Not a recent pic. Today i look like Anniliese Michaels. (Please click here for more information) De-hydrated, skin on my lips peeling off & in a Bad State. Sadly still marked with the bruises and scars from people trying to help but cant understand what is really going on. Last life line that stopped my body parts from moving, then i was permitted to return to the comfort of my own home.
Can someone please explain the voices in my head? Why is everyone so afraid to speak with me in person? Speaking behind a persons back never helps anyone including those doing that. Am i worth that little not for them to check even once in person when the rest of the world can hear me screaming? Again I am sorry to my fans if i do not make or win this fight.
Saved by Neighbours, Paramedics & Cedars Sinai Emergency Department.
Cleaned up Thanks to Cedar Sinai & restored back to cheeky trouble causing self!
Sadly the truth of Friday is too painful & very little is being said about the severity of the seizure that occurred alerting local residents, Landlord & emergency services to Jock Hudson.
Still uncertain as to how the Porn Star ended up outside
on Willoughby Road in front of his residence where
Emergency Services cut off his T-Shirt immediately to assess his situation.
I do remember hanging from my armpits on the fence beside my security gate & flaying around on the ground & seeing my Landlord Michael & his boyfriend whom, or it was Oki Dog Restaurant (Please click here for more information) Jimmy that luckily called 911. Also the police department that were on scene tried hand cuffing me to the paramedics bed in an attempt to stop my body parts from moving when i went unconscious!
The last thing i remembered when i was in the house hearing voices that has been causing me issues for over a year now, but i was upstairs in the apartment at that time & not outside. When i woke up i was battered & bruised with skin missing from my fingers, hands, feet, toes, elbows & knees & in a bed in a hospital. The problem with Jock Hudson being a known Party Boy is that it seems everyone has already made up their mind as to what the problem is, however do they really know what is going on?
Has anyone checked or asked the question?
What if everyone has it wrong?
Thank you to those people whom i was lucky to have had on the scene that helped me & prevented me from hurting myself further whilst Emergency Services took over. If only there were more people like them, then this world would certainly be a better place. Again Thank You.
Cost of Cedars Sinai Medical Centre = $1,490.94 Plus Emergency Services charges & fees.
Thank you to Lana Del Rey & Kristijan for posting this at Youtube.com
Nude bath scene featuring a cute otter finishes with a happy ending.
But did Mickey ever say thanks to him?
Thank you to Walt Disney for this picture of Mickey Mouse & friendly Otter.
In this town (Los Angeles) the biggest thank you's come from the people you least expect and when you least expect it. The people that help the most don't even know what an amazing help they are! Its seems some people (not everyone) in Los Angeles would rather go out of their way and watch a person fall and hurt themselves and then go blame them for ruining their day because the person that fell took up their time or fell too close to them and made them feel insecure & not even attempt to help the person get up after falling and maybe think more about treading on them coz they fell in their way??? Can people really think they are that good? Can you kick a person while they are down and expect a thank you? Karl Josef Silberbauer (Please click here for more information) certainly thinks so.
I seem to forever be apologizing. YES sometimes i am TOTALLY in the wrong but will be first to admit it... BUT i will NEVER be found deliberately laughing at another person's misfortune!
Chi Chi LaRue ignores Star in Trouble, refuses to speak with Jock Hudson in person... instead preferred to email him writing
"YOU FUCKED UP MY MOVIE"
Yet another film that if i wanted to see then i would have to purchase and buy online myself from the C1R website. I thought a lot of ChiChiLaRue when I first met ChiChi, but on the day i asked her for help that i desperately needed she turned on me. I arrived on set crying and distressed as i almost did not make it there that day after an exceptionally bad weekend of head troubles. Still shocked by what i managed to say out loud to her, it came out by accident ...But i knew i needed help.Sadly she assumed my problems where too much partying which if that were the case then how did i have the ability to cry in front of her (Methamphetamine releases Dopamine which should make it near impossible to cry) & she never bothered to check up on me after I left the set crying, instead she refused to speak with me in person & i can only guess she didn't care or believe what i said.
The movie, or the particular scene that i featured in & was told via an email that i "fucked up!" turned out to be nominated for "Best Cumshot" award with Steven Daigle for "Raising the Bar".The Grabbys (as they are better known) formally known as the "Adult Erotic Gay Video Awards". I found out about the nomination by a client of mine, not Chi Chi La Rue & not Doug Jeffries! Sadly we did not win...however Steven Daigle did win an award in another category. He won "Best Newcomer" which he certainly deserved as he was brilliant to work with & the reason why that scene turned out so well. In real life/person he is even sexier than you think!
"Every seizure I have brings the truth closer" Jock Hudson
Would you believe, my clock in the living room had stopped & i kept walking past it thinking, bugger i need to replace the battery, then i seen what time it had stopped....eeeeeeeek it freaked me out as it is the same time as the time stops in the movie.Post hypnotic suggestions? what are they? Is it true there are 152 body parts a post hypnotic suggestion can be placed? What if placed once? What if placed too many times? What if placed without your permission & if they are not removed? Can they be removed properly? In the end who has control or is in control? What happens in the case of system overload? Full enlightenment for open door for a window of opportunity?
In the movie "Exorcism of Emily Rose" it was a prescribed medicine that made matters worse. Can modern medicine in-advertadly open the door to full possession but then lack the capacity to make the correct diagnosis? Could Anneliese Michel's be horrifically the victim of school yard pranks from souls she knew or souls in the afterlife that mistook her as someone else? Either way she was a victim of what would seem like a demonic possession or as i believe a victim of the same thing I am going through?
Hypnosis originates BC, is the Bible a transcript of what should and should not be done in Hypnosis in trying to discover who a soul really is? An Exorcism being an attempt to undo what should never have been done in the first place? Any attempt to prove reincarnation by finding the baby born the second a person dies fails because even with hypnosis its left up to individuals to decide for themselves. is it the previous king that just died, the one thought to have come from heaven, a god? (Please click here for more information on Christianity) Unless born in a palace then you will only be son of man, not man of god???
Orbs Discovered in Recent Daytime Photographs of Jock Hudson.
What if most of your adult life you were always looking over your shoulder to check who had your back? One thing is for sure, there is no-one in the porn industry that has got your back, & you should not expect or trust anyone that needs to announce how happy they are.
Click on Pic to enlarge to see Orbs
A Friend took this photograph to show the new tattoo. Taken 4pm in the afternoon - daytime. Both of us were surprised to see orbs in several photos.
What if one day you were taking photos and discovered something already had your back. Orbs? What are they? Ghosts? Energies relating to lost souls? Is there a connection between these entities & the voices I'm hearing in my head? (Please click here to see High Frequency Protection orb) Thanks to moonsenders for the chart? Copyright by them 2004.
Tattoo - Meaning(s) of Stretching Star tattoo placed on shoulder blade.
It represents the star of happiness & the last point stretches outward & placed on my shoulder blade to remind me to keep reaching/searching for happiness. The solid line without the fill above the star was originally to match the tattoo on my underarm... but a soul pointed out that when you are unable to find happiness you begin a journey towards a flatline. Its placed there as a reminder for me to try not to venture & avoid that direction. Luckily a positive view is that the star has broken through the flatline.
Tattoo - Meaning(s) of Yin-Yang tattoo placed on underneath of bicep. It has a lot of meanings to myself. Firstly you can see my interpretation of ying/yang. The Ying-yang speaks for itself since I'm a versatile/bottom. yeah despite being a known bottom i'd like to believe i am versatile & both of them such as Masculine/feminine. I enjoy being a bottom but if a guy is more masculine than me (not difficult) then i am happy to top. If you put the dots that are missing in the ying/yang you see an outline of an eagle head. Which means, & i'd be wise to to remember it more, those who stay up late & hoot with the Owls at night cannot soar with the eagles in the morning. Also represents a surf wave from a love of the ocean & a respect to it after getting dumped on my head by a big wave back in younger days and feeling my neck crack (so close to being a quadriplegic it was not funny) & as i got out of the water because my chin had hit the bottom of the ocean so hard i had gravel rash on my throat & watering pink blood dripping down me. eeeeeeek. So i no longer body surf as a consequence. Too dangerous for me & lesson well learnt. A turning circle for me. I also like to make out the triangle shape represents a mountain & Pride symbol because i am a goat (Capricorn) & they say the goat always makes it to the top of the mountain except they are not usually concerned with how long it takes them to get there. hehehe. But they do get there. LOL (Photo courtesy of TitanMedia)
This is also Dawn's (The Fat Lady) (Please click here for more information & a photograph of her) song whom whilst was in my head after the big build up in the song as it peaks she went absolutely off, she totally went for it & i got to see it all & everything, made me wet myself laughing & i tingled like there was no tomorrow. She was too much fun! I miss her but know she is well in her new life.
Woody Gone? Soft Cock? or... Sketch Chicken? This bird pictured (Woody) wears diamond crystals. Even if from "Tiffany's" Does that help you fly?
Plus what is written above is cryptic, would if what occurred on this day and date meant the after life would be left completely flaccid and unable to move any of their body parts? (Please click here for more information) As a consequence to me loosing all of that & dieing?
Last night another severe seizure occurred & porn star Jock Hudson found himself in yet another scene directly reminiscent of the movie "Excorism". Both my legs were moving dramatically & totally out of control knocking down shelves & causing damage to my bedroom. Thankfully on this occasion hospitalisation & medical assistance was not required although injuries included a small amount of abrasions and bruising to both feet & legs, back & body. This was caused mostly from being face down but both my legs moving up & down & flailing around so dramatically & vigorously that shelves were knocked down & wooden bedroom door damaged. It eventually stopped & when it did stop i had ended up beside the bed with the large heavy television (Grey object bedside bed in photograph) resting on top of my back.
Photographs (Provided on request) were taken the next day to show the vast damage done & unexplained orb that appeared during the photo shoot.
If you lost everything would you try to find it all again?
Even If having nothing after loosing everything meant you could fly higher than ever before?
