14. HOW OFTEN IS YOUR WORLD STOPPED? TIME SIEZED? EVERYTHING FROZEN?

Another major seizure & body spasm found Jock Hudson frozen on the patio just like Emily Rose (Please click here for more information). Face pressed against the wall. Neck twisted. Arm underneath me. One leg inside door way, the other down stairs. Will I fall down the stairs on my face or stay stuck forever in this position? 911 Emergency services were called to assist by innocent bystander on Willoughby Avenue who witnessed the event.

I CANNOT MOVE! - I CANNOT GET UP! - I CANNOT MAKE A SOUND! - I CANNOT STOP HEARING VOICES - THEY CANNOT STOP - THEY WONT STOP - FINALLY I HEAR A VOICE THAT IS NOT IN MY HEAD

She says the opposite to them. She says I'm gonna be ok and 911 is on their way. A beautiful lady named "Andrea". Due to crashing her car into another car accidentally directly out front of my place was the reason she was standing out front of my place & the only reason she was able to see me frozen & stuck at the top of the stairs outside my front door. I had a major seizure before ending up just outside the front door on the patio with my face almost pressed against solid railing, right arm twisted underneath my body, legs twisted & one leg hanging down the stairs. Unable to move because in order to sit up right I need to first register what position I am stuck in & then figure out how to push myself back upright but not able to think or figure out anything I was totally stuck & frozen in what would appear a very scary looking position just like Emily Rose in her movie! 

Whilst she was on the phone to the paramedics, the voices decided to move me head first down the stairs because they could not understand what was going on & i tried to hook the back of my legs around the pot plant with the tree in outside the front door it to stop myself from crashing down the stairs head first but luckily no success because it would have come toppling down on top of me. 

She stayed with me as i sat at the bottom of my steps rather shaken up until the paramedics & the fire department arrived on scene. Luckily after telling them i had suffered another seizure they decided that i did not need to be taken to hospital that day. Andrea was more concerned with helping me than the damage she'd done to her car. I'm forever thankful to her. 

Luckily friends that i do have (back home in Sydney), i can call, they tell me its not them that i am hearing and I'm nuts and then I'm ok. But those people i don't know well, the more it seems i harass, the more i end up like this, and the more i loose all senses of reality..... Loosing reality is not the worst part, its when you find yourself treating people in ways you never want to be treated yourself, or doing things you never want done to yourself!. Thats what truly saddens me.... for all that it is worth to those people, i am sorry.