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I heard from the voices I hear in my head that my Bedroom in the family House located in Oyster Bay (The Shire) was loaded with "Hypnotics"(Please click here for more information) & hence why voices in my head were so troublesome... so moving out & heading with my parents whom are downsizing from the Shire (Oyster Bay) home i grew up in to their new property in the Western Suburbs (Glenmore Park) to be nearer to my sister. It was an ideal way to escape being abused further from the voices due to set Hypnotics. Epic fail, as the voice i named "The Dirty One" refused to leave my head & was behind setting up my new bedroom to be nasty again. As soon as i manage to get rid of her, some new soul always seems to take up her persona/identity in order to win a "Game"(Please click here for more information) & my only ability is to somehow make sense with her (Please click here for more information), however she just does not care about me & feels she has nothing to lose.
Changing residences & moving to a new location should have meant that i escaped the voices that threaten to give "Episodes" (Please click here for more information) if they do not get stimulation which I cannot handle & should not have to do. I do not ask them to make me feel good & want them outta my head!
Basically It should have been similar to faking my own death (Moving house) & I could have gotten away from the voices I hear in my head?
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If you have been reading this Blog Story then you will know that the voices in my head have been giving me "Episodes"(Please click here for more information) sometimes twice weekly which i can not handle. During an Episode i cannot speak properly or be understood & usually screaming my head off as they give me jaw stretches & painful neck twists which is just the start of it. The voices cannot hear me screaming because they are so selfish being in my head without my permission & do not want to hear me as it may stop them from doing them, hence why i cannot talk properly. It has been touch & go though, been close to having a episode, & almost was not able to swallow at all & choked, but mostly thank you to good souls & some no longer here anymore (Please click here for more information) that have been stopping the nasty souls from treating me badly. I think finally they have realised that playing "Games on my Head"(Please click here for more information) are not fun & are detrimental to anyone that plays them. There are some souls that just want to be nasty but hopefully they do care about themselves & will do nothing other than watch over me & lay dormant to reduce their bad karma & improve their destiny & fate. Sadly the voices are still "Harnessing"(Please click here for more information) so when i want to have fun i miss out. The main reason they harness is to feel good whilst treating me badly because they loose the "White Light"(Please click here for more information) & consequently feel uncomfortable. Surprisingly i have been wanting to have fun a lot more than usual which has not been successful but it has assisted in decreased episodes.
Is it me or some good souls above that have prevented me having Episodes for an entire month? Either way I am grateful!
It's hard to look & feel good when "Women voices"(Please click here for more information) are constantly calling you a selfish asshole or cunt because i am not focused on entertaining them or primarily making them feel good. If they are not treating me badly they spend their time trying to convince everyone that i am a selfish asshole? Why can't they allow me to feel good? I sadly am not happy with myself as i have gained weight from the "Medication" (Please click here for more information) & going to the gym is pointless as i cannot work out whilst i do not feel any "Endorphin Rush" (Please click here for more information) as the voices make it that they feel them while i feel nothing? What is the point of them feeling like they could climb Mount Everest (Feeling from Endorphin Rush) when they have unlimited time & do not have to push out the next set?
Its been at least 3 years since i have had sex with someone? I even have problems "masturbating"(Please click here for more information) as the voices do not leave me alone. One of the last attempts to have sex with someone was a disaster. The expression on my face showed pure pleasure & enjoyment written on my face, then as i tried to tell the voices in my head to shut up & fuck off, the expression on my face then looked like i was ready to kill someone which, as you can imagine, was very confusing for the guy i was playing with.The arrogance of the voices feeling they were more important wanting attention, with their unlimited time, rather than allowing me fun & fun for the person i was with?
Imagine the fun i could/would have if I did not hear voices?
There is light at the end of the tunnel, some "Ladies" (Not women (Please click here for more information explaining my dislike for them)) have finally realised i was not an asshole & now these "Ladies" are doing their best to rectify the situation & help me as i need helping & to stop women treating me like shit & being disrespectful/rude/vulgar for a quick rush!
Good Luck Troll??? Nah... FUCK MY FACE DOLL???
How do i get the women to stop Harnessing? (Please click here for more information & to learn what harnessing is) or whatever they have spent their time renaming/redefining "Harnessing" to continue the bad karma practise no matter what is done to try & stop them which is in their best interest? If they spent half the time getting everyone to lay dormant rather than "Harness" then both them & I would be having more than 100% good times! No one would loose.
Do these women need cock? Nah... they need to be torn new assholes!
What do these women expect from me? Please read on.
What a wonderful dog was Rowlf. Why didn't he feature in the latest Muppet Movie? He was in the original Muppet Movie, he sung to a broken down Kermit the Frog "I Hope Something Better comes along"! He was a great piano player & singer! He even sung about "Pie"! FANTASTIC! Best dog a friend could have (Please click here for more information of why I would be happy being a dog).
Now they have gone. When i was stressed or not coping with things i used to grab my thumbs (just like when i was Aaron Rothschild & since i was so young & small used to grab Stephano's thumb rather than hold his hand) & they would sense i was in trouble & help me deal with things. Now i cannot do this. Also when i was Aaron Rothschild when Stefano hid me out in the Cemetery so to not be taken by authorities whilst at Lodz Ghetto i had my face pressed against his since it was warm & we were out in the snow. Jenny Rothschild (Please click here for more information) could not find us & Stephano could not hear her calling out for us as i had stuck my finger in his ear in order to hold on to him & his warmth. With Rick when i was in the Afterlife the first time (Please click here for more information) when i was not watching over people i would sit quietly cuddled up in his lap & head on his leg whilst he talked to Cleopatra (Please click here for more information).
The above mentioned memories, since in my memory bank from past lives, means i was able to connect, sense, feel, talk & hear them both. I can no longer connect with them, as by choice, they reincarnated together.
In their new lives both Stephano & Ricks were placed well as their mums are best friends from School so they will definitely re-unite in their new lives. When i watch over them when i die i will see if they are best friends, BF''s, married, with/without kids etc which keeps me from crying thinking about how i can no longer connect with them. I am scared that some soul who shows hatred towards me will kill them both which is what happened the last time they both reincarnated together. Died of SIDS (Sudden Instant Death Syndrome) because of souls doing the wrong thing in the "Afterlife" or to be correct "Heaven"(Please click here for more information). Talk about nasty, sad & unfair. I am doing my best to deal without them.
Wanna know what song Stefano sang to me before he reincarnated? Please read on.
Wilfried Knight a French born (February 19th 1975) Porn Star with Lucas Entertainment, Raging Stallion & Falcon killed himself on this day 5th of March year 2013, after his husband Jerry Enriquez committed suicide 2 weeks prior to Wilfried ending his life. They were married in Canada 2011 where marriage was legal but sadly had difficulties having their marriage recognised in the USA & sadly faced leaving each other, which they definitely did not want, since unable to live together in the USA. They killed themselves in order to be together rather than be apart like USA wanted
The United Kingdom acknowledge same sex Marriage by introducing "Commitment Ceremony" for same sex couples & has same legal rights as Marriage in 2006. Australia should have followed suite & having studied "Constitution Law" (Please click here for more information) which means Queen has ultimate power & can make Acts in motion or even if a referendum & laws pass through parliament the Queen can say no & the Act scrapped! Yes she has that much power & if she said we having it then the Act just has to be written. What Australia should have done was grab the Queens attention which easily done if every float in the Sydney Mardi Gras did something to grab her attention. Mardi Gras parade was built on a protest rally to gain equality for homosexuals. The Queen just has to say the word & Same sex marriage is enacted. For example Dykes on bikes having Queen Elizabeth masks & the indigenous float having the Queen ride their serpent, & the dancing boys wearing Tiaras. Same Sex Marriage could have been introduced 2006/2007 but was not introduced in Australia until 2017 (Please click here for more information).
I am sure both hotties are watching down from above & happily still in love.
So how was Mardi Gras? I did my best, "tried to get off my face"(Please click here for Blog Story 168.) because, although it's not for everyone & sober living is best, i knew if i got the effect that i should get then it would be fun. Sadly the voices "harnessed"(Please click here for Blog Story 97.) or as they are now doing robbing me of an increased effect that I produce which made me feel like shit & all i wanted to do was lay down. You would think that since the women in my head gave me an "Episode last week"(Please click here for Blog Story 176.) that being Mardi Gras they should let me have fun. Still like a trooper i managed to get out & have a dance with once voice in my head that was just getting off on a quick rush by calling me an "Asshole" or "Selfish Asshole" or "Cunt" (Please click here for Blog Story 76.) with vengeance & giving me attitude. If i had a dollar for every time someone has said in my head, which they have no permission to enter, a nasty name or a show of disrespectfulness, i'b be a Billionaire
I bought new dancing shoes & everything!
BUT... No fun with a frown on my face?
Voices won't stop harassing me, so i went home & slept.
Well after doing my "PLT" (Please click here for more information) with UNSW & doing volunteer work as a Solicitor at HALC (HIV & AIDS Legal Centre) & volunteer work at KLC (Kingsford Legal Centre) after starting April 2024 but had to stop in August (Please click here for more information). of that year due to mental health condition so bad it forced me to stop... I have now, after returning to KLC this January & February, I have done enough volunteer work as a Solicitor that means I can also finish with doing my PLT & be admitted to the Bar.
HUGE THANK YOU TO EVERYONE THAT WORKS AT KLC, I CANNOT THANK THEM ENOUGH!
EXTRA THANK YOU TO FIONA DUANE & RACHEL GREGORY FOR GOING OUT OF THEIR WAY TO ASSIST ME, WHICH IS NOT EASY GIVEN MY MENTAL HEALTH PROBLEMS!
I CANNOT BEGIN TO TELL YOU HOW AMAZING THEY ALL ARE!
I am no longer just a Solicitor, that cannot represent clients in court.
I am now a Lawyer!
Just some paperwork & ceremony at the court to be sworn to the Bar is all needed & its official!
Thumbs up for KLC (Kingsford Legal Centre) If anyone needs Legal Assistance I highly recommend giving them a call +61 2 9385 9566
Not the good start to the year like i was hoping! The voices were “Harnessing”(Please click here for more information) everything again or automated harnessing which I cannot stop plus even worse they were playing a “Game” (Please click here for more information) but a more elevated version with nastiness at its worst. I had no way of sleeping, valium did not do the trick because they were harnessing. How do I get a break? The new "Medication" (Please click here for more information) should be working but voices have deliberately stayed in my head to try & make it Treatment Resistant Schizophrenia. Anyways I needed a break & consequently i took too many Zyprexa (Olanzapine) Tablets.
Doctors were worried about my heart & irregular heart beats so i got hospitalised Wednesday 8th January.
