47. ORB EASILY SEEN IN THE PHOTO. JUST NEAR LA PAROUSE BEACH... HEAVEN? ON PRINCE OF WALES DRIVE :)

ALF shines his light to help me avoid the dark.

photo taken 2018

***If i never see the sun again & feel the wind on my face even tomorrow... everyone needs to know that im gonna be alright. 10 years from the 19th Jan 2019 i have been hearing voices & the fun before this started i was having got taken away from me. RUOK?***

Bright White Orb = High frequency protection! Some souls are trying to help me. Evident in the photo, taken on Prince of Wales Drive, La Parouse around 9-10am as the sun was rising.

For more information about "orbs" please click here!

Photo taken in 2013 but only discovered Protection Orb in Photo Blog Story Post Date

P.S "IMPORTANT" to my loved friends & all those i met out & about over the years that make me smile and anyone that has heard me even giggle or spent personal time to speak to me, I THANKYOU, for discovering how different i am...I now smile if you hear me giggle & i am sorry but giggles & laughter, it means i no longer feel pain! But sadly i fear they are outnumbered by evil souls that are telling, lies, are racist, & full of hatred!

46. WORKING OUT AT THE GYM! GETTING FIT SHOULD BE FUN? WHAT THE VOICES WILL DO TO STOP ME WORKING OUT.

Embarrassed to show this but today my stomach stuck out & stretched to the point it hurt & for almost an hour or more? 

Only when i gave it in & voices had stopped me from working out & I left the gym & back in my car did my swollen belly deflate? Can voices in your head do this to a person?

My stomach being this swollen (please see photos) made it difficult to lift weights & I was scared of getting a hernia which was more than likely to occur when bloated is an understatement! You can see the shitty unhappy look on my face... How could i be happy? I wanted to crank it out & feel good after yesterday & feel like I was doing something towards getting back in shape! The voices enjoy my endorphins while I get dizzy! Well no dizzier than usual I guess! But sadly not in a fun way! The voices "Harness" or "Obtain" or "Receive" or “Acquire” my endorphins which means i do not get to feel them but rather than feeling nothing at all the voices go to the effort of making me feel Reverse/Opposite endorphin rush so i feel headaches and nauseous each time i push out a set doing weights if i do attempt a gym workout.

The voices call my name, constantly criticise me, put me down, and annoy the shit out of me & do their best to stop me working out although today was a step further than that! Like it isn't hard enough? Why do the voices i hear get a kick outta doing this? So today was not fun. Plus seen no hot naked men in the change rooms like normal. GRIN Lol! (But they even steal my hard on & try embarrass me in the showers - Please click here for more info)

I guess i should just grit my teeth & workout if and when i can! Please read on.

45. SHALLOW BREATHING? WILL I END UP IN A COMA?

The voices say "hearing my breathing offends them!" For over half an hour i felt the possibility i would fall into a coma or faint? It is not normal to breath that shallow for so long and feel like that in such a way! 


This morning after extreme harassment from the voices... i found myself breathing irregularly & the brains mechanism that i have that make me suck more oxygen if my body is not getting enough oxygen missing? A mechanism i have due to deviated septum that makes me shallow breath and not breath properly. Hence why i sound like Grover and make Grover from Sesame Street sounds because if i do not breath deeply enough my voice sounds funny. Then horrific pain in like never before. Voices say was pain at level 490! Then as i was breathing i started getting chest pains that made my breathing uncomfortable and hurt. I lay on the bed, hands starting to tingle slightly and my head aching... wondering if because of this shallow breathing and almost no breathing at all will a lack of oxygen to the brain cause more damage to my brain then occurring?

You took it all.. but i am still here! I'm Still Breathing! Please read on.