46. WORKING OUT AT THE GYM! GETTING FIT SHOULD BE FUN? WHAT THE VOICES WILL DO TO STOP ME WORKING OUT.

Embarrassed to show this but today my stomach stuck out & stretched to the point it hurt & for almost an hour or more? 

Only when i gave it in and voices had stopped me from working out & I left the gym & back in my car did my swollen belly deflate? Can voices in your head do this to a person?

My stomach being this swollen (please see photos) made it difficult to lift weights & I was scared of getting a hernia which was more than likely to occur when bloated is an understatement! You can see the shitty unhappy look on my face... How could i be happy? I wanted to crank it out & feel good after yesterday & feel like I was doing something towards getting back in shape! The voices enjoy my endorphins while I get dizzy! Well no dizzier than usual I guess! But sadly not in a fun way! The voices "Harness" or "Obtain" or "Receive" or “Acquire” my endorphins which means i do not get to feel them but rather than feeling nothing at all the voices go to the effort of making me feel Reverse/Opposite endorphin rush so i feel headaches and nauseous each time i push out a set doing weights if i do attempt a gym workout.

The voices call my name, constantly criticise me, put me down, and annoy the shit out of me & do their best to stop me working out although today was a step further than that! Like it isn't hard enough? Why do the voices i hear get a kick outta doing this? So today was not fun. Plus seen no hot naked men in the change rooms like normal. GRIN Lol! (But they even steal my hard on & try embarrass me in the showers - Please click here for more info)

I guess i should just grit my teeth & workout if and when i can!

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