208. SOMEONE PLEASE STOP ME FROM SCREAMING?

The main problem with hearing voices is that you never get "Alone" time. When the voices are antagonising me (Please click here for more information) which is enhanced by lack of sleep sends me to boiling point & i have to do the best to avoid "Self Harm" (Please click here for more information). I rely on Nicorette Quickmist to calm myself down. The voices still keep calling me "Asshole"(Please click here for more information).

Still unable to stop the voices from "Harnessing" (Please click here for more information) although tonight i went to the "Gym" (Please click here for more information) and managed to have a reasonable workout which i hope continues as this week goes on.

When i am able to think & entertain myself the voices because they are in my head & playing a "Game" (Please click here for more information) say that i am Stupid & instead of having fun they make me depressed. They expect me to entertain them but cannot understand that is impossible when i cannot even think. 

Some of the voices are proud that they have treated me badly for 5 years or more & need me to be an asshole or make out that i am an asshole to be proud & so they can name call me & get a rush (feel Good) when they abuse me inside my head without my permission. None of them, even though treating me badly for at least 3 years still have never thought "What would it be like if i were him & he were me?"

Sadly i find myself screaming my head off & fearing "Hospitalisation" (Please click here for more information). 

I hear them inside my head & get no alone time to calm down & it is hard for people & the voices to understand!