29. ANYONE SEEN A 6'5" KERMIT THE FROG? JOCK HUDSON LEAVES LOS ANGELES IN A HURRY! IF YOU CAN HEAR FROGS YOUR IN A GOOD ENVIRONMENT.

Happier, Healthier, Greener?
Can You Hear Frogs?

Without notifying anyone, Jock Hudson escaped Los Angeles, he gave away all his belongings & without telling anyone he left town, headed back home to Sydney Australia. Can you hear frogs where you are? Where ever & when ever you can hear frogs means that you are in a healthy environment. That is the best environment the best place to live.

Wish i had left the USA under different circumstances but i needed to leave & leave fast for my own self preservation, my condition was worsening as i tried to understand it plus i was burning bridges, blowing them up is probably closer to the truth & never able to cross those waters again. 

I truly am sorry to those in Los Angeles whom i may have been rude towards or treated in a manner that i would not like or want to be treated myself. Hopefully one day you will allow me to apologise in person, the only way a true apology can be made.

I tried to apologise to Marc Wilcox in person several times & a few years later (2013) when i returned to LA for the first time, I wasn't even going to explain what was wrong with me just appologise as tryin to get his attention when i was a mess was inappropriate to say the least. BUT sadly he would not come out of his office or see me, instead he told his staff to get me to leave a number & maybe he would get back to me. Since i flew back home to Sydney later that evening, i did not leave a number as I did not want to be seen again as a harasser plus if he called the next day the number would not have worked (disconnected). 

On the flight home I almost got a free upgrade which i did not need when the flight attendant (sitting directly accross from me) watched me cry my eyes out the second the wheels left the tarmac. Luckily being upstairs on that flight meant there was a quiet place at the back of plane away from everyone else where i tried to keep myself together the best i could. The funny thing was the flight attendant thought i was so distressed not because Marc Wilcox refused to see me but because i was scared of flying which i definitely am not with the amount of flights I have been on & she kept a check on me the entire way home which was lovely of her. ✈️ LOL. 

28•5. ONE OF THE LAST RETURN FLIGHTS HOME!

The voices i heard in my head said that they would leave my head once i got onto the plane. I was flying QANTAS airbus a380 & somehow managed to get an exit row seat at the back of the plane where there are only two seats next to the massive exit door (See pic (Seat Map) in this Story Blog Post below). I was in a bad state after being constantly harassed by the voices leading up to the flight & on board i learnt there is no point smashing your head against the toilet wall (Please click here for more information) because the walls are made of panels & people would wonder what the loud bang sound was. Being on the flight & hearing the voices would disappear i decided to take the Atripla medication (Please click here for more information) which has 600-mg of Sustiva (efavirenz) which i had stopped taking because it enabled the voices to move my body parts & gave me loads of problems whilst it was in my system. This meant Karl Josef Silberbauer (Please click here for more information) would go for gold & not leave my head. 

When I landed totally fatigued in Sydney i called my parents & luckily my dad was home to come & pick me up. So distracted from the voices i had forgotten to tell my parents which flight I was on & when i was coming home. 

Did Karl want to kill everyone on board the plane? Please click the link below to read more.

28. PRIDE PARADE WITH AHF (AIds Healthcare Foundation) AND COCKTAIL'S WITH THE STARS AT MICKEYS WEST HOLLYWOOD!

Doing LA Pride Parade With The Wonderful People at  AHF (Aids Healthcare Foundation)!

Today was a fun day, i got to march with AHF, Aids Healthcare Foundation. I cannot rant & rave how good these people are. From the three girls at the clinic that sit at a desk & serve at a window only made for two that always friendly and welcoming no matter how busy their day.... to the wonderful nurses & doctors that can even tell if your feeling down more than usual as they keep a regular check on you the best that they can... & even at the pharmacy where their staff happily give you all your prescription needs FREE of charge.

Mickey's Cocktails With The Stars Event at Mickeys NiteClub!

Who is Adam Russo?

Please click here

I'd been asked to do Cocktails with the stars at Mickey previously but sadly thought it involved Go Go dancing on the bar which i am 6'5" tall so i thought i would not even fit standing on the bar & certainly I am no Go Go dancer so i had declined the invite... Bummer! I did not realise it was a sit down & chatt thing held upstairs at Mickey's. I did not even know there was an upstairs at Mickeys. I would have got paid to do it & everything back then unlike agreeing to do it for free for Adam Russo. 

I wanted to promote AHF Aids Healthcare Foundations "Love Condoms" promotion because i have so much love for them but ended up playing semi nude twister wearing one of the audiences pair of jocks/underwear as i wasn't wearing any. My "Love Condoms" T-shirt was more important than wearing knickers that night! 

Its a shame Adam Russo wouldn't wear the same T-shirt as me, i should have refused to do the show since he refused to wear the T-shirt especially when they are such a good cause, plus i had brought AHF "Love Condoms" T-shirts for Adam Russo & all the boys to wear PLUS AHF had given me a tone of condoms & other goodies to give out to the audience but it was purely an "ADAM RUSSO" night & ALL about him & him only. Shame because i love & support AHF & there was a lack of a large audience because Adam Russo had been at Cocktails with the stars for weeks on end when it wasn't yet his turn flogging himself & his website so i guess people were over it. As you might gather & also doing an entire scene for free for Adam Russo for his website i am over it, or over him that is for sure. LOL. My roommate, Cameron, basically got a lifetime supply of condoms, keyrings & other goodies since no one to give them out to because of Adam Russo!

Oh well! :(

Although I fell out with Adam Russo after never even receiving a thank you for assisting him, I wish him all the best & today even in the years of 2020 & present day, he looks better & his looks have improved as he has gotten older which is a good thing because he is still involved in porn & clearly not able to do anything else as he now does straight porn but seriously, & I know this sounds nasty but besides his looks what else has he got going for him??? No personality, no creativity, no character, no manners, no nothing but his looks? Sorry Adam, I wish you all the best! 

The "Adam Russo" show never got posted or downloaded like all the other shows to the Mickeys Website. LOL.

Aids Healthcare Foundation (Please click here to learn more information)

27. NEW STOMPING GROUND! JOCK HUDSON'S BIG BROTHER! OKI DOG (860 N Fairfax Ave, Los Angeles, CA 90046, USA)

They see me out on the street, They knew EXACTLY who i was as soon as i moved in (I featured on the cover of the free newspaper, Frontier Aviators, handout (Please click here to see more) They see me come and go, They see me at all hours looking more lost than ever! 

They see each time the ambulance is called! They told me they keep count! They now act like my big brother! These guys have got huge hearts and the best watchful eye on the neighbourhood.Yesterday the owner, "Jimmy" chased me all way down the street and round the block to get me to eat chicken soup he had specially made, it's not even on their menu, BUT IT WAS THE BEST SOUP EVER MADE! Thank you Jimmy.

The chair on the right is one i
painted and recovered with leather.
Plus a new menu board.
Please click image to enlarge.

They asked me to paint and do them a new menu board. Except we disagree on the colour. The Goodchip Lolli Pop that works there (Brendan) says its "Orange"...like pumpkin???? WRONG I say this place is not orange like any pumpkin ...it is the colour of "GOLD!" Pure "GOLD!" ...Hammered full gloss gold is the color i wanted to paint the entire whole place so people would see it is GOLDEN!

PLUS Phillip Stark eat  your heart out, Jimmy and his re-cycle, re-use & re-invent, mix & match furniture, had your so called famous interior designs & so called new techniques down pat long before you became famous! Check out the Oki Dog Chain & notice the difference?

(Please click here for Phillip Stark interior designs).

I decided to start stealing their chairs from out front, sneak them into my garage and I try to fix them up (new leather, vinyl and paint) and then I try sneak past Jimmy and put em back in place all fixed up! Its my way of saying thanks for all their help and I do not want money for anything I might do, but they keep trying to give it to me!...or should i say Jimmy keeps catching me and forcing me to accept his money! Chased me around the block again the other day! hehehe. LOL It has become a super fun game but I keep getting caught! 

Wanna know what else i stole, repainted & tried to sneak back into Oki Dog? Please read on.

26. ER - HOSPITALISED FOR EMERGENCY SUPERVISION. CEDARS SINAI EMERGENCY LOS ANGELES.

Confused more than ever?

After hospitalization Friday (Cedars Sinai Emergency - A HUGE THANK YOU TO THEM -  Please click here for more info) & again Tuesday night (Olympia Medical Center), Porn star Jock Hudson has been placed back in Emergency Services & hospital for observation. 

Not a recent pic. Today i look like Anniliese Michaels. (Please click here for more information) De-hydrated, skin on my lips peeling off & in a Bad State. Sadly still marked with the bruises and scars from people trying to help but cant understand what is really going on. Last life line that stopped my body parts from moving, then i was permitted to return to the comfort of my own home.

Can someone please explain the voices in my head? Why is everyone so afraid to speak with me in person? Speaking behind a persons back never helps anyone including those doing that.  Am i worth that little not for them to check even once in person when the rest of the world can hear me screaming? Again I am sorry to my fans if i do not make or win this fight.

Cost of Ambulance ride = $1404.50

Thank you to New Order for singing "Blue Monday" & 8D Alternative for posting this song at Youtube.com. Subscribe here: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCxYi5rLh0d9qpl7t2Rajr8A

25. STILL TRYING TO SMILE & SEE THE LIGHT AFTER HOSPITALISATION!

Saved by Neighbors, Paramedics & Cedars Sinai Hospital Emergency Department.

 Cleaned up Thanks to Cedar Sinai & restored to cheeky trouble causing self? 

Sadly the truth of Friday is too painful and very little is being said about the severity of the seizure 

that occurred alerting local residents and emergency services to Jock Hudson. 

Still uncertain to how the porn star ended up out on Willoughby Road in front of his residence where emergency services cut off his shirt immediately to assess his situation.

I do remember hanging from my armpits on the fence beside my gate & flaying around on the ground seeing my landlord & his boyfriend who must have called 911. Also the police department that were on scene tried hand cuffing me to the paramedics bed to stop my body parts from moving but then I went unconscious!

The last thing i remembered when I was in the house was hearing voices which has been causing me issues for over a year now, but i was upstairs in the apartment at that time and not outside. When i woke up i was battered and bruised and in a bed in a hospital. The problem with Jock Hudson being a known party boy is that it seems everyone has already made up their minds as to what the problem is, however do they really know what is going on? Has anyone checked or asked him in person the question? 
What if someone has it wrong? 

Thank you to those people whom I was lucky to have had on the scene that helped & prevented me from hurting myself further whilst emergency services took over. If only there were more people like them, then this world would certainly be a better place. Again Thank you.

Cost of Cedars Senai Medical Centre = $1,480.94 Plus Emergency Services charges and fees.

Thank you to Lana Del Rey and Kristijan Majic for posting this at Youtube.com. Subscribe here: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCIKPesE2sC8NoipRJdkXc3g

24. EVEN GOOD LITTLE SCRUBBERS NEED A THANK YOU!

Nude bath scene featuring a cute otter finishes with a happy ending. 

But did Mickey ever say thanks to him?

Thank you to Walt Disney
for this picture of Mickey
Mouse & friendly Otter.

In this town (Los Angeles) the biggest thank you's come from the people you least expect and when you least expect it. The people that help the most don't even know what an amazing help they are! Its seems some people (not everyone) in Los Angeles would rather go out of their way and watch a person fall and hurt themselves and then go blame them for ruining their day because the person that fell took up their time or fell too close to them and made them feel insecure & not even attempt to help the person get up after falling and maybe think more about treading on them coz they fell in their way??? Can people really think they are that good? Can you kick a person while they are down and expect a thank you? Karl Josef Silberbauer (Please click here for more information) certainly thinks so. 

I seem to forever be apologizing. YES sometimes i am TOTALLY in the wrong but will be first to admit it... BUT i will NEVER be found deliberately laughing at another person's misfortune!

23. NOMINATED FOR BEST CUM SHOT AWARD - BUT TOLD I FUCKED UP THE MOVIE!

Chi Chi LaRue ignores Star in Trouble, refuses to speak with Jock Hudson in person... instead preferred to email him writing

"YOU FUCKED UP MY MOVIE"

Yet another film that if i wanted to see then i would have to purchase and buy online myself from the C1R website. I thought a lot of ChiChiLaRue when I first met ChiChi, but on the day i asked her for help that i desperately needed she turned on me. I arrived on set crying and distressed as i almost did not make it there that day after an exceptionally bad weekend of head troubles. Still shocked by what i managed to say out loud to her, it came out by accident ...But i knew i needed help. Sadly she assumed my problems where too much partying which if that were the case then how did i have the ability to cry in front of her (Methamphetamine releases Dopamine which should make it near impossible to cry) & she never bothered to check up on me after I left the set crying, instead she refused to speak with me in person & i can only guess she didn't care or believe what i said. 


The movie, or the particular scene that i featured in & was told via an email that i "fucked up!" turned out to be nominated for "Best Cumshot" award with Steven Daigle for "Raising the Bar".The Grabbys (as they are better known) formally known as the "Adult Erotic Gay Video Awards". I found out about the nomination by a client of mine, not Chi Chi La Rue & not Doug Jeffries!

Sadly we did not win...however Steven Daigle did win an award in another category. He won "Best Newcomer" which he certainly deserved as he was brilliant to work with & the reason why that scene turned out so well. In real life/person he is even sexier than you think!

If you have fallen down & unsure how to get back up, i urge you to please call Lifeline Australia (Please click here) or if in USA National Suicide Prevention Line (Please click here).

Thank you to Janet Jackson for this song as well as U.N for posting this song "Feedback" at Youtube.com. Please click here to subscribe: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCNwEB7AK21mgzZclqJX8dKA

22. DISCOVERING THE REAL LIFE STORY OF EMILY ROSE (ANNELIESE MICHEL) & FINDING THE SCAREY TRUTH?

 "Every seizure I have brings the truth closer" Jock Hudson

Would you believe, my clock in the living room had stopped & i kept walking past it thinking, bugger i need to replace the battery, then i seen what time it had stopped....eeeeeeeek it freaked me out as it is the same time as the time stops in the movie.

Post hypnotic suggestions? what are they? Is it true there are 152 body parts a post hypnotic suggestion can be placed? What if placed once? What if placed too many times? What if placed without your permission & if they are not removed? Can they be removed properly? In the end who has control or is in control? What happens in the case of system overload? Full enlightenment for open door for a window of opportunity?

In the movie "Exorcism of Emily Rose" it was a prescribed medicine that made matters worse. Can modern medicine in-advertadly open the door to full possession but then lack the capacity to make the correct diagnosis? Could Anneliese Michel's be horrifically the victim of school yard pranks  from souls she knew or souls in the afterlife that mistook her as someone else? Either way she was a victim of what would seem like a demonic possession or as i believe a victim of the same thing I am going through?

Hypnosis originates BC, is the Bible a transcript of what should and should not be done in Hypnosis in trying to discover who a soul really is? An Exorcism being an attempt to undo what should never have been done in the first place? Any attempt to prove reincarnation by finding the baby born the second a person dies fails because even with hypnosis its left up to individuals to decide for themselves. is it the previous king that just died, the one thought to have come from heaven, a god? (Please click here for more information on Christianity) Unless born in a palace then you will only be son of man, not man of god???

Even Adolf Hitler (Please click here for more information) was looking for the second book of the bible? The book that undoes all the hypnosis in trying to prove reincarnation (Please click here for more information). 

WHY DID THEY CHANGE HER NAME? SO IT DID NOT OFFEND the red haired "ANNIE"? Please read on.

21. WHO IS GETTING ME OFF? NEW RELEASE FROM FALCON STUDIOS!

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20. WHOS GOT YOUR BACK? GHOSTS? ORBS? NEITHER?

Orbs Discovered in Recent Daytime Photographs of Jock Hudson.

What if most of your adult life you were always looking over your shoulder to check who had your back? One thing is for sure, there is no-one in the porn industry that has got your back, & you should not expect or trust anyone that needs to announce how happy they are.

Click on Pic to enlarge to see Orbs

A Friend took this photograph to show the new tattoo. Taken 4pm in the afternoon - daytime. Both of us were surprised to see orbs in several photos.

What if one day you were taking photos and discovered something already had your back. Orbs? What are they? Ghosts? Energies relating to lost souls? Is there a connection between these entities & the voices I'm hearing in my head? 
(Please click here to see High Frequency Protection orb)
Thanks to moonsenders for the chart? Copyright by them 2004.

Tattoo - Meaning(s) of Stretching Star tattoo placed on shoulder blade. 

It represents the star of happiness & the last point stretches outward & placed on my shoulder blade to remind me to keep reaching/searching for happiness. The solid line without the fill above the star was originally to match the tattoo on my underarm... but a soul pointed out that when you are unable to find happiness you begin a journey towards a flatline. Its placed there as a reminder for me to try not to venture & avoid that direction.  Luckily a positive view is that the star has broken through the flatline.

Tattoo - Meaning(s) of Yin-Yang tattoo placed on underneath of bicep. 
It has a lot of meanings to myself. Firstly you can see my interpretation of ying/yang. The Ying-yang speaks for itself since I'm a versatile/bottom. yeah despite being a known bottom i'd like to believe i am versatile & both of them such as Masculine/feminine. I enjoy being a bottom but if a guy is more masculine than me (not difficult) then i am happy to top. If you put the dots that are missing in the ying/yang you see an outline of an eagle head. Which means, & i'd be wise to to remember it more, those who stay up late & hoot with the Owls at night cannot soar with the eagles in the morning. Also represents a surf wave from a love of the ocean & a respect to it after getting dumped on my head by a big wave back in younger days and feeling my neck crack (so close to being a quadriplegic it was not funny) & as i got out of the water because my chin had hit the bottom of the ocean so hard i had gravel rash on my throat & watering pink blood dripping down me. eeeeeeek. So i no longer body surf as a consequence. Too dangerous for me & lesson well learnt. A turning circle for me. I also like to make out the triangle shape represents a mountain & Pride symbol because i am a goat (Capricorn) & they say the goat always makes it to the top of the mountain except they are not usually concerned with how long it takes them to get there. hehehe. But they do get there. LOL (Photo courtesy of  TitanMedia)

Thanks to earthspark78 (https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCQbFRGGXtLAJIBMTtLHWYYA)

This is also Dawn's (The Fat Lady) (Please click here for more information & a photograph of her) song whom whilst was in my head after the big build up in the song as it peaks she went absolutely off, she totally went for it & i got to see it all & everything, made me wet myself laughing & i tingled like there was no tomorrow. She was too much fun! I miss her but know she is well in her new life.

19. HAVE EVERYTHING BUT SOMETHING MISSING? LOST IT OR DID YOU HAVE IT STOLEN?

Woody Gone? Soft Cock? or... Sketch Chicken? This bird pictured (Woody) wears diamond crystals. Even if from "Tiffany's" Does that help you fly?

Plus what is written above is cryptic, would if what occurred on this day and date meant the after life would be left completely flaccid and unable to move any of their body parts? (Please click here for more information)  As a consequence to me loosing all of that & dieing?

Last night another severe seizure occurred & porn star Jock Hudson found himself in yet another scene directly reminiscent of the movie "Excorism". Both my legs were moving dramatically & totally out of control knocking down shelves & causing damage to my bedroom. Thankfully on this occasion hospitalisation & medical assistance was not required although injuries included a small amount of abrasions and bruising to both feet & legs, back & body. This was caused mostly from being face down but both my legs moving up & down & flailing around so dramatically & vigorously that shelves were knocked down & wooden bedroom door damaged. It eventually stopped & when it did stop i had ended up beside the bed with the large heavy television (Grey object bedside bed in photograph) resting on top of my back.  

Photographs (Provided on request) were taken the next day to show the vast damage done & unexplained orb that appeared during the photo shoot. 


If you lost everything would you try to find it all again? 

Even If having nothing after loosing everything meant you could fly higher than ever before?


Thanks to Rocket Fuel (https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCJz27t_S_wCF-d8HXVwFjmQ)

18. TODAY MAYBE I MISS AUSTRALIA - THE INDIGENOUS (ABORIGINALS) PEOPLES LAND!

How far is LA (Los Angeles) from Heaven? Am i heading that way?

If you sketched out heaven, how would it look?

Would anyone else be there with you? Would they still be there if only you had seen it as heaven? Would it still be heaven if you were there alone? Would it be heaven if everyone was there?

Pictures taken by a friend who took me to this place in the Kangaroo Valley which I thought was absolute heaven! Grrrrrrrr Ethel.... you know who you are?

Also before i go further please ask yourself these questions:

Do you dream of a land without environmental problems? The land is always regenerating? Healthy & always improving? No permanent structures means land/soil is always prosperous?

Do you dream of a land with no STD's or STI's but still plenty of fun?

Do you dream of a land with no sickness, no colds or flu's?

Do you dream of a land where everyone gets along with everyone & everyone knows of each other?

Do you dream of a land where there is total equality among everyone whether your lesbian, gay, straight, bisexual, transgender, &/or intersex as "Sister-girls" & "Brother-boys" were accepted?

Do you dream of a land where there are well known customary laws which everyone follows but no crimes are committed as no one breaks the laws so no jails needed?

Do you dream of a land where everyone has the kind nature to welcome & have open arms to everyone? 

Do you dream of a World where all the race have beautiful faces that seem to smile?

(Everyone seems to think the Aboriginals were hostile like the Maurois in New Zealand, but they were not, in fact when white man jumped off their boat, the aboriginals saved them from drowning).

Did you answer yes to every question? Dream-land isn't it? ...or a Dream-time to live? ...or a Dream-time? Does the world not dream of being exactly like that today? What every person if they could change this world for the better would want for this world??? Did a World like that ever exist???

What does this mean? Please read on by clicking the link below.

17. MERV THE MERC & JOCK HUDSON BREAKING THE LAW!

Photo 1. Merv. Please click to enlarge

Please put out an ATB immediately on luxury Mercedes Benz Automobile answers by the name or 'Merv' the Merc who took owner Jock Hudson on a screaming joy ride & made him look like an inflatable sex doll & all caught on Police Camera (3rd Pic on left hand side). 

Photo 2. Merv. Here Rockin 19 inch AMG Wheels

Police had already suspected the pair as being high speed enjoyers and clearly labelling them as being a "Get away vehicle". Get away from what? They are still unsure! Original condition (Photo 1) and (Photo 2) after me upgrading Merv? Those rockin 19"inch AMG wheels (hence why I tried taking bumper off - Please see Photo right) were way too big & rubbed on guards and bumper going around corners! Tyres got retreaded every bend! Hehehe. I guess 18 inch may have been way to go! LOL But damn they looked good... was worth a try! Luckily i managed to sell the 19 inch AMG wheels which were too big & put original ones back on him. Since everyone was going matte black i decided i wanted to go matte grey but mostly got high on paint fumes which worried my concerned neighbors! I was Loving the Matte Grey look PLUS the best part about that matte grey look is that it is actually sandable primer spray paint so if you overspray or screw it up... you can fix it easily with sand paper once its dry! How FANTASTIC is that!

Wanna see more of Merv and find out what mischief he & Jock Hudson have been in? 

Please read on by clicking the link below.