71•5. I WAS FOOLED BY KARL JOSEF SILBERBAUER! NEW YEAR START!

I guess i was fooled (Please see earlier Christmas Post - Please click here to see that blog post) & maybe it does not pay to be so forgiving? Countless souls that i hear in my head that won't identify themselves reminded me since Sunday that they can take away any bit of happyness i have & they are good at it. Why? because they did not enjoy life the way i had learnt how to do, &/or some souls find destroying life far more fun! "Why should we let him enjoy life when we did not"? its sad but that is what some so called 'Angels' in the afterlife are all about it seems? Even tonight as i go to bed unhappy... i've made souls in the afterlife upset because they have no challenge now! But they are all happy & proud of themselves? Or is Joanna his mother & Rob his father that are the happiest? (Please click here to find our more information regarding her and him)

Photo from 2010

New Year almost here... ☹️ Now when I look in the mirror what do I see? 

I do not see me like you see me pictured left, but i do see, looking at myself, that I have put up a damn bloody good fight... just look at the years that have past!

How worse can tomorrow be? Eeeeeeeeek! 

Hopefully I will become 

Super Grover (my nickname) 

once more?

Pic 1=How I feel now    | Pic 2=Hopefully how i will soon feel if voices are nice to me.|     Pic 3= Super Grover is what i wanna be again once more

71•25. LIFE DURING BIBLICAL DAYS! A CLUMSY LITTLE GOD???

Me, aged 1 years old in this life as Alan Dowsett

When i was around the age of 3 years old in my first life as a human being, unlike my twin brother, bored being inside the palace i stood outside looking for action. All the people that lived in the town below seen me, & because they thought i was born from Heaven & therefor a God, unlike them, they all look at me thinking i was going to address them. Eventually since i did not say anything they decided they had to leave the city limits to work in the fields before they got into trouble for not working. 

Since in my previous life i was the "Village dog" (Please click here for more information)  meant i wanted to hang out with the people & see where they all went so i started high tailing it towards the city exit gates with Stephano chasing behind me to stop me getting away, but i clumsily tripped over & face planted. Crying my eyes out, Stephano carried me back into the palace. The next day i did the same thing, Stefano chasing behind me... & yes I clumsyly face planted again as i fell on my face but this time Stephano figured i wanted to see what was outside the gates so took me outside the gates & this time stopped crying immediately. Everyday i would run to the gates with Stephano close behind. He soon decided to avoid the chase & another face plant to take me out to see the people whenever he could.

"Seizures & uncontrolled body movements" (Please click here for more information) same as in this life occurred when outside with the town folk & how i know the "Wagon wheel featuring Jesus" (Please click here for more information) was ideal to stop moving & hurting myself. One lady gave me a hug/cuddle & then told she needed to touch all the other workers because she had been blessed by a God. 

What kinda God was I? Please read on.

71. SUNDAY BEFORE CHRISTMAS, WHAT DID I GET THIS YEAR?

Sunday that just passed before Christmas things in my head have changed. If you have read my blog then you'll know that Karl Josef Silberbauer (Please click here for more information) has done a lot of nasty things to myself & I just assumed it was because of the time & place that he grew up... but you should never assume anything.

When the voices started in my head I was aged 32 & if you read Blog 5 (Please click her to see) you'll know I was doing well. Apparently I had reached what they call "Optimal" (Please click here for more information). When you have overcome challenges in your life & are heading in a good direction you reach Optimal. Life will still provide challenges but it's your direction you need to find. Anyways long story even longer or hopefully shorter... when you reach Optimal (Please click here for more information) you give off a glowing light that can be seen by all those who watch over you seen as bright as bright can be. Evil does lurk... it keeps you on your toes... but an evil soul told Karl the light he had seen was meant to be his rebirth. He thought he was meant to be me, that I somehow stole his chance of happiness & the more I have tried or been able to be happy the more drive he had to destroy any kind of dream & happiness I have!

We all have past life's & before I was Aaron Rothschild born 1940 that died age 4•5 years old, at Auschwitz (Please click here for more info),  I was in-fact someone else & sadly in that life I again only survived to the age of 3•5 years old (Died close to 4 A.D). But I had a twin brother in that life (Mary had identical twin boys which everyone forgets) Most folks did not know she had given birth to identical twins as they had only seen me as i had ventured out onto the fields (Please click here for more information) where they worked coz i was a people person whereas my twin brother stayed inside the palace all the time. My twin brother was connected to me & seen the turmoil seen as torture for any soul that consequently took my life. My feet never needed staking because i was pushing down so hard with them. Whilst on the cross they staked my hands. From my perspective the right hand the stake went directly through, whilst on the left hand the stake was not in the center of my hand but my wrist so i was bleeding to death & they untied me from the cross. Whilst untied & not on the cross they then decided to crack open my skull to see what my brain looked like & decided it was not the brain of a god but that if a human. (skull cracked open (a Euphorbia Milii desert plant (Crown of thorns) woven to keep my skull together & the thorns were not removed in order for it to be placed & to stick into the skin to keep my head together so no one could see my skull had been split down the middle) this was done to see if i was from heaven = god, born into the palace or from humanity like everyone else - Buddhism changed this mentality or way of thinking and that we are all equal & all have heaven, humanity, animality, hunger, anger & hell within us) 

What happened after they cracked/cut my skull open? Please read on.