33•5. 2014 MARDI GRAS FUN & THE PAYBACK?

Last night went to Mardi Gras party & had one of the best times of my life & one of the few nights of true fun & happiness since reaching "Optimal" (Please click here for more information) in 2009 when i first started hearing voices & one of the few breaks i have had from hearing voices since White Party 2011 (Please click here for more information) & feeling an earthquake which stopped the voices (Please click here for more information).  I'll be honest & tell that i had taken one ecstasy pill & one dose of GBL (Gamma  Butyrolactone) & was totally off my face having fun. I heard the voices in my head had decided to keep Karl Josef Silberbauer (Please click here for more information) out of my head & they lay dormant to me & were amazed how shit faced they felt. They did not "Harness" (Please click here for more information). To put things in perspective back when i was a party boy (2000's) i would go through a pill every couple of hours & a vast about of K (Ketamine) & i had 8 dozes of GBL tonight ready expecting to party like old days, so only having one pill & one dose was super amazing. All i did was laugh, dance & do my best to ensure no one seen my eyes rolling in the back of head i was having that much fun! 

Only once during the night for a split second did i hear a voice in my head. 

The morning after I left the Mardi Gras Party my fun ended & on a beautiful sunny day perfect for fun at my favourite Beach (Please click here for more information) especially with tourists all in town!

Was having that much fun worth the payback? Please read on.

33. NUTS? WOULD YOU DESTROY A LIFE TO SEE WHAT THEY SEE?

How do you see the world? Do you have friends or competitors? Do you believe everything you hear or what you are told? Do you question everything until the right answer is found or known by you? What would you sacrifice in order to be right?

Are all your thoughts meant to be heard???

If all your thoughts could be heard how would you cope???

What if you were given the opportunity to see the world through someone else's eyes? See what they see, here what they think, and even hear what they say? Having schizophrenia I feel like the voices that i hear want to see things through my eyes but don't understand or think about what effect it has on myself or they dont worry about the effects of what they say and do whilst in my head does have. Sadly they seem to have total disregard for me and my well-being.

What if being able to see the world through that person's eyes means that you would destroy that person's life? Would you still want or attempt to see things through their eyes? 

32. ROLE PLAY? OR DRUG PROMOTION?

 Chi Chi LaRue Pushing Porn or Pushing Drugs?

Have we gone too far with porn? Do we need to include drugs and their usage as being Role Play? Surely that is not something good to promote? Can we no longer have great amazing sex without drugs?

This scene claims to be PNP/uninhibited drug filled sex scene, but if thats what you wanted then you will be disappointed because these guys do not smoke, slam, shoot, or hot rail or have dark eyes rolling in the back of their heads which would be the real "REALITY" of such a scene.

Both Adam Killian & Landon Mycles are undoubtedly HOT! with AMAZING bodies!... so you could happily watch them do anything & everything... although in the "Synopsis" ChiChiLaRue mentions Adam twice (Clearly a favourite but heck he is a nice guy so understandable) but ChiChi neglects to even mention Landon at all. It does not even speak about him or use his name anyways?

Luckily for us in this scene you will see them getting it on which is certainly hot without any drug taking like what the scene claims and portrays.

3 comments:

1. 
   Darnel Jackson31 August 2013 at 01:48

   I don't think that having a drug scene will affect people. Guys should be mature enough to know what is moderate usage and what is abuse of a substance.

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      Jock Hudson3 May 2020 at 06:35

      FOR STARTERS... I NEED TO APOLOGISE TO THE PERSON WHO WROTE THIS COMMENT, WHY? BECAUSE ITS TAKEN ME HOW MANY YEARS TO REPLY???? AAAAAAAAAH Please Please Please forgive me for not replying sooner. To be honest i could not agree with you more, and that is maybe my only defence and reason i have not replied sooner is because you are totally right. Guys should be mature enough to know what moderate usage or abuse of substance is and to put it bluntly if guys do not know this then sadly they will learn each time they do overdo things. I guess when you compare this scene with some of the sex scenes now available in regards to a drug scene such as "Blasting" Films and sex films based around injecting drugs you will realise its more about a creating a fun scene and scenario rather than exhibiting a drug culture that perhaps does not need to be advertised (ie Blasting films). Eeeeeeeeek! :)

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      Jock Hudson3 May 2020 at 06:38

      Blasting or "Slamming" was the other word i was forgetting in regards to drugs scenes and films nowadays. LOL

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31. DO SAME SEX MARRIAGES DESTROY GAY COMMUNITIES?

Famous M&M (Blue M&M & Red M&M (Right photo insert)) relationship ends in a nasty breakup! Blue M&M now seen here with his new Red Monster named Doyle & no longer with the Red M&M! 

(A non traditional relationship that society might not be ready to accept)

Being strictly monogamous or totally open or somewhere in the middle, for example monogamous except when on holidays or travelling then completely open & both parties have the option of having sex with anyone they want, are all options accepted and explored within the gay community. I do not want restrictions telling me what i can & cannot do. 

If we are gonna fight for something, then let's all fight together as a community and fight for something stronger than today's marriage that opens the door for everyone & heterosexual couples to have more progressive relationships!

What are we fighting about? Please read on.

30•5. TITAN MENS "HUNG" MOVIE!

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30. LEGALLY BLONDE 3??? JOCK HUDSON TO STUDY POSTGRADUATE LAW AT UNSW!

Jock Hudson to study Postgraduate LAW - Juris Doctor Degree AT UNSW! This clueless blonde has alot more to prove than the last gurl! 

Accepted by University of New South Wales (UNSW) to study a "Juris Doctor" Law postgraduates Course (JD) the equivalent of a Masters of Law for those with a BA in something other than law! I already have a degre BA with Honors in Marketing from London Metropolitan University (Please click here for more information). Except this is one of the world most expensive qualifications... especially at the rate i learn? 

2019 Update: Now completed Juris Doctor J.D

The following YouTube is difficult to watch (Full screen is best) but it relates to what i posted on facebook about UNSW (please see below) and please listen to the commentary by Bear Grylls with it, but rest assured if it is difficult to watch, hang in there because by the end there is a happy ending


(Thanks to National Geographic for posting https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCpVm7bg6pXKo1Pr6k5kxG9A)

To watch Barnacle/Arctic Geese Chicks jump off cliff to survive in the "University that is Life" please click this link! 

It is hard to watch, i screamed the first time i seen it, PLUS it will make the below Facebook post/screenshot understandable.

Please click to enlarge.

Please go to the following link for more information - www.facebook.com/jockhudson/about 

So what has been happening at UNSW? Please read on.

29. ANYONE SEEN A 6'5" KERMIT THE FROG? JOCK HUDSON LEAVES LOS ANGELES IN A HURRY! IF YOU CAN HEAR FROGS YOUR IN A GOOD ENVIRONMENT.

Happier, Healthier, Greener?

Can You Hear Frogs?

Can you hear frogs where you are? Where ever & when ever you can hear frogs means that you are in a healthy environment. That is the best place to live.

Without notifying anyone, Jock Hudson escaped Los Angeles, he gave away all his belongings & without telling anyone left town, headed back home to Sydney Australia.

Wish i had left the USA under different circumstances but i needed to leave & leave fast for my own self preservation, my condition was worsening as i tried to understand it plus i was burning bridges, blowing them up is probably closer to the truth & never able to cross those waters again. 

I truly am sorry to those in Los Angeles whom i may have been rude towards or treated in a manner that i would not like or want to be treated myself. Hopefully one day you will allow me to apologise in person, the only way a true apology can be made.

I tried to apologise to Marc Wilcox in person several times & a few years later (2013) when i returned to LA for the first time, I wasn't even going to explain what was wrong with me just appologise as tryin to get his attention when i was a mess was inappropriate to say the least. BUT sadly he would not come out of his office or see me, instead he told his staff to get me to leave a number & maybe he would get back to me. Since i flew back home to Sydney later that evening, i did not leave a number as I did not want to be seen again as a harasser plus if he called the next day the number would not have worked (disconnected). 

On the flight home I almost got a free upgrade which i did not need when the flight attendant (sitting directly accross from me) watched me cry my eyes out the second the wheels left the tarmac. Luckily being upstairs on that flight meant there was a quiet place at the back of plane away from everyone else where i tried to keep myself together the best i could. The funny thing was the flight attendant thought i was so distressed, not because Marc Wilcox refused to see me, but because i was scared of flying which i definitely am not with the amount of flights I have been on & she kept a check on me the entire way home which was lovely of her. ✈️

The Kermit the frog outfit was from when i did a Roller Skating (Please click here for more information) routine "When Kermit the Frog can tap dance - Happy feet" as sung below:

It was a really fun performance on Roller Skates with everyone asking me "How much per kg do you charge for frogs legs?"

Thanks to Kermit the Frog for "Happy Feet" posted on Youtube.com Please subscribe at the following link: https://www.youtube.com/@MuppetSongs 

28•5. MICKY'S COCKTAIL WITH THE STARS EVENT WITH ADAM RUSSO?

Micky's Cocktails With The Stars Event at Mickys NiteClub!

Who is Adam Russo?

Please click here

I'd been asked to do Cocktails with the stars at Micky's previously but sadly thought it involved Go Go dancing on the bar which i am 6'5" tall so i thought i would not even fit standing on the bar & certainly I am no Go Go dancer so i had declined the invite... Bummer! I did not realise it was a sit down & chatt thing held upstairs at Mickeys. I did not even know there was an upstairs at Mickys. I would have got paid to do it & everything back then unlike agreeing to do it for free for Adam Russo. 

I wanted to promote AHF Aids Healthcare Foundations "Love Condoms" promotion because i have so much love for them but ended up playing semi nude twister wearing one of the audiences pair of jocks/underwear as i wasn't wearing any. My "Love Condoms" T-shirt was more important than wearing knickers that night! Its a shame Adam Russo wouldn't wear the same T-shirt as me, i should have refused to do the show since he refused to wear the T-shirt especially when they are such a good cause, plus i had brought AHF "Love Condoms" T-shirts for Adam Russo & all the boys to wear PLUS AHF had given me a tone of condoms & other goodies to give out to the audience but it was purely an "ADAM RUSSO" night & about him & nothing else. Shame because i love & support AHF (Please click here to see me & the AHF Team at Pride LA) 

Sadly there was a lack of a large audience because Adam Russo had been at Mickey's Cocktails with the stars for weeks on end when it wasn't yet his turn selling himself & his website so i guess people were over it. As you might gather & also doing an entire scene for free for Adam Russo for his website i am over it, or over him that is for sure. My roommate, Cameron, basically got a lifetime supply of condoms, keyrings & other goodies since no one to give them out to because of a lack of audience & Adam Russo?

Adam Russo - 10/01/2024

Although I fell out with Adam Russo after what i felt was not receiving a genuine thank you for assisting him by doing a scene with him for his website & appearing at Mickeys to promote his website completely unpaid, I wish him all the best & today in year 2024 (See photo right & how great he is looking in 2024) he is looking better than ever, he is in amazing shape & his body is now one that anyone would envy. Back when i met him during the "Joe Gage" film produced by "Titan Men Media" called Mojave Run (Please click here for more information) he was not in as good a shape as he is now. Probably a good thing as he is still continuing to make a living via the Porn Industry & even going as far now to do Straight Porn to remain in the spotlight. I admit i am envious about the amount of followers he has on Twitter compared to me, but i rarely tweet & set my Twitter account up after my 15 minutes of fame. Plus the amount of tweets Adam Russo makes per day probably amounts to why so many followers.  

Sadly the "Adam Russo" show never got posted or downloaded like all the other shows to the Mickeys Website.

Aids Healthcare Foundation (Please click here to learn more information)

 

28. PRIDE PARADE WITH AHF (AIds Healthcare Foundation).

Doing LA Pride Parade With The Wonderful People at  AHF (Aids Healthcare Foundation)!

Today was a fun day, i got to march with AHF, Aids Healthcare Foundation. I cannot rant & rave how good these people are. From the three girls at the clinic that sit at a desk & serve at a window only made for two that always friendly and welcoming no matter how busy their day.... to the wonderful nurses & doctors that can even tell if your feeling down more than usual as they keep a regular check on you the best that they can... & even at the pharmacy where their staff happily give you all your prescription needs FREE of charge.

27. NEW STOMPING GROUND! JOCK HUDSON'S BIG BROTHER! OKI DOG (860 N Fairfax Ave, Los Angeles, CA 90046, USA)

They see me out on the street, They knew EXACTLY who i was as soon as i moved in (I featured on the cover of the free newspaper, Frontier Aviators, handout, I was the centrefold in the Magazine (Please click here to see more) They see me come and go, They see me at all hours looking more lost than ever! 

They see each time the ambulance is called! They told me they keep count! They now act like my big brother! These guys have got huge hearts & the best watchful eye on the neighbourhood.Yesterday the owner, "Jimmy" chased me all way down the street & round the block to get me to eat chicken soup he had specially made, it's not even on their menu, BUT IT WAS THE BEST SOUP EVER MADE! Thank you Jimmy.

The chair on the right is one i
painted and recovered with leather.
Plus a new menu board.
Please click image to enlarge.

They asked me to paint & do them a new menu board. Except we disagree on the colour. The Goodchip Lolli Pop that works there (Brendan) says its "Orange"...like pumpkin???? WRONG I say this place is not orange like any pumpkin ...it is the colour of "GOLD!" Pure "GOLD!" ...Hammered full gloss gold is the color i wanted to paint the entire whole place so people would see it is GOLDEN!

PLUS Phillip Stark eat  your heart out, Jimmy & his re-cycle, re-use & re-invent, mix & match furniture, had your so called famous interior designs & so called new techniques down pat long before you became famous! Check out the Oki Dog Chain & notice the difference?

(Please click here for Phillip Stark interior designs).

I decided to start stealing their chairs & sneak them into my garage where I try to enhance them (new leather, vinyl and paint) & I try sneak past Jimmy & I put em back in place all fresh! 

It is my way of saying thanks for all their help & I do not want money for anything I might do, but they keep trying to give it to me!...or should i say Jimmy keeps catching me & forcing me to accept his money! 

Jimmy chased me around the block again the other day! It has become a super fun game but I keep getting caught! 

Although i LOVE remodelling & restoring their furniture, it was Brendan (The GoodChip Lollipop) that did the interiors better than me!!!

Wanna know what else i stole, repainted & tried to sneak back into Oki Dog? Please read on.

26. ER - HOSPITALISED FOR EMERGENCY SUPERVISION. CEDARS SINAI EMERGENCY LOS ANGELES.

Confused more than ever?

After hospitalization Friday (Cedars Sinai Emergency - A HUGE THANK YOU TO THEM -  Please click here for more info) & again Tuesday night (Olympia Medical Center), Porn star Jock Hudson has been placed back in Emergency Services & hospital for observation. 

Not a recent pic. Today i look like Anniliese Michaels. (Please click here for more information) De-hydrated, skin on my lips peeling off & in a Bad State. Sadly still marked with the bruises and scars from people trying to help but cant understand what is really going on. Last life line that stopped my body parts from moving, then i was permitted to return to the comfort of my own home.

Can someone please explain the voices in my head? Why is everyone so afraid to speak with me in person? Speaking behind a persons back never helps anyone including those doing that.  Am i worth that little not for them to check even once in person when the rest of the world can hear me screaming? Again I am sorry to my fans if i do not make or win this fight.

When i arrived, or should i say taken via Ambulance to 'Olympia Medical Centre' which cost me $1404.50 you would think that when i asked the paramedics in the Ambulance "Why can i not stop my legs & body parts from moving?" they would at least answer me instead of telling me to be quiet. When i arrived, or should i say taken to 'Olympia Medical Centre' rather than Cedars Sinai & to stop my body parts from moving did not even tell me what is going on, they simply injected me with methadone to reset my body parts.

Thank you to New Order for singing "Blue Monday" & 8D Alternative for posting this song at Youtube.com. Subscribe here: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCxYi5rLh0d9qpl7t2Rajr8A

25. STILL TRYING TO SMILE & SEE THE LIGHT AFTER HOSPITALISATION!

Saved by Neighbours, Paramedics & Cedars Sinai Emergency Department.

Cleaned up Thanks to Cedar Sinai & restored back to cheeky trouble causing self!

Sadly the truth of Friday is too painful & very little is being said about the severity of the seizure that occurred alerting local residents, Landlord & emergency services to Jock Hudson.

Still uncertain as to how the Porn Star ended up outside 

on Willoughby Road in front of his residence where

Emergency Services cut off his T-Shirt immediately to assess his situation.

I do remember hanging from my armpits on the fence beside my security gate & flaying around on the ground & seeing my Landlord Michael & his boyfriend whom, or it was Oki Dog Restaurant (Please click here for more information) Jimmy that luckily called 911. Also the police department that were on scene tried hand cuffing me to the paramedics bed in an attempt to stop my body parts from moving when i went unconscious!

The last thing i remembered when i was in the house hearing voices that has been causing me issues for over a year now, but i was upstairs in the apartment at that time & not outside. When i woke up i was battered & bruised with skin missing from my fingers, hands, feet, toes, elbows & knees & in a bed in a hospital. The problem with Jock Hudson being a known Party Boy is that it seems everyone has already made up their mind as to what the problem is, however do they really know what is going on?

Has anyone checked or asked the question?

What if everyone has it wrong?

Thank you to those people whom i was lucky to have had on the scene that helped me & prevented me from hurting myself further whilst Emergency Services took over. If only there were more people like them, then this world would certainly be a better place. Again Thank You.

Thank you to Lana Del Rey & Kristijan for posting this at Youtube.com

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24. EVEN GOOD LITTLE SCRUBBERS NEED A THANK YOU!

Nude bath scene featuring a cute otter finishes with a happy ending. 

But did Mickey ever say thanks to him?

Thank you to Walt Disney
for this picture of Mickey
Mouse & friendly Otter.

In this town (Los Angeles) the biggest thank you's come from the people you least expect & when you least expect it. The people that help the most don't even know what an amazing help they are! Its seems some people (not everyone) in Los Angeles would rather go out of their way & watch a person fall & hurt themselves & then go blame them for ruining their day because the person that fell took up their time or fell too close to them & made them feel insecure & not even attempt to help the person get up after falling & maybe think more about treading on them coz they fell in their way??? Can people really think they are that good? 

Can you kick a person while they are down & expect a thank you? Karl Josef Silberbauer (Please click here for more information) & his followers certainly thinks so. 

I seem to forever be apologizing. 

YES sometimes i am TOTALLY in the wrong but will be first to admit it... 

BUT i will NEVER be found putting a person down or ruining a person's dreams because i had nothing better to do! 

23. NOMINATED FOR BEST CUM SHOT AWARD - BUT TOLD I FUCKED UP THE MOVIE!

Chi Chi LaRue ignores Star in Trouble, refuses to speak with Jock Hudson in person... instead preferred to email him writing

"YOU FUCKED UP MY MOVIE"

Yet another film that if i wanted to see then i would have to purchase & buy online myself from the C1R website. I thought a lot of ChiChiLaRue when I first met ChiChi, but on the day i asked her for help that i desperately needed she turned on me. I arrived on set crying & distressed as i almost did not make it there that day after an exceptionally bad weekend of head troubles. Still shocked by what i managed to say out loud to her, it came out by accident ...But i knew i needed help. Sadly she assumed my problems where too much partying which if that were the case then how did i have the ability to cry in front of her (Methamphetamine releases Dopamine which should make it near impossible to cry) & she never bothered to check up on me after I left the set crying, instead she refused to speak with me in person & i can only guess she didn't care or believe what i said. 

The movie, or the particular scene that i featured in & was told via an email that i "fucked up!" turned out to be nominated for "Best Cumshot" award with Steven Daigle for "Raising the Bar".The Grabbys (as they are better known) formally known as the "Adult Erotic Gay Video Awards". I found out about the nomination by a client of mine, not ChiChiLa Rue & not Doug Jeffries!

The email saying "You fucked up my movie" also accused me of seeing her so high on Methamphetamine that i was still surrounded by a cloud of smoke! but as mentioned in first paragraph... NOT POSSIBLE. Also that day on set was just to record the talking part of the movie, as sex scen had already been done weeks earlier, where the boys plan their game & i should have been seen standing behind the bar, since i left in tears, it is Doug Jeffries standing behind the bar instead of me.  

Sadly we did not win...however Steven Daigle did win an award in another category. He won "Best Newcomer" which he certainly deserved as he was brilliant to work with & the reason why that scene turned out so well. In real life/person he is even sexier than you think!

Whilst i am slagging off Chi Chi, what else did i have a problem with? Please read on.