43. WTF IS THIS??? WHY??? A REVERSE HARD ON??? WHY??? BECAUSE A JEALOUS VOICE I HEAR HATES MY GUTS???

This is what a voice in my head (Blog 40 explains who - Please click here) does to me. He reakon's he is "God" and calls this a reverse hard on! How & why is this possible?

The voices i hear do this to me for some reason? When ever I am in the gym change rooms after a workout (Please click here for more info about gym workouts), when ever I meet a hot guy or at my favourite beach, when ever they want to laugh and make fun of me! Its embarrassing to say the least! They say I could never have been Jock Hudson (Alan Dowsett) a porn star?

Photo Taken 2015 to prove real cock size

Sorry but I do love to have a good wank or jerk off session but I CANNOT a lot of the time coz of this! THEY HAVE EVEN TAKEN AWAY THE ENJOYMENT OF A GOOD ORGASM.... MAN'S greatest enjoyment! gone? They harness my orgasm? (Please click here for more information). Seems like i cannot have any fun without them destroying my fun for amusement. it sucks & because Karl was jealous which i do not do (Please click here for more information).

The voices in my head are always playing nasty games on me.... when have i ever done nasty type games to them??? 

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and as for frustration??? (Please click here for more information).