It seems almost weekly i am having an episode. An episode is when the voices in my head have taken control & i am left screaming my head off. I cannot talk properly, I cannot swallow which means i cannot drink, eat or take anything, & the voices in my head i find so frustrating that i cannot do anything but scream. The worst part about not being able to swallow is that you choke. When i go to take my medications it makes it extremely hard to take. The voices like to play a game "Search & Destroy"
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Basically when i am eating they make the food in my mouth go to the front so you cannot swallow, digest & eat the food & they do their best to stop me from chewing as well. I hate when they do this to me, it makes eating very frustrating if i can eat at all. The say it is is a challenging game & they have every right to play the game. But again it is simply because they have unlimited time & nothing better to do! My only option is to swallow whatever i have chewed, hence the no swallowing thing! I have had 495 episodes since 2009 when the voices started in my head.
I am sick of having Episodes. How can i stop them?
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