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FREE Legal-Well-Being advice for LGBTI Community and their friends now available. A Friendly face known as Jock Hudson or under my given name of Alan Dowsett whom holds a Juris Doctor (JD) degree (Law Masters equivalent) from UNSW (Please click here for more information), BA in Marketing from London Metropolitan University and certified in Work-Place Training & Assessment, Public Relations and Diploma in Community services offers a new type of Legal Service.

Please feel free to call/message me (Please click the following Link) with any concerns that your having or to put it bluntly your thinking shit is gonna hit the fan any minute if I am not careful or change what i am doing. 

Basically getting a better understanding of the law and what rights and responsibilities you might have.

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185. THANK YOU TO THE HELPFUL MONSTERS (GOOD SOULS)

Well today i am actually feeling alot better & do not feel like i am going to have another "Episode" (Please click here for more information). The main reason is not just the new medication which means that i am right protected which means that only voices that have "White Light" (Please click here for more information) around them may enter my head, but also there have been good souls in my head, mostly Ralph & Chloe, Billion Dollar Babe, but also Jones. However Jones wanting to be the hero in all of this also made him a problem but luckily when he was good he was really good. There are plenty more good little monsters (Souls) that definitely need a Thank You that have been helping me over come the nasty voices that just want to do evil "Hypnotics" (Please click here for more information) because they have unlimited time & nothing better to do which means i have no life? I hope things contiue to go well & i can become myself again & then there will be no "Consequences" (Please click here for more information) to "Heaven" (Please click here for more information). Chloe says that she does not need a Thank you because she know she is doing the right thing & wants to escape the consequences. Ralph i definitely have love for since he has protected me like being told by "High Frequency Orb" (Please click here for more information) back in 2013 for as long as i can remember now. For at least 7 years! 

Thank you, I am starting to feel like myself again! 

The New Medication (Please click here for more information) & Helpful souls is working! Thank you!

What now? Please read on.

184. PLEASE WISH ME LUCK?

I am writing this still being in "Hospital" (Please click here for more information) & not sure how i am doing? The voices in my head seem to be settled thanks to some good souls in my head that have set them straight & taken affirmative action. Not sure where i am with the "Wall Psych Question" (Please click here for more information) but i am doing alot better than i was last Wednesday when i was admitted. My fear is when & if they allow me to leave Hospital will the voices go back to giving me "Episodes" (Please click here for more information). I almost had an episode last night in hospital but luckily good souls and Present (Please click here for more information) won’t have it! 

Please wish me Luck? I cannot handle more Episodes (Please click here for more information).

183. HOSPIALISED AGAIN? POLICE & PARAMEDICS KINDLY TAKE JOCK HUDSON TO HOSPITAL!

Hospital Care (ICU - Intensive Care Unit) since Wednesday 16th October.

What am I meant to do when the voices i hear in my head go too far in messing up my live & causing me grief? Sadly last Tuesday night the voices were at their worse & giving me a major "Episode" (Please click here for more information) Very similar to last time "Hospitalisation Occurred" (Please click here for more information). One of the female voices i heard kept saying she hated my guts because i had pointed out how she could feel good 100% & remain with "White Light" (Please click here for more information) & as she said "The men would still be interested in me". Oooooh she was vial. I could not swallow or drink or eat & the voices felt the were gaining "Jackpot" in their "Game" (Please click here for more information) because it meant if i cannot swallow that i would die of dehydration & starvation! Sad that the "Women" (Please click here for more information) get off on harming me & get together in groups of 150 Women so that they is basically not much anyone can do about them. Somehow the Women blame me for their problems & why they want to harm me. I am sick of them saying "Your a selfish Asshole/Cunt" when the truth is that these souls have "Unlimited time" & nothing better to do with their time being in "Heaven" (Please click here for more information) & they are the selfish ones as they expect me, whom does not have unlimited time, to make them feel good & therefore get off on doing nothing more than harrass me.  

Police & Paramedics arrived after a neighbour living on his street discovered how distressed he was & unable to deal with the abuse & torture the voices were giving him on Wednesday afternoon & after calling Emergency Services decided it was best if Jock Hudson was placed in ICU (Intensive Care Unit) Mental Health Ward at Sutherland Hospital. Hopefully the good souls in my head will beat the nasty, rude disrespectful souls that only want to "Cunt" (Please click here for more information) me & i will get my "Life Back" (Please click here for more information).

Release date 8th November with Discharge date of 11th November if New Medication (Please click here for more information) goes well. 

I do need a Break!

182. THE FUN I COULD BE HAVING IF NO VOICES IN MY HEAD?

The voices i hear in my head being "Schizophrenic Diagnosed" (Please click here for more information) are in "Heaven" (Please click here for more information) & majority of them want to treat me badly & give me "Episodes" (Please click here for more information). This October Long Weekend "I Remember House" (Please click here for more information) was held & a friend convinced me to go. I was paranoid that i am out of shape from inability to go to the "Gym" (Please click here for more information) however i did go. Seen a lot of familiar faces & when i arrived the party was absolutely going off! Same generation as me as i do not think getting off your face & dancing is the next generations thing?

Will the Retirement Village be going off? MY TIME IS LIMITED!

They say that dogs are a good judge of Character???

Would you believe this is not my dog???

I was sitting in the park???

What happened at the Party? Please read on.

181. COULD HEAVEN CEASE TO EXIST?

If no souls have "White Light" (Please click here for more information) around them "Heaven" ceases to exist?

Are there "Consequences" if i die that also means "Heaven" ceases to exist? (Please click here for more information)

If you have read the "Afterlife Ceases to Exist" (Please click here for more information) & now "Only Heaven" (Please click here for more information) then you know that i am serious. 

Souls in "Heaven" (Please click here for more information) are so involved or as i would say "Fucked Up" in "Hypnotics" (Please click here for more information) & giving themselves additional "Abilities" via "Hypnotical Setup" which they do not need. One woman who insisted on being called "The Madonna" screwed herself & all of "Heaven" because she had given herself abilities which made her have the ability to control everyone & of course treat me like shit but she had not given herself the ability to think rationally & logically & realise that being on "Opposite/Reverse" whilst i am feeling like death is not just bad Karma but also it is the WRONG THING TO DO & WILL CAUSE YOU TO LOOSE WHITE LIGHT AROUND ONESELF. As she recruited more & more souls to increase her evil ways meant that it got to a stage that there was pretty much no one left with "White Light" (Please click here for more information) around them which meant that "Heaven" should have ceased in its existence & disappeared completely? 

So how can Heaven still exist? Please read on.

180. I'D LIKE TO SPREAD MY ASS CHEEKS & GIVE SOME SOULS (VOICES THAT I HEAR IN MY HEAD THAT ARE IN HEAVEN) A VEGEMITE SANDWICH?

Faaaaaark i am so over souls voices that are in "Heaven" (Please click here for more information) i can hear in my head that do not have "White Light" (Please click here for more information) around themself & place "Hypnotics" (Please click here for more information) & "Harness" (Please click here for more information) & do not at least read Blog Story Post 164 "What is The Problem Now" (Please click here for more information) that restores White Light so that they will stop feeling uncomfortable & stop playing Games like "Search & Destroy" (Please click here for more information). They cause me unhappiness, grief, pain, misery depression & an inability to think & have fun so that now in 2024 when i do have fun it makes me cry! How can we overcome, when i die, the "Consequences" (Please click here for more information). I so wish to spread my ass cheeks & give those souls a Vegemite Sandwich!

So far this year has not been good! How can I make it better?

Wanna find out more about me & all my years as a Schizophrenic? Please read on.

179. THE SIMPSONS GO TO AUSCHWITZ? IS ANTI-SEMITISM ON THE RISE AGAIN? IN ITALY? VATICAN CITY? PERHAPS?

The year 2020 marked the "75th Anniversary of the Liberation of Auschwitz" (Please click here for more information) & for all the people that have been drawn to visit Auschwitz "The Atrocities Have Been Hidden" (Please click here for more information). "Alexsandro Palombo in Italy (Milan) February 2015" decided that to remind the younger generations of the "Holocaust" that occured during World War II it would be best to depict "The Simpsons" as being Jewish & having them sent to "Auschwitz" (Please click here for more information). 

Marge, Homer, Bart, Lisa & Maggie wearing yellow stars, in striped Jewish Prisoners garbs & as famished inmates definitely caught everyone's attention.  Not sure how i feel about this but the Artists work aimed at the younger generation & appeared on the Walls of the Memorial of the Shoah in Milan did see someone object as sadly & stupidly they graffitied the Artwork on "January 27th 2023 on The Day of Remembrance" (Please click here for more information) seen below being photographed by an admirer before it was vandalised. Clearly in Italy, Milan, or heck or should i say more likely Rome (Vatican City), however no large Holocaust Memorial exists there, to make it more obvious, "Anti-Semitism" is on the rise again?

Quote from Elie Wiesel (Orphaned Jewish Survivor (Buchenwald Concentration Camp) survivor of Auschwitz). 

"To Forget How They Died, Is To Kill Them All Over Again"

Did i Survive Auschwitz? Please read on.

178. A NEW CONCEPT ON WARS?

Vladimir Putin (President of Russia) the man that says that he is selfless by only living on the poverty line with a yearly income of $200,000, but he somehow owns ridiculousness, from a $12Billion Palace in the forest with its own Airport & with 24 Karat Gold Toilets everywhere he visits including on his Helicopters & Jets to owning over 700 sports cars. To see what he owns please click here. 

"What Do They Say About Owning Sports Cars?" INADEQUATE DICK! Why does Vladimir Putin want to take over the Ukraine? Obviously so he can get his hands on more money & spend more. Maybe the $30Billion he spent on war fare he could have given back to the people or allowed them a paid Public Holiday. "Russia is Bigger in Land Size than America but merely consists of Moscow & St Petersburg" (Please click here for more information). 

"Rather Than Soldiers Dying in The Name of War" why can't Volodymyr Zelenskyy (President of Ukraine) next time he has a meeting with Vladimir just get out a knife & simply cut his throat? Hell... Why not??? It is ok for a Russian Soldier to do that to a Ukraine Soldier(s) or Civilian(s)? If Volodymyr wears a soldiers uniform rather than a suit can he execute Vladimir?. 

Imagine if during each War it was just the Leaders of each Country that got into a Boxing Ring & Fought it all out rather than having hundreds & thousands of Innocent Soldiers die in the name of War???

What could Adolf Hitler have done differently? Please read on.

177. FIVE YEARS OF BULLSHIT! HOW CAN I MAKE THEM SEE SENSE OR MAKE REASON WITH THEM?

If you have been reading my blog story then you will know that I blame women voices in my head as being "My Problem" (Please click here for more information). "Karl Josef Silberbauer" (Please click here for more information) was my biggest problem & due to his hatred & jealousy of me why I am schizophrenic and had no life, however, "Equilibrium Occurred" (Please click here for more information) four years ago as he happily went to the core to escape consequences in a way to pass/reincarnate so I should have gotten my life back but no that has not happened. Why? Because a year at least before he passed on he & the whores set up "Hypnotics" (Please click here for more information) that shared his hatred for me & made the women be selfish, sadistic, arrogant & narcissistic, & they have continuously placed this on their heads as having the worst Ora’s possible (level 5) & their power rush stopped them from feeling uncomfortable & gave them stimulation. Basically they treated me like shit & therefore lacked self control to stop themselves from treating me like shit. My only ability is to somehow reason with the thousands of them with this bullshit on their heads but under the influence these Whores are far worse than a soul that did not reach “Optimal” (Please click here for more information) so I have gotten no where & the number of women under the influence has only increased! Why? Because when the women feel uncomfortable they spend their time talking shit about me laced with hypnotics? 

I know what the problem is (Please click here for more information). For five years the Hypnotic Whores (Please click here for more information) have had no ability to do anything but treat me badly & have learnt to get off on treating me badly! They enjoy it!

What else do these whores do? Please read on.

176. WHY DO I KEEP HAVING EPISODES? IT IS NOT FAIR!

It seems almost weekly i am having an episode. An episode is when the voices in my head have taken control & i am left screaming my head off. I cannot talk properly, I cannot swallow which means i cannot drink, eat or take anything, & the voices in my head i find so frustrating that i cannot do anything but scream. The worst part about not being able to swallow is that you choke. When i go to take my medications it makes it extremely hard to take. The voices like to play a game "Search & Destroy" (Please click here for more information) but an upgraded version wanting me to self harm (Please click here for more information) or even kill myself which makes no sense. The voices are meant to be in "Heaven" (Please click here for more information) but are seriously selfish & continue to "Harness" (Please click here for more information) my good feelings sensations. All the voices want to do is place "Hypnotics" (Please click here for more information) because they have learnt them & have unlimited time & nothing better to do but always with me on the receiving end. The voices have also started what they call the "Eating Game" although it should be called the "Not Eating Game". 

I am sick of having Episodes. How can i stop them? 

For more information & how bad they get? Please read on.

175.VOLUNTEER WORK AT KLC (KINGSFORD LEGAL CENTRE) COMMUNITY LEGAL CENTRE!

After doing my "Graduate Diploma of Professional Legal Training" (Please click here for more information) to go from being a Solicitor to becoming a Lawyer since already having done a "Juris Doctorate" (Please click here for more information) (The equivalent to a Masters in Law except my first BA was in something other than law so it is for Postgraduate Students only).

Sadly the voices think i am a "No Hoper" & made it difficult for me to listen & do phone advice. KLC decided to just get me to do Face to Face advice since i would have better chance of engaging with the persons involved & less chance the voices in my head taking over & making me useless, but no chance, again sadly the voices, mainly women in my head (Please click here for more information) decided that because i was a "No Hoper" that they would enter my head & stop be being able to do that as well. So sadly i have not finished my volunteer work need to complete my Graduate Diploma of PLT & become a fully fledged Lawyer. I should have already completed PLT & being initiated to the bar via a ceremony at The Downing Court Centre! 

I am working as a volunteer Solicitor at Kingsford Legal Centre (KLC), the Eastern Suburbs Community Legal Centre. Due to Bad mental health sadly postponed August till November when i will restart at KLC volunteering again.

Thankyou to Donna Summer for singing this song at Youtube.com

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174. WHAT IS GOING ON? I AM GROVER (Thank you to Sesame Street) & PLEASE I WANT MY LIFE BACK!

i do not know what is going on with "Heaven" (Please click here for more information) that i hear in my head. I have been having "Episodes" (Please click here for more information) weekly which is shocking. During those episodes i cannot sleep, i cannot eat, i cannot drink & i even have troubles talking because the voices do not want to hear me talking out loud whereas when i talk in my head they can make it so that they do not hear me. 

The voices i hear reakon they know me, but how can they know me when i have not been myself since 2009 which is when the schizophrenia started. I miss being me. I should sound like a little kid in my head since my soul is only 3 years 6 months old after dying in my second life as "Aaron Rothschild" (Please click here for more information) & in my first life i only lived until "3 years 2 1/2 months old as Jesus" (Please click here for more information). Supposedly the youngest soul imaginable.

"My nickname is Grover" (Please click here for more information to test yourself to see how mental aware you are). Yes i do my best but always seem to stuff things up, plus i unintentionally make Grover sounds all day long if you are listening to me & i am able to talk with the voices in my head. 

The louder i scream "I want my life back" the more the voices in my head treat me like shit. (Please click here for more information).

Please read on.

173. SERIOUSLY WOMEN (Ladies excluded) ARE A PROBLEM IN MY HEAD?

The women voices that i hear in my head are all in "Heaven" (Please click here for more information) & they all know i want to have fun. Whenever i am having fun these women "Harness" (please click here for more information) which means they have fun whilst i sit sad & depressed & they do not care because they have done this for 3-8 years. These women could "Lay Dormant" when i have fun which means i would have fun plus they would have fun plus i would not even know they exist. These women because they "Harness" & can only do this by being in my head means they place "Hypnotics" (Please click here for more information) on my head to harm my eyes so they do not hear what my brain recalls when i look at things, stop me from thinking so they do not have to hear my thoughts & also make it so i cannot be heard even though they are in my head without my permission all to accommodate themselves. The level of selfishness & arrogance that these women have is beyond understandable. Their only excuse "We are in the afterlife"??? or "We know Hypnotics"???. The women also believe that they have every right to give me an episode (Please click here for more information) & do so on almost a weekly basis becasue they get off on causing me pain. They don't have White Light around themselves & expect me to make them feel good. Why? Because i can, & they are too lazy or riddled with hypnotics (Please click here for more information) to know any better.

If i try & set these women straight & point out they are "Sadistic" they then are twice as sadistic as before. How can i make them stop.  

Women shut up please!

Why are Men not a problem? Please read on.

172. HAPPY MARDI GRAS 2024!

Happy Mardi Gras 2024 to all those I have love for & I guess those I do not have love for as well! Lol.

I know I am getting old when I have no party tickets after my first party in 1995! 

Well it is Mardi Gras & I should be "Off my Face"(Please click here for more information) but sadly not. Why? Not from lack of trying but because the voices I hear in my head are "Harnessing" (Please click here for more information) which means they are high & feel amazing & I feel absolutely nothing at all. Completely sober which is boring as shit on this night of the year! But then you would think at least on my birthday the voices would give me a break... but sadly no chance then either so I guess my fault for expecting different! Please save up some love for me?

171. A LATE BIRTHDAY WISH?

Wonderful friends, Tara, Kieren, Me, Andrew, Lennie & Robbie

19th January 2024 was my 47th Birthday & to celebrate i had dinner with friends at Tropicana (Please see Photo). Sadly even on my birthday the number of women in my head with the world's worst oras & without "White Light" (Please click here for more information) around them treating me like shit that even on my birthday i did not have the best day. I managed to get my hands on some Pot, yes marijuana, and it was not until this week when i smoked it that it had an amazing effect or i do believe someone that i hold all the love in the world for ("Present" (Please click here for more information)) took affirmative action. Karl Josef Silberbauer & Jenny Rothschild that took turns in making my life misery passed on/reincarnated & around 500 women that had spent at least 3 years doing nothing but "Harness" (Please click here for more information) & treat me like shit. Why? Because i have always been treated like shit so they had no self control to stop. They all passed on/reincarnated. OMG HAAAALEYYYYAAA! HOW FANTASTIC, WHAT I COULD ONLY DREAM OF HAVING DONE FOR MY BIRTHDAY. However, the large numbers of women that observed the 500 "Hypnotic Whores" (Please click here for more information) that have now decided to take up from where they left off is seriously doing my head in. 

I cannot handle in my head how many women have decided because of what they seen the other women do (harness & treat me worse than shit for at least 3 years or longer) that they will now do the same???

Sick of hearing in my head that i am an asshole when i do my best not to be one!

170. ITS A NEW YEAR!

Happy New Year to all those souls that I have love for. I wish you a good year to come!

This past year sadly was not the best year for me, I’m so sad form, but then sadly I have not had a good year since the voices entered my without my permission back in Year 2009. If they had not entered my head where would I be now (Please click here for more information)?

I wish nothing more this New Years Eve than to have a good year where I feel like I have gotten my life back after rudely being interrupted. Sure I would like to win the Lotto & settle down but I'd be happy with having no Souls in my head or near me that do not have "White Light" (Please click here for more information) around them & to not have any soul at all "Harness" (Please click here for more information) any of the good feelings, effects, emotions & energies that I might have or provide myself with although I do not mind if souls want to "Lay Dormant" & enjoy the vibes I give off, then I would love my return to Roller Skating (Please click here for more information) which is the sport I love the most (Please click here for more information & to watch me Roller Skating in the past) & I would feel like I have life again. Hopefully I am not asking for too much?

How hard is it to get good help? Please read on.

169. OUT SHOPPING & MET SOME NEW FRIENDS!

Like usual the voices in "Heaven" (Please click here for more information) that are in my head (mainly women) are totally pissing me off! Nothing unusual about that! Anyways trying my best to make the most of it & have fun! Out shopping for a friend and met a few friends! They were not cheap either considering we were at Salvation Army Store in Tempe which sells second hand goods, but then good friends are never cheap, they maybe Skanky once in a while but never cheap!

If only the voices in my head were as friendly as these guys! These lovely bears are not Hypnotic Whores (Please click here for more information).

If everyone in Heaven especially all the women read Blog Story Post 164 (Please click here for more information) without any sort of “Reverse/Opposite” on their heads which means they process all the information that they need & has been written for their own benefit & took the cloud off their heads which stops them from having voices in their head & stops the "Hypnotic" (Please click here for more information) that I & “Present” (Please click here for more information) placed that makes souls put things into perspective from my point of view which is needed so I get better treatment plus educates them about me & where I would be if voices had never entered my head without my permission back in 2009 (Please click here for more information) then New Years Eve which is tomorrow would be a good one! 

168. I KNOW WHAT THE PROBLEM IS, BUT THE PROBLEM GOT WORSE!

Seriously the only drug problem i have is that i do not have any that are fun & non-prescription (Please click here for more information). 

Photo from 2004 showing I do know how to get shit faced! 

Munted like in the Pic is not possible with voices in your head!

The main problem? If you have read Blog Story Post 164 (Please click here for more information) then you will know i am completely aware that the hundreds of women in my head that, to put it bluntly, treat me like shit are continuing to treat me like shit because they have done so for 3-11 years non stop. With Karl Josef Silberbauer (Please click here for more information) out of my head & no longer in heaven (Please click here for more information) i should have gotten my life back? These women that think they know me, & i have defended them by saying i have been home in Sydney (Please click here for more information) for more than 13 years & besides returning to University to complete a Juris Doctor (Please click here for more information) & Graduate Diploma of PLT (Please click here for more information) & College to complete a Diploma of Community Services (Please click here for more information) & get off my titts i have not accomplshed much. Therefore the women treat me worse than shit because they do not know any better?

Yes the problem can get a lot worse. Please read on.

167. THINGS WERE GETTING BETTER! BUT SADLY PARAMEDICS NEEDED!

Ok, Friday 17/11/2023, I will admit it i managed to get off my face but one of the best afternoons i have ever had & ended up sharing the love at Lady Jane Beach. If I feel good then the voices in my head can get to feel good as well, all they have to do is lay dormant. Sadly on the way home the voices that claim to be in the afterlife decided they needed to feel good so started "Harnessing" (Please click here for more information) & then i spent the rest of the entire weekend getting treated like absolute shit!. The women i hear say they need stimulation & love hypnotics (Please click here for more information) & some nasty soul had placed "Expert" more than once on my head which meant every one that wanted to do hypnotics picked on me & were out of my control. I know about them but I cannot see them, or any of the writing or undo them at all. I ended up hallucinating & every thing as they did hypnotics locking things in with pictures which again i do not understand or have an ability to undo. Extremely unfair treatment.

What is worse is that Monday night 27/11/2023 the voices were playing the "Eating Game" (Please click here for more information) rather than "Search & Destroy" (Please click here for more information) which means i cannot eat or digest my food. They made me choke so badly & in such a bad state my mother called the paramedics. Karl Josef Silberbauer (Please click here for more information) returned & wants me dead before my father dies because he wants to steal my identity. Karl is scared shitless of my dad. My dad, in a past life, used to be the ruthless person in charge of Auschwitz (Please click here for more information) but he was only following orders & born after being executed for his mean manner in 1945. Karl was at Auschwitz and hence scared of my dad. My dad in this life reached "Optimal" & is a beautiful soul who is selfless, open minded, caring & the best dad in the world but souls in the afterlife or should i say "Heaven" (Please click here for more information) have placed "Hypnotics & Thoughts" (Please click here for more information) & my dad is not doing well.

I wish souls would understand that my dad & I reached "Optimal" (Please click here for more information) & should be treated better or left alone to be happy without their presence!

Who placed "Expert" on my head & fucked me? Please read on.

166. RETURNING TO ROLLER SKATING THANKS TO "ROLLERFIT"!

OMG I am so excited. If you have seen my Blog Story Post Number 135 - Please click here for more information - you would have seen that back in the day aged 12 years old i became Australian National Roller Free Skating Champion Juvenile Division in 1989 & later skated World Junior Titles in 1995 & World Titles in 1999. I have only skated a handful of times since 1999 & last week put on a pair of Roller Skates. I was sooooooo embarrassed for myself as i thought i would do figures but had difficulty doing a three-turn & almost cunted myself doing a Waltz Jump (easiest half jump imaginable). I get so dizzy doing a two foot spin that i fall over. Ooooops. I could not do shoot the duck & get up, so no chance of doing a sit spin. Damn my legs got a damn good work out.

Today however i decided stuff it, i am gonna make a return to Roller Skating. Mainly to get fit & to restore the amazing butt that i had being a porn muppet to become famous which has left me now at the age of 46 years old. I went online to RollerFit.com.au (Please click here for more information) & bought myself a new pair of Roll Line EVO Plates as both my old Labeda plates are broken. To buy skates go to RollerFit Store (Please click here for more information). I am so hoping they get delivered next week so that i can mount & wear them this coming Friday for practise. I know its gonna be a long haul ahead & figure for the next few months i will only be able to do Single jumps for a month or two before attempting Double jumps & who knows maybe even Triple jumps again but aaaaaaaaaah i am so excited & cannot wait.

If you want to learn to Skate I strongly suggest RollerFit (Please click here for learn to skate class details) & they are ALL over Australia. Roller Skating is so much Fun!

I just hope the voices in my head do not stop me from enjoying & returning to the sport I love!

165. BAD KARMA?

How come the nasty voices in my head do not realise & think that they are giving themselves bad Karma. Every person has the right to refuse permission for souls, in this case in "Heaven" (Please click here for more information), to not have enter their head. They refuse to lay dormant no matter how much i point out that it is in their best interest to do only that. Everything you do in life, afterlife (heaven) or the "Living Dead" (Please click here for more information) means your destiny & fate are set (Please click here for more information). Souls, mostly female (bitches) have passed on as dogs rather than humans because they needed obedience training otherwise they would be impossible disobedient children. Souls have passed on as "Earthworms" (Please click here for more information) because they have done no good & need to spend time turning poop into soil, doing good things, before they can be human otherwise they would be cold blooded children. I have seen spiders too. 

I should have so much good Karma that maybe i win the lotto? Or go with the good voice & reach "Optimal" (Please click here for more information) to escape bad Karma! 

What would be the Karma for souls playing nasty games on my head? Please read on.

164. WHAT IS THE PROBLEM NOW?

Photo taken 07/10/2023

After what is "Stopping You Now?" (Please click here for more information). "Karl Josef Silberbauer" (Please click here for more information) has reincarnated so my biggest problem in my head has gone. The problem now is the large numbers of souls that have spent years doing what Karl demanded which was treating me like shit & placing "Hypnotics" (Please click here for more information) means now they do not know any better & continue to behave that way even though he is no longer existing in "Heaven" (Please click here for more information). I have been living back in Sydney Australia since mid 2011 (Please click here for more information) & besides "University & College" (Please click here for more information) not done anything else. All these women in my head that annoy the shit out of me & say they do not care about me because i am always frowning & unhappy & say i am as boring as bat shit do not understand that with them in my head i do not even have the ability to talk to myself or sing to myself & entertain myself & make myself smile. They are not standing in front of me, they are inside my head! If they actually reflected on what they say & do whilst in my head then they would understand that a miracle needs to occur to make me smile. They expect me to somehow give off a good effect to make them feel good because they have level five Ora (worst ora Possible) & feel uncomfortable to hopefully make them restore the white light around themselves. If i do not make them feel good i am a selfish asshole even though if i give off a good effect which makes them feel good they "Harness" (Please click here for more information) & refuse to allow me to feel good or the good effect i produce! To them i am just a miserable boring bastard, but honestly how could i be anything else whilst they are in my head without my permission saying & doing arrogant things & giving me attitude & whilst i am tolerating with their selfish bad behaviour!

Even Tonka Tough i cannot deal with bitches never considering thanking me for what I provide?

Majoraly its Women in my head & so used to treating me like shit because that is all they know & they don't know any better & for years (3 - 8 Years)?

Another problem is that I have been back in Sydney after being forced to move home from living in the "USA" (Please click here for more information) since 2011 & besides "Studying" (Please click here for more information) i have not accomplished much. How can i accomplish anything with voices in my head? The women in my head claim to know me???

Yet another problem is that all the women in the afterlife/Heaven are completely bitchy! For example if a women fell in a nasty hole & really hurt herself (ie fucked up their fate/destiny & karma) would they then warn & tell all the other women about the hole so that they will not fall in the same nasty hole? Yeah fat chance! “Well why should I” is generally their response when I need help! No regard to each other or my well being or the "Consequences" (Please click here for more information) at all! I wish they would prove me wrong!

To find out more about the problem & about re-educating women? Please read on.