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Monday, 27 September 2010
11. A JEALOUS SOUL TRYIN TO TAKE MY PLACE IN LIFE???
Saturday, 3 July 2010
10. AT NIGHT IN BED I HAVE BEEN HALLUCINATING PENGUINS DOING SONG & DANCE?
Thursday, 17 June 2010
9. THE WRITING IS ON THE WALL - DOCTORS DIAGNOSIS MYSELF AS SUFFERING A SEVERE DISORDER!
The doctors explained to me that i have onset Psychosis and irreversible schizophrenia.
Apparently I should have confused thinking, delusions, & hallucinations? Fantastic… except i am not!. Instead I am hearing voices loud and clear and they are boring the shit out of me! I am seriously jealous of Emily Rose (Please click here for more info) Anneliese Michel's (Exorcism or Exorcist) was her real name) as the voices she heard were evil & established individuals or so they said??? Although if i am thinking truthfully all her voices were afterlife fuckwitz that were beyond nasty!!! Mine are worse than wannabe industry people loving the sound of their own voices! (Please click here to hear some of voices i am hearing). THAT TAKES BEING NASTY when they are dealing with me TO A WHOLE further severe WORLD!!!
Trust me when i say i know what a drug induced state can cause & not cause that is how i know half of what is going on is something else!..& half of what is going on can't be explained by medical science I'm sure, thats why this is such a problem for me.... plus I gotta ask am i a patient or a test rabbit??… fuck I'm over drugs!....but at least i have not had any of these following drugs (listed below) on the dance floor like i have had everything else! LOL
Firstly the doctors put me on:
2010 Risperidone
2010 Methadone (Stopped my body parts from moving after seizures)
2011 Benztropine
2012 Abilify (Aripiprazole) 10mg
2013 Ability (Aripiprazole) 20mg
2013 Esitalo (Escitalopram) 20mg (Anti-depressant rather than Anti-psychotic)
2014 Ability (Aripiprazole) 30mg
2015 Zyprexa (Olanzapine) 5mg (You gain fat cells even if you lived on lettuce leaves)
2016 Zyprexa (Olanzapine) 10mg (Was effective in removing Hypnotics (Please click here for more information))
2017 Zyprexa (Olanzopine) 20mg
2018 Seroquel (Quetiapine) 100mg (Massive weight gainer - Case Manager said her client gained 60kg/132pounds)
Seroquel (Quetiapine) is the worst offender of increasing the production of fat cells & after hearing from my Mental Health Case Manager that one of her patients gained 60 kilos (132.77 pounds) weight whilst on Seroquel (Quetiapine) so i only took that antipsychotic drug for a few weeks. I am sorry but even if the drug worked & removed the voices in my head, i am shallow/vain i admit, but there is no way i could be happy with such excessive weight gain.
2019 Latuda (Lurasidone hydrochloride) 40mg (Deadly if taken more than two doses)
2019 Rexulti (Brexpiprazole) 3mg
2019 Clozaril (Clozapine) (Must be administered in hospital only)
🏥 (Please click here for more information on start of treatment date) Due to severe chest pains caused by the Clozapine, the medication was terminated as Jock Hudson needed to be taken to the cardiac ward immediately for 3 days of observation. The Clozapine caused Myocarditis which can mean instant heart attack & death. 3 days in the cardiac ward before being allowed to leave & return to the Mental Health Ward as i narrowly escaped heart attack/failure. Sadly though i still had Myocarditis which meant several months of being constantly monitored. (For more information on how long Myocarditis stuck with me - Please click here) & for more information regarding the problem of hearing voices (Please click here).
To be honest i am not upset that the Clozaril (Clozapine) attempt to remove the voices in my failed due to almost having a heart attack & had to be terminated because i have since learnt that taking Clozaril (Clozapine) increases the production of fat cells more than taking Zyprexa (Olanzopine) which made me gain so much weight that i ended up having liposuction (Please click here for more information) to remove the unwanted extra fat/weight once i had stopped taking it. Even if you lived on Lettuce Leaves you cannot avoid gaining weight.
2020 Geoden (Ziprisodone) 20mg (No weight gain)
2020 Geoden (Ziprisodone) 80mg
2020 Solian (Amisulpride) 200mg (No weight gain)
2020 Solian (Amisulpride) 400mg (Makes the voices lay dormant)
2023 Solian (Amisulpride) 1200mg
This list doesn't include the drugs that i was prescribed to take that they have finally taken me off as they may have been what caused the damage in the first place!
Sustiva (efavirenz) 600mg as in Atripla Tablet. (In Australia when Sustiva was separate & only 300mg dose there was major health warning for patients alerting them it may cause Vivid dreams, HOWEVER i already had Vivid dreams so my dreaming turned to Lucid immediately upon first dose).
Tuesday, 1 June 2010
8. HMMMMM... I GUESS MY LITTLE UNIVERSE WAS WRONG! :(
Never based love prospects according to a Sesame Street song?????
On Sesame Street
Yes it sounds crazy & Yes I know it sounds crazy PLUS if either of Marc Wilcox or Craig Hibbard were the slightest bit interested years ago when i first met them both & said the same thing twice as they made me nervous and I was new in town... they invited me to a party but i got too shy & nervous & never went... & needed to find out what the hell was going on with the guy i was with at the time, but sadly now i have yelled, screamed, harassed, texted, phoned, stalked, begged & pleaded that neither will speak with me face to face...
CRAZY PEOPLE NEED TO BE TOLD IN PERSON
Then maybe i can deal with this crazy shit i am going thru! (Schizophrenia & Psychosis (Please click here for more information).
Wanna hear more crazy? Plus what happened on every App known to man? Please read on.
Sunday, 16 May 2010
7. JOCK HUDSON FOUND SCREAMING FOR POLICE HELP?
911 Emergency Services Called
Is there screaming in your head as well as out loud? What if it was you that was found screaming for the police?
After suffering a seizure, & screaming was heard, police were called & the street of Romaine between Croft & Alfred was closed while they investigated & the apartment searched.
Jock Hudson was taken to Cedar Sinai Hospital emergency for observation before being released from Hospital 3 days later. CT of the brain was obtained. Examination consisted of thin section axial images from the skull to the vertex.
🌠Upon doctors instruction from Cedars Sinai Hospital ✡ Thank you.
Jock Hudson moved residences the same afternoon he was released.🌟💫✨⭐
Is there screaming in your head as well as out loud? What if it was you that was found screaming for the police?
After suffering a seizure, & screaming was heard, police were called & the street of Romaine between Croft & Alfred was closed while they investigated & the apartment searched.
Jock Hudson was taken to Cedar Sinai Hospital emergency for observation before being released from Hospital 3 days later. CT of the brain was obtained. Examination consisted of thin section axial images from the skull to the vertex.
Jock Hudson moved residences the same afternoon he was released.🌟💫✨⭐

What should you do if you know something is wrong but no-one seems to notice or is listening?
Whoever the voices i was hearing in my head... didnt stop, i heard them claim later that they didnt recognise my voice since my voice was so strained, so they continued anyway. Those i thought i was hearing i never had a chance or never felt comfortable enough to approach so never got resolution as to involvement?
What were the people that lived in the apartment above me & the landlord thinking & doing that day? What weird things were going on in the building? Was it their voices i was hearing in my head? Did i have mental telepathy? Or was it in fact the afterlife i was hearing in my head? What bible experience did i have?
Monday, 19 April 2010
6. MOJAVE RUN PORN SCENE SHOOT! WHAT REALLY HAPPENED BACK THEN IN 2010!
Tuesday, 2 February 2010
5. WHATS STOPPING YOU NOW JOCK HUDSON? ANOTHER PSYCH QUESTION!
What would you do? What is your immediate first thought? Please answer this question before you read on. Please be honest?
Back when i was first asked this question (aged 21) unlike everyone else in the room who said they would somehow knock the wall down which is what i am guessing was your first thought???
Why the question?
Its part of a psych exam question. The wall believe it or not represents your feelings towards death & your answer reflects your love of life. Morbid it sounds, i know, but if your truthful with what you first thought, was it correct? If you have ever been suicidal then you would answer differently to having the first thought of knocking the wall down.
I really dream I will think of the wall as being encouragement, & nothing to fear since it is surrounded by beautiful souls rather than just something that needs to be knocked down.
The Coffee question is certainly allot more fun definitely. Message me and i'll give you the answer. LOL.(But please in the comment include your answer. I said YES, coz its social. My best bud Frank said YES, coz his is Italian, & a hot babe named Helen said YES, coz she loved the creamy froth on top! She laughed her head off when told what it meant & what it answers. X X X PLUS its amazing how that question ALWAYS works out right for the person. SMILE.
Photos from 2005/6
Thanks to JompasFavorites (https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXrhIz1y_t4X-z4E60aULhQ)
Saturday, 28 November 2009
4. THE FIRST FILM THAT I EVER FEATURED!
Thursday, 22 October 2009
3. SILENCE (I could hear the wind) NO VOICES IN MY HEAD? EARTHQUAKE?
Tonight was the first time the voices stopped & I could not hear them... I sat out on the balcony & I was able to hear the wind and only the wind... it was a beautiful sound... sound of peace & quiet... & sadly the last time i have been able to hear the world around me like the rest of the world can as the voices started again first thing as i woke in the morning & have never stopped again like that night.
I have not had more than a 1 minute break from them since!
What broke the silence as i sat on the balcony enjoying the sound of the wind & feeling the breeze on my face? Please read on.
Friday, 16 October 2009
2•5. THE FIRST VOICES I HEARD IN MY HEAD?
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