184. PLEASE WISH ME LUCK?

I am writing this still being in "Hospital" (Please click here for more information) & not sure how i am doing? The voices in my head seem to be settled thanks to some good souls in my head that have set them straight & taken affirmative action. Not sure where i am with the "Wall Psych Question" (Please click here for more information) but i am doing alot better than i was last Wednesday when i was admitted. My fear is when & if they allow me to leave Hospital will the voices go back to giving me "Episodes" (Please click here for more information). I almost had an episode last night in hospital but luckily good souls and Present (Please click here for more information) won’t have it! 

Please wish me Luck? I cannot handle more Episodes (Please click here for more information).

183. HOSPIALISED AGAIN? POLICE & PARAMEDICS KINDLY TAKE JOCK HUDSON TO HOSPITAL!

Hospital Care (ICU - Intensive Care Unit) since Wednesday 16th October.

What am I meant to do when the voices i hear in my head go too far in messing up my live & causing me grief? Sadly last Tuesday night the voices were at their worse & giving me a major "Episode" (Please click here for more information) Very similar to last time "Hospitalisation Occurred" (Please click here for more information). One of the female voices i heard kept saying she hated my guts because i had pointed out how she could feel good 100% & remain with "White Light" (Please click here for more information) & as she said "The men would still be interested in me". Oooooh she was vial. I could not swallow or drink or eat & the voices felt the were gaining "Jackpot" in their "Game" (Please click here for more information) because it meant if i cannot swallow that i would die of dehydration & starvation! Sad that the "Women" (Please click here for more information) get off on harming me & get together in groups of 150 Women so that they is basically not much anyone can do about them. Somehow the Women blame me for their problems & why they want to harm me. I am sick of them saying "Your a selfish Asshole/Cunt" when the truth is that these souls have "Unlimited time" & nothing better to do with their time being in "Heaven" (Please click here for more information) & they are the selfish ones as they expect me, whom does not have unlimited time, to make them feel good & therefore get off on doing nothing more than harrass me.  

Police & Paramedics called by a neighbour living on his street discovered how distressed he was & i do not want to admit but unable to deal with the abuse & torture from the voices in my head with no way to stop hearing them meant on Wednesday afternoon Jock Hudson aka Alan Dowsett was found standing on a garbage bin with a noose around his neck by a neighbour.. 

Emergency Services included both Police & Paramedics decided it was best if Jock Hudson was placed in ICU (Intensive Care Unit) Mental Health Ward at Sutherland Hospital. Hopefully the good souls in my head will beat the nasty, rude disrespectful souls that only want to "Cunt" (Please click here for more information) me & i will get my "Life Back" (Please click here for more information).

Release date 8th November with Discharge date of 11th November if New Medication (Please click here for more information) goes well. 

I do need a Break!

182. THE FUN I COULD BE HAVING IF NO VOICES IN MY HEAD?

The voices i hear in my head being "Schizophrenic Diagnosed" (Please click here for more information) are in "Heaven" (Please click here for more information) & majority of them want to treat me badly & give me "Episodes" (Please click here for more information). This October Long Weekend "I Remember House" (Please click here for more information) was held & a friend convinced me to go. I was paranoid that i am out of shape from inability to go to the "Gym" (Please click here for more information) however i did go. Seen a lot of familiar faces & when i arrived the party was absolutely going off! same generation as me as i do not think the next/other generations to me are all about getting off your face & dancing your tits off or chipmunking?

Will the Retirement Village be going off? MY TIME IS LIMITED!

They say that dogs are a good judge of Character???

Would you believe this is not my dog???

I was sitting in the park???

What happened at the Party? Please read on.

Sadly the voices in my head took over, mostly "Women" (Please click here for more information), & sadly for me, whilst at the party i sat there looking unhappy & trying not to cry. All the women had decided that I was a cunt & backed it up as their excuse for treating me so badly since 2009! Like a broken record i kept hearing them say "He is a Cunt" (Please click here for more information).

"The truth about why the voices have treated me so badly, rudely & painfully is because they have Unlimited Time, not one voice in their heads & nothing better to do & refuse to put things in perspective & think how would I feel/be if I was him & he was me!” Also because they do things in groups & large numbers no one with “White Light” (Please click here for more information) I was not able to "Get off my Face" (Please click here for more information) because the voices were "Harnessing" (Please click here for more information) although i did my best to enjoy. 

Sitting at a Party looking like you have shit on the liver is not a good look so before even an hour i left the party. I am so upset. Imagine the amount of fun i could be having & "Where Would I Be" (Please click here for more information) if i did not have voices in my head? I am upset today. What is stopping you now? "Suicide is not the Answer" (Please click here for more information).

181. COULD HEAVEN CEASE TO EXIST?

If no souls have "White Light" (Please click here for more information) around them "Heaven" ceases to exist?

Are there "Consequences" if/when i die that also means "Heaven" ceases to exist? (Please click here for more information)

If you have read the "Afterlife Ceases to Exist" (Please click here for more information) & now "Only Heaven" (Please click here for more information) then you know that i am serious. 

Souls in "Heaven" (Please click here for more information) are so involved or as i would say "Fucked Up" in "Hypnotics" (Please click here for more information) & giving themselves additional "Abilities" via "Hypnotical Setup" which they do not need. One woman who insisted on being called "The Madonna" screwed herself & all of "Heaven" because she had given herself abilities which made her have the ability to control everyone & of course treat me like shit but she had not given herself the ability to think rationally & logically & realise that being on "Opposite/Reverse" whilst i am feeling like death is not just bad Karma but also it is the WRONG THING TO DO & WILL CAUSE YOU TO LOOSE WHITE LIGHT AROUND ONESELF. As she recruited more & more souls to increase her evil ways meant that it got to a stage that there was pretty much no one left with "White Light" (Please click here for more information) around them which meant that "Heaven" should have ceased in its existence & disappeared completely? 

So how can Heaven still exist? Please read on.