174. WHAT IS GOING ON? I AM GROVER (Thank you to Sesame Street) & PLEASE I WANT MY LIFE BACK!

i do not know what is going on with "Heaven" (Please click here for more information) that i hear in my head. I have been having "Episodes" (Please click here for more information) weekly which is shocking. During those episodes i cannot sleep, i cannot eat, i cannot drink & i even have troubles talking because the voices do not want to hear me talking out loud whereas when i talk in my head they can make it so that they do not hear me. 

The voices i hear reakon they know me, but how can they know me when i have not been myself since 2009 which is when the schizophrenia started. I miss being me. I should sound like a little kid in my head since my soul is only 3•5 years old after dying in my second life as "Aaron Rothschild" (Please click here for more information) & in my first life i only lived until "3•25 years old as Jesus" (Please click here for more information). Supposedly the youngest soul imaginable.

I unintentionally make Grover sounds when i am happy!

"My nickname is Grover" (Please click here for more information to test yourself to see how mental aware you are). Yes i do my best but always seem to stuff things up, plus i unintentionally make Grover sounds all day long if you are listening to me & i am able to talk with the voices in my head. 

The louder i scream "I want my life back" the more the voices in my head treat me like shit. (Please click here for more information).

Please read on.

Why wont the voices that i hear in my head simply lay dormant? Then they would not have to complain about hearing me & placing things on my eyes that hurts my eyes & visually impairs me because they do not want to hear what my eyes are telling my brain. They would get full 100% of any effect & i would be like i do not exist to them. Win = Win. Plus if the women spent one tenth or even one hundred of their time spent promoting "harnessing" instead ensuring everyone "Lay Dormant" then no one would miss out & the effects would be so much stronger!

It hurts so much because i do not know who these voices are anymore. They are all new & all want to do "Hypnotics" (Please click here for more information) & treat me like shit. It is not fair???