131. NO VOICES IN MY HEAD? SADLY IT DID NOT LAST LONG!

Photo 2008

After a tough few weeks, i woke up Saturday afternoon after a really bad morning but this time things were different. I was shocked how quiet things in my head were. I slept a bit more & then again awake i realized things were different, there were no voices in my head. The only problem is that is has been almost fourteen years since i was, i guess you could say normal, & had no voices in my head. I need to learn how to talk to myself again. I used to have a four second tension span (diagnosed at the Narrabeen Sports Camp back in the 1990's) basically the tension span of a four year old which makes sense if you know of "My Past Lives" (Please click here for more information). Not sure if it has changed or not, trying to hear my thoughts like i used to do was rather odd to say the least & was difficult for me but i loved no voices as the quietness was heaven to me. The afterlife was still in my head, i could hear them as they listen to me start going about my business. I am not sure what i am meant to sound like in my head anymore. Some people have heard my voice in my head when i am really relaxed & myself & said it sounds like a clueless little four year old which i do remember used to confuse a lot of people. When souls heard the young clueless little kid, usually it followed by me yelling as i got assaulted by Karl & hypnotics in the afterlife so a lot of souls didn't realize it was both me & only liked me because i protected the young soul. Over time since having voices in my head means i am not relaxed & mostly unable to be myself the young clueless little kid got heard less & less, in fact almost never at all. Karl told everyone that i killed the young clueless little kid as i gave up protecting him. Sadly i suffered a lot from souls that believed this & had never checked out what my soul looks like which if they did they would discover i am probably "The Youngest Soul Imaginable" (Please click here for more information) & the clueless little kid.

I guess it does not matter as by the next day voices, without my permission, filled my head again. Souls in the afterlife couldn't handle how quiet it was & i was able, although difficult, to talk to myself after so long not able to talk to myself at all. They re-entered my head.

130. STILL HAVING PROBLEMS! THANK YOU TO THE GOOD VOICES I HEAR!

Photo taken 2022

Still hearing countless voices that i do not know. Finally i think "Karl Josef Silberbauer" (Please click here for more information) is now gone after entertaining everyone with my life experiences & then gets them to "Harness" (Please click here for more information) everything i do. Talk about a nasty character that is jealous for some reason. He tells everyone not to read my blog posts & talk about the nastiest "Games On My Head" (Please click here for more information) where the main objective is to make me unhappy & to force myself to kill myself. 

If your reading this blog from beginning to end your probably wondering what happened to Jenny Rothschild my mum when i was "Aaron Rothschild" (Please click here for more information). Emil Rothschild is still up in the afterlife. But a soul even in the afterlife can only take so much & after being tortured by Karl one to many times she passed onto her next life. Three times later she has reincarnated not by choice but because her soul cannot take the abuse that she gets from souls in the afterlife. One time there was a horrible gurgling sound as she passed on to the next life which only i could hear, although the whole time mostly protecting me. A little confused back in 2010-2011 as to who i was initially but after she worked it out she was my rock for the longest time, still is, although i struggle to please her by ensuring her i will "Soldier on"! What is sad & hard to deal with is that it was her (Cage Keepert) & Karl (whom was meant to be in a cage) that seen me glow when i reached "Optimal" (Please click here for more information) aged 32 in year 2009 & why my life was taken from me back then (Please click here for more information).

Mans best friend, Dog.

Thank goodness for the voices that i hear in my head that do support & help me like Ralph, Vans, Sarah, Kara, Katie (When she was good & had white light around her), Clara (When she was good & had white light around her), George, Ms Sporty Spice, Miss Swahili, Eliza, Colleen, Susan, Samuel, Stephano Monkey, Papa Rick, Geoff, Jacob, Mrs Sunshine, Marilyn & Vanessa, Nanna Rothschild (Plus Popsicle Rothschild), Katherine Jones & her girls, Emil Rothschild, Ms Ribena Berry, Ms Caroline, Vanessa, Marilyn, Brian, Roxette, Elspbeth, Miss Texas, Fatso & girlfriend, Larisa, Tabitha & sorry to anyone else i am forgetting that has been helping me attempt to have fun & a life.