107. GAMES BEING PLACED ON HUMAN HEADS LIKE MINE. I AM NO MONKEY!

Tonight the afterlife removed the games placed on my head plus 609 voices & hopefully removed for good. Why? Because when i go to sleep at night i do not care if i do not wake up since yet another game will be placed on my head. (Please click here for more information). They forget that no game & no hypnotic can make you feel as good as when you glow or tingle which can be achieved by simply doing the right thing & talking to one another.

When games are placed on my head they usually place one million & one games, plus a hidden game underneath plus probably another game that supposedly cannot be removed to ensure they have unlimited games on my head which is all done without my permission & with no way for me to remove. 

The main object of any game (Mostly search & destroy) placed is to kill any dream i might have (Please click here for more information), any happiness i might have (Please click here for more information), and kill the life i have within me after spending 10 years learning to love life (Please click here for more information). Game players get extra points if they make me self harm (Please click here for more information). Game Players have no-one to watch over & do it for fun & place games on my head because I cannot remove them, & I cannot remove the hypnotics (Please click here for more information) I have no escape & I cannot get away from them. Also because my soul is only 3 1/2 years old in this life as Alan Dowsett/Jock Hudson because my soul is so young after almost turning 4 years old in my first life (Please click here for more information) and almost turning 4 years old in my second life (Please click here for more information) means my soul is fun to destroy & bounces back pretty quick no matter how much harm they cause me.

Today yet another game was placed on my head & not a monkey's head lasted more than 24 hours. I have heard that over the past thirteen years that i have been hearing the afterlife in my head, 87% of the last thirteen years have been consumed not by me enjoying life and having fun but by the afterlife with their agendas. 59% of the last thirteen years i have had one or more and uncountable numbers of games (Please click here for more information) on my head which i have no ability to remove or do anything about. Karl Josef Siberbauer (Please click here for more information) invented most of the games which are nothing but mere torture to me. Since he is not around it is the nasty bitches (Please click here for more information) that he taught that love playing them.

The main reason the afterlife plays games on my head is boredom because they have stopped watching over loved ones & have nothing better to do! They have unlimited time!

What you need to know if playing a game? Please read on by clicking link below.

106. VOICES IN MY HEAD, OMG SERIOUSLY I HAVE HAD ENOUGH!

OMG... the nastiest voice that i hear in my head (Karl Josef Silberbauer - Please click here for more info) has now gone, he got sent back & burnt at the core over a year ago but i am still bloody dealing with the women he used to get to be nasty to me, 509 of them. (Please click here for more info). These ladies all lived privileged lives & are only in the after life because when they died they were told they would be drawn to Karl who would be in a cage & they would get answers to what he did to them in their past lives & why they had problems in their life & why they did not reach optimal, otherwise they would not be permitted to be in the afterlife. OMG i cannot tell you how sick & tired of dealing with them i am. Thought it was finally over & now some asshole that loved Karl & like him thinks i am the most useless thing (Please click here for more info) because i was Jewish Aaron Rothschild (Please click here for more info) in a past life. These souls that bother me do not even have white light around them (Please click here for more info). It means i cannot do things that i want to do (Please click here for more info). Sadly i do not think i will ever understand what has gone on relentlessly and continues in my head. 

Seriously the afterlife in my head is meant to be filled with angels not assholes & fuckwitz (Please click here for more information). 

What rock did they crawl out from under! 

Last weekend i had 534 voices in my head all at once & seriously the good souls that try to help me were outnumbered & i suffered greatly!

How nasty can they be? Please read on by clicking link below.

105. IS IT TRUE THAT ALL THE STARS IN THE SKY ARE INLINE?

I have been told tonight that all the stars in the sky are inline again? The last time this occurred believe it or not was when it was my birthday when i turned 44 years old. (Please click  here for more information). So what does this mean? I was hoping a celebration that i get gifted my life back and everyone lives happily? Both down here on Earth or up there in the Afterlife? 

But something tells me tonight maybe the mark of the date of the beginning of the end? I hope not!

So sad when the answers to avoid world warning number three which maybe the last & final warning given were easy to follow? The biggest problem (Hypnotics) - (Please click here for more information) have been increased instead of removed? Anything worthwhile does not need a Hypnotic! (Please click here for more information). What about the feeling you get from someone being interested in you, the feeling of tingles when you glow, the sensation of an orgasm & old fashioned fun... But then all this has been taken away from me & no-one seems to rediscover how good it all can feel? What about souls having the white light around them (Please click here for more information) which i have somehow still have around me. Seems the afterlife is still more concerned with protecting those without white light & those that "harness". Harnessing is basically leeching anything good out of a soul & not letting the soul that you are getting the feel good effect from feel anything. You can even harness a person's orgasm so that you feel it & the person does not feel the slightest tingle down their spine. (For more information pleases click here). They would feel nothing! As of 01//11/2022 I have now missed out on feeling a total of 99 orgasms. I have not even felt the slightest goosebump down my spine as i know you should feel when having an orgasm! 

Who cares anyway? Was the afterlife warned? Please read on by clicking link below.

104. QUIT SMOKING - PLEASE I URGE YOU TO QUIT IF YOU ALREADY HAVE NOT DONE SO.

On this day back in 2017 i finally quit buying cigarettes. I was almost a pack a day - Seriously unhealthy & it needed to stop.

How to quit smoking? My Advice. 

Set yourself a date, for example in 3-4 weeks time i will quit smoking & get used to the idea as the 3-4 weeks runs out & learn that you will no longer be smoking ever again or as i prefer to say you will NEVER buy a packet of cigarettes again. I posted this pic of me smoking on Facebook since i never looked good smoking to help myself with the date i stopped.

Please note: From time to time in the future you will have the urge to smoke especially if someone you know still smokes. Having a cigarette from time to time or once in a blue moon is ok, if you find a friend willing to give you one, as long as you DO NOT buy a pack. I admit since i quit buying cigarettes i have had one or two here and there, which luckily will not kill you, however i have STUCK to my commitment of NEVER buying a packet again which means, NEVER buying a pack, you have NOT taken up the habit again. Smoking will kill you so you need to quit.

The hardest thing about giving up smoking is missing the ritual that goes with it. i used always find if i was having a bad day i could always think it was because i had not had a cigarette & then once i had a cigarette then bad day over, plus inhaling & watching exhaled smoke was enough to make any bad day enjoyable.

Nicorette Quickmist Spray administers one ml of Nicotine giving a rush enough to remove cravings. I found gum & locensgers & enhalaurs did not administer enough rush to reduce a cigarette fix. Too many squirts of the Nicorette Quickmist Spray gives severe rush & you could vomit or feel nauseous so it works i assure you.  

103. SEND THEM THROUGH TO SCHOOL OF UNIVERSITYISM!

Photo from 2006

If you have been reading my blog then you would already know what Universitysm is. If not please click here to find out what Universityism is. When you die if you have something left to prove or sort out then you will stay as a ghost in the "Living Dead" otherwise when you die you see a bright white light. If you have reached "Optimal" in your life then before going into the light you will be allowed to enter the "Afterlife" which is amazing and allows you to watch over the loved ones that you have left behind. Or in the 509 women's case (Please click here for more information) they were told that someone would be in a cage for them to meet, Karl Josef silberbauer (please click here for more information) because of what he did to them at Chelmno & Auschwitz is why you have had problems or unhappy lives in the life you just lead.

Anyways in the afterlife when you decide to pass on to the next life, doors will appear and "Equilibrium" will occur and you will pass on. Hopefully you pass on as a human (the ideal thing to pass on as) or if you have done seriously the wrong thing a microorganism (Not so ideal). When people passed on you would see a green image as to what they were placed as from animals & spiders (fully grown as i suppose your life is mapped out for you) to a lady holding a baby which means they made it as human (because destiny & fate set by what you did in life & afterlife however you have the ability to change it throughout life by going with the good voice). 

Best when thinking of "God" to think of him/her as being a energy or the universe rather than a person to best get your head around how powerful he/she is. Why? Because if you combined every soul on earth, babies and old people, every race and religion, plus all the souls in the afterlife and combine them all together then you will come close to understanding who god is. (Please click here for more information). He/she is more than all those souls combined and knows all about all those souls combined meaning he/she is more than he/she, he/she is both he & She so is a third type at least and knows everything... more amazing than you could ever imagine. When people have passed on, souls in the afterlife have been bringing souls back that did not make it as human & going against the wishes of god & that is why now in the afterlife you no longer get to see the image of what a person has been placed as in their new life. Silly mistake especially if you really knew who you were dealing with. 

How many souls want to mess with the "Universe" or "God" (Please click here for more information) & what it wants? If God reincarnates someone why would the afterlife argue & bring them back?

Who is, or what is God? Please read on by clicking link below.

102. VOLUNTEER AT LEGAL CENTRE NOT A SPACE CADET AT NASA

Jock Hudson (Alan Dowsett) since completing postgraduate certification as Juris Doctor UNSW (Law Masters equivalent) - Please click here for more information - (BA  Marketing London Metropolitan University) is now working as a Volunteer Solicitor at HALC 

(HIV/AIDS) Legal Centre - Please click here for more 

information)- also known as the Surry Hills Legal Centre 3 days a week. 

"I am no rocket scientist at NASA (Please click here for more info on NASA) but hopefully i have enough brains to be of great assistance to the Legal Centre as a solicitor" says Jock Hudson after his first week in the office. 

Plus what else is so good about working here? Please read on by clicking link below.

101. THE AFTERLIFE IS TOTAL FUCKWITZ CITY!

When ever i am feeling unnecessary pain or it is being caused and inflicted by someone in the afterlife (the voices that I hear in my head - Please click here for more information) with the use of hypnotics & done without a proper reason it is sometimes worth trying to make thr person that is dishing out the pain feel what i feel so hopefully they will stop or at least have some kind of remorse. But what happens is that soul puts on it reverse or opposite so that they feel good & fantastic instead of pain & harm or they scream so loud someone comes to their aid whilst i am still left in pain trying not to cry my eyes out. Because i am human when i am in pain caused by the souls in the afterlife i cannot scream in my head as it was not designed to do that & if i scream out loud I will end up hospitalized. How can they let souls get away with this without consequences? The afterlife has some good souls but mostly is total fuckwitz city! Total fuckwitz are easy to spot because they do not have white light around them! (for more information regarding white light please click here).

The pain can be anything from testicular & groin pain, throat, teeth, & back pain through to severe head & eye pains!

What do Total Fuckwitz do? Please read on by clicking link below.

100. I'LL BE WITH GALACTIC CUTIES (ALIENS) WHEN I DIE!

Well tonight the universe (god which is best considered as an energy that is made up of all the people on earth and all souls in the afterlife - Please click here for more information) felt the pain & agony that i have been through from hearing voices in the afterlife & dealing with nasty hypnotics (Please click here for more information) meant by destiny has been approved. I got a sense that is, it felt what I am going through so now it is set that when I die I will not go into the light or through to the afterlife like everyone else but instead will go higher than the highest level in the afterlife & directly through to the Galactic Cuties (Aliens) who are all about fun & will look after me. Tonight after a rough night I felt the sense that I was being judged but I made it through the judgement. The Galactic Cuties recently placed me on the largest UFO (Please click here for more information) to train.(Why The world does not have UFO's please click here). 

When the time comes I'm going with Galactic Cuties (Aliens)! (Please click here for more information).

Thanks to Olivia Newtown John for singing Xanadu Featuring in Bob the Galactic Cuties Dance.

99. THINKING POSITIVELY! ANY ADVICE WOULD HELP PLEASE?

If I were a Smurf I’d be all about Papa Smurf, as I love facial hair, 

it is my biggest turn on! 

I'd be happy with either a monogamous or an open relationship with Papa Smurf but I’d be one proud bitch no matter how many there are of those other smurfs. Even though all those other smurfs could bend over & Papa Smurf could hopefully rock their world if he wanted & rock their world he better do so they would understand how proud i'd be & they would come back begging for more, its me Papa Smurf comes home to & me he cuddles or at night & puts arm around me so i sleep better, so i could not be happier! Although if i was a smurf i would wear yellow so i'm not dressed all in white same as them since they all cannot even dress differently to each other. LOL

Whats the biggest problem with voices in my head? Please read on by clicking link below. 

98. NEW BUDGY SMUGGLERS FOR SUMMER!

Decided to buy new swimwear for summer. 

From CA-RIO-CA (Please click the following link for more information) which i am absolutely loving. I love their classic cut Sungas but they come in Bikini cut, Brief Cut, Low rise cut and Traditional cuts too! Definitely worth checking out. I bought four pairs that included the ones seen in below photos plus a navy blue pair too. SMILE :) 

Feeling a bit out of shape at the moment even though i will admit my abs look good but i'll be honest and admit that is thanks to a Doctor working for Dr. Lanzer (Please click here for more information) after i decided i needed to do something to remove the excess weight i had gained from all the anti-psychotic drugs (Please click here to see a list of drugs used to attempt to remove hearing voices from my head). sadly some of the anti-psychotic drugs that i have been forced to take cause excess weight gain. My case manger told me that one of her clients had gained 60kg from one of those drugs (Seroquel (Quetiapine) but luckily it had no good effect for me when i took it so luckily i was only on that drug for less than one month. As they say "My body is my temple" and i needed to loose weight gained from Zyprexa (Olanzopine) (Please click here for more information) and people will say Liposuction is cheating but if you knew the pain i went through during the process and for the length of time the pain of just trying to sit upright if laying in bed after having liposuction then maybe you release its a harsh way to cheat and then maybe the good old fashion way of loosing weight may have been a better option. GRIN. LOL. I only had my stomach & flanks liposuction-ed so i am not sure how women that have stomach, flanks, thighs, butt and back all done at once after the pain i felt & went through, manage to survive or deal with the recovery process.

Would I do it again? Please read on by clicking link below.

97. ITS MY BIRTHDAY AND I'LL CRY IF I WANT TO!

Photo from 2015 but used in this blog post because features ALF 

Hearing so many souls in my head takes away the fun in life that I should be having. Last week on my birthday, apparently the stars were inline & my family tried to make it great but because of hearing voices i had one of the worst days of my life. The voices discover the pain & agony that they cause me & feel sick, i hear them, but then they give themselves memory loss to stop feeling sick. Memory loss means they forget the pain & agony that they caused me & do the same thing to me again & again. Eventually their use of memory loss will catch up with them.

Whenever i feel good or off my face souls "harness" my effect which means I miss out. They should "lay dormant" which means they will feel good plus they will not be in my business & I will not miss out. 

My problem is that last year on my birthday i said if things have not changed i would take myself out of the equation once & for all, but that means i lose everything & everything i love in life. I do not want to have to do that & i should not have to do that. It would mean no more birthday drinks & cuddles with ALF, Gordon Shumway (Pictured on the bed) LOL. 

What am I hoping for? Please read on.