.

Friday 6th May 2022 Update: I tried my best to workout today even though souls were harnessing & i was not feeling my endorphins at all but when those souls harnessing started being rude & calling me an asshole because they had not finished enjoying my endorphin rush & i had dared to do another set and provide more endorphins. Maybe if i could feel them then i would wait a little longer between sets as i get to enjoy the rush as well but no one could make them lay dormant & stop them from harnessing. Another gym workout lost. 

Monday 16th May 2022 Update: Still not feeling my endorphins because some soul(s) are "Harnessing"! It really sucks & makes it super hard to workout without them, When are they gonna let me enjoy gym workouts? Why do they think they deserve to feel my endorphins and that I should miss out? The endorphins are coming from me!

Tuesday 31st May 2022 Update: Today did body balance class which i managed to complete even though I felt none of my endorphins at all. Last time because i was not feeling my endorphins i stopped doing the class. I guess there are alot of souls that are now micro-organisms rather than human as they enjoyed my endorphins whilst i did not. I did not feel a thing the entire workout. 

Friday 4th June 2022 Update: Still no endorphins. One lady who wanted to harness & lost the white light around her so felt like shit wanted me to provide endorphins so that she could feel good. In revenge because at the gym i could not workout without my endorphins so did not work out & make her feel good placed 1097 hypnotics & brought back Karl Josef Silberbauer & Derrick the mostly deadly souls known to man into my head & i had a shocker of a night to say the least. Luckily they have been removed again. The stupid part is that if that lady was laying dormant rather than harnessing she would have been able to enjoy 50-60 endorphin rushes as i would have been able to enjoy them also & would have worked out hard as at the gym. I just do not understand why souls cannot lay dormant & instead feel the need to harness which means i miss out??? Plus when you harness you loose the white light around you & you feel like shit so why do it? I do not understand. 

Sunday 12th June 2022 Update: 

Struggled to get through a shoulder workout with no endorphins coz three souls were harnessing so i missed out entirely even though its my body producing them. Plus they got the shits because i did not let them enjoy them enough by allowing more time for them between sets. Do they not realise what bad kharma it is? you could not get worse kharma if you tried. 

Friday 24th June 2022 Update: Still one person that is harnessing which means that i miss out. Why is there always one person?

Friday 1st July 2022 Update: Still harnessing because the nasty/stupid bitch (Please click here for more information) named Kara did not want to miss out. 

Sunday 10th July 2022 Update: Still souls are harnessing. Tried to push through a workout tonight without any endorphin rushes but was hard especially when one lady soul was harnessing & oooooohing and aaaaaaahing how good they felt. Because i did not provide her with endorphin rushes the previous day & because she had lost the white light around herself and she felt like shit meant she absolutely cunted me over in a big way. She brought back Karl (So no point working out at the gym as my body will not improve instead Karls will), Bitch & a Half Betty, Susan & Television bitch (whom demanded i turn the TV on for her otherwise she would bring back those nasty viscous souls which she did also). It got so bad that even the Glactic Cuties & Numbsicle where in trouble. She killed every dream i have ever had & all because she did not have white light around herself because she was harnessing. Why could she not Lay dormant??? It is important that i enjoy life (Please click here for more information). Why do you think my endorphins are so extreme??? Its because God (Number 7) (Please click here for more information) wants me to enjoy life to avoid consequences of souls harnessing & doing the wrong thing to me hypnotically.

Tuesday 25th July 2022 Update:Turns out there were a whole lot more souls harnessing in the background whenever I attend the gym. They all knew why my endorphins were so extreme because three souls have harnessed my endorphin rushes for three years and knew I had been deprived of endorphins for at least all of those three years now. That is why they know how extreme they are. You could not be more selfish and nasty if you tried plus to make matters worse each of these three ladies keeps telling everyone I’m the most selfish and arrogant soul that exists except how is that possible if I have white light around me. They argue you always have had white light around yourself but how does that argue my defence. They of course have the worst Ora’s possible? Level 5 ora's which is the worst colour you can have? How many more souls were hiding in the background harnessing thanks to them? These three main ladies have so many souls in the afterlife known to them, that will listen to them and allow them to place hypnotics on themselves and all totally unaware of their true intentions? they intent to harnessing every time I attempt to workout at they gym so they deprive me more of my endorphins making them even more extreme due to total deprivation of them by myself means their harnessing of my endorphins will feel even better for themselves? They all new why my endorphins were so extreme because they deprived me of them for more than three years now & counting. Talk about selfish and nasty although they all believe I’m the selfish one. 

Friday 29th July 2022 Update:Tonight i attempted the gym, i had a increase in dopamine & caffeine after administering drugs and tablets that would do that so hopefully i could somehow get through & complete a bicep & tricep workout. Souls in the afterlife made sure i had no increase in dopamine (Motivation & drive) & no effect from the caffeine PLUS which i ask several times nicely to have removed, they placed a hypnotic on my lower back that made it difficult & painful to move & dangerous to workout. I am sorry but there was noway i could workout tonight & after two bicep exercises i clled it quits. WHAT  IS SHOCKING IS THE AMOUNT OF SOULS THAT BECAUSE I DID NOT CONTINUE WORKING OUT & PRODUCING ENDORPHINS EVEN THOUGH I FELT LIKE SHIT & WAS IN PAIN & STRUGGLING SINCE THEY STOLE & DEPRIVED ME OF MOTIVATION & ENERGY FROM THE INCREASE OF CAFFEINE & DOPAMINE THAT I HAD GIVEN MYSELF CLAIMED & INSISTING THAT I AM THE MOST SELFISH, NASTY & ARROGANT SOUL IN EXISTENCE??? SO SICK OF HEARING THEM TELL ME THAT & THAT THEY NEED TO FEEL GOOD!!! FUCK ME I'D BE RICH NOW!!!

Wednesday 31st August 2022 Update:Tonight yet again souls are "Harnessing" my endorphin rushes. I am so sick of it so i cut the workout short & swam in the pool instead as i produce less endorphins swimming so no oooooohing and aaaaaaahing from the nasty souls that are harnessing as they enjoy them instead of me & anyone laying dormant. 

Souls in the afterlife just do not get it. Talk about harnessing and your white light will flicker, if you decide to harness anything, that includes endorphins, dopamine, Valium, caffeine, alcohol, absolutely anything not only does that mean I completely miss out on the effect but you will loose the white light around yourself. When you loose the white light around yourself you will feel like shit. That is meant to encourage you to gain the white light around yourself again but it seems the default for when you loose the white light around yourself is then to expect Alan Dowsett/Jock Hudson to make you feel good which makes the matter worse especially when your expecting me to make you feel good without allowing me to feel good at the same time! I am sick to death of hearing “but we are in the afterlife and we need to feel good” when they do not give one shit about me and only care about themselves. Makes it worse since your in the afterlife and privileged unlike myself! Plus harnessing means you are forced, because your in my head, to hear all of my thoughts & everything i am doing which is not a good idea for anyone. Plus like I have said, how much do you want to destroy & ruin your destiny, fate & Kharma? And laying dormant to someone “harnessing” is just as bad if not even worse to your own destiny, fate & Kharma because your condoning harnessing & encouraging it!!! Not a good idea!

Treating me badly & placing hypnotics on me that hurt & are uncomfortable will not make me want to provide endorphin rushes or dopamine increases for the afterlife. You need to treat me nicely if you expect me to provide good effects!!! Lastly for all the fuckwits out there, placing any hypnotic on me for what ever reason you think, is BAD KHARMA & doing yourself detriment!. Please do not place hypnotics on me. If you do you will appear on the notice board & the image will be of a hypnotic whore!!! 

All hypnotics are nasty & bad (Please click here for more information). Also if someone is "Harnessing" or turned me into a "Vestibule" & you decide to Lay dormant to them rather than laying dormant to me, trust me it is even more detrimental & bad Kharma than harnessing yourself. Why? Because your basically condoning it. You might as well be harnessing yourself, stupid fuckwitz!

How am i meant to workout at the gym when souls harness my endorphins??? They tingle & feel invincible & ready to climb mount everest. Me i feel like shit & after pushing out a set to failure how do i gain the motivation and drive to push out another set. They have all the motivation & drive & leave me feeling nothing!!! And expecting me to make you feel good because you have level 5 Ora (the worst ora possible) which because your harnessing is why you have such a bad ora makes your karma even worse!!!

At night they harness the valium that i take to go to sleep which is stupid because it means that i get no sleep & they miss out of the effect of the endorphin rush that i give off as i go to sleep & they miss out on the melatonin affect my brain gives off as i sleep!!!! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!

Plus if I am tingling like I do when I am having fun or having an orgasm & you are harnessing you will miss out completely the extra vibe i will be giving off, because i am getting all of the effect, & you will miss out on the tingles!!! Stupid! 

Update: One of the last few times i attempted to go the gym, the voices decided to be what they would call nice & allow me to feel half the endorphin rush that i should be feeling even though it is me pushing out the set to failure to destroy the muscle to make the muscle build bigger & it is my body giving off the endorphin rush that they say is too extreme for me to feel. I did promise that if they allowed me to feel the entire endorphin rush that i should be entitled to feel that i would try and achieve at least 45 or more sets which meant 45 or more endorphin rushes for anyone laying dormant to feel. The problem with only feeling the first half of the endorphin rush is that i felt the tingles from the rush but i did not feel the "I feel invincible" feeling that they all felt. What is the point of souls feeling invincible & like the could climb mount everest or just about do anything when they are not the ones that have to somehow get the motivation & drive to push out the next set. Without this feeling i became physically exhausted & although trying my hardest after 16 sets i could not physically push myself to do another set which if i had the "I feel invincible" or what i would say is the "Hell yes, let's do another set" feeling i could not achieve anymore. I did apologize & the voices felt sorry for me because i was feeling totally wrecked & even struggled getting back to the change rooms to shower & head home. Without the "invincible" feeling that comes after the tingles when i have a endorphin rush i cannot physically workout properly & train at the gym. Not possible. The voices being as selfish & arrogant as they are expected a Thank You for them allowing me to feel half the endorphin rush whilst they of course enjoyed the whole thing. 

No point even attempting to go the gym or Roller Skating whilst voices seriously intend on harnessing or turning me into a Vestibule to get all my dopamine or endorphin rushes whilst i miss out completely. 

The last time i went to the gym i did not attempt to swim like i usually would do because i was so physically exhausted because i did not feel my full endorphin rushes to enable me the stamina to continue & swim.

Even after reading this the women in the afterlife say my endorphin rushes are “too Extreme” (a hypnotic or thought set up to make them feel they deserve them instead of me) Please click here for more information & they are in the “Afterlife” & they deserve them to feel instead of me even though it’s me doing the exercise, it me producing the endorphin rush, it’s my body producing them! ITS AN ABSOLUTE FUCKING JOKE & THOSE WOMEN ARE FUCKING THEMSELVES HARD WITH DAMAGE & GIVING THEMSELVES BAD KARMA!!!

They Harness, Obtain, Acquire, Succeed my Dopamine releases, my endorphin rushes, my valium consumption, my alcohol consumption, my caffeine consumption, my viagra consumption, my temazepam consumption, my melatonin releases... it is fucken ridicululous & i am left with no effect at all, although it is me taking the drugs/vitamins although souls in the afterlife/heaven are completely off their bloody faces with the effects that i provide although i am completely sober, However when they harness the dompamine release when i am partying they only get about 50-60% of the effect because they have to enter my head to harness which reduces the effect. Plus i get no effect at all!!! HOW BLOODY SELFISH BUT THEN THEY REMIND ME THEY ARE IN THE AFTERLIFE/HEAVEN SO WHAT CAN I DO ABOUT IT! BAD BAD BAD KARMA IS ALL I WILL SAY!!!

AND TURNING ME INTO A VESTIBULE IS EVEN WORSE KARMA AGAIN! WHY BLOODY DO IT? DO THEY NOT FEAR THE CONSEQUENCES OF ME DYING UNHAPPY??? (PLEASE CLICK HERE FOR MORE INFORMATION).

If voices in my head wanted to feel good from me then the best thing would be to "Lay Dormant" & nothing else. I can make myself happy, smile & give off a good vibe. When i masturbate (Please click here for more information) they press the release button which releases cum, kills my mojo & stops me from tingling. Without them in my head i would be smiling & Jerking off, watching porn & thinking horny thoughts which gives off tingles & a good effect & would make them feel the best.

I cannot believe the sheer arrogance of the women in the afterlife that claim they deserve the endorphin rush because they are in the afterlife!!! It is me at the gym, it is me that is working out, it is me that is producing the endorphin rushe, it is me that is pushing the weights to failure but they feel I do not deserve to feel the endorphin rush at all !!!

Why do you think my body gives off endorphin rushes??? Is it to encourage & motivate me to do more???

The women still refuse to stop harnessing! PLUS now because they are so selfish they have gone to the extra effort of placing hypnotics on my back to cause me lower back pain in a bid to intensify the endorphin rush that only they will be feeling whilst I struggle to do any form of exercise. Also if I don’t produce endorphin rushes for them they then feel that they have every right to give me an episode! (Please click here for more information).