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Tuesday, 16 September 2025

FREE LEGAL-WELL-BEING ADVICE/SERVICE!


FREE Legal-Well-Being advice for LGBTI Community and their friends now available. A Friendly face whom holds a Juris Doctor (JD) degree (Law Masters equivalent) from UNSW
(Please click here for more information), BA in Marketing from London Metropolitan University and certified in Work-Place Training & Assessment, Public Relations and Diploma in Community services offers a new type of Legal Service.

Examples of Legal-Well-Being advice you may require:

  - Your a recreational drug user & unsure of the laws & your rights.
- What are the best practices to adopt being a recreational drug user.
- What rights & responsibilities you have if being searched by police.
- What to do if your caught breaking the law by the police.
- A relationship breakdown with your wife/husband/de-facto
- You require Family law advice regarding divorce or breakup.
- What to do if your being harassed/stalked/intimidated.
- You need general wills & estates advice.
- You are suffering from discrimination.
- Your a Sex Worker & unsure of your rights, responsibilities & laws.
- You think you might be breaking a law but unsure what the laws are.



Having a troubled mind myself, consisting of Psychosis and schizophrenia, being a ex-porn star, and self confessed Party Boy & Rent-Boy in my time. I am street wise & I can say that I have been around the block several times so I offer to listen first, & then give all the helpful advice that I can. Not to be confused with the advice of a lawyer whom you still might need if trouble you have gotten yourself into has gone too far. My past experiences gives me a view-point from a different perspective to your average fella so it maybe worth running your issue or problem past me first before considering a lawyer or legal firm... Especially if it means your able to avoid law enforcement. I believe in striving to assist & listen to people that others may not & I will never just think ‘you should never have done that in the first place let alone considering doing it again. I am an expert on doing things or learning things the hard way.

Please feel free to call/message me (Please click the following Link) with any concerns that your having or to put it bluntly your thinking shit is gonna hit the fan any minute if I am not careful or change what i am doing. 






Tuesday, 2 September 2025

202. I AM BLUE?

Photo taken 1/09/2025
Although the photo does not show, i am blue. Yep sad & depressed. Still waiting to be appointed as a "Lawyer" (Please click here for more information).I wanna get in shape after the new "Medication" (Please click here for more information) increases my hunger & instead of weighing 92-94kg i weigh 106kg but every time i workout the voices give me problems & will not allow me to have motivation & drive or feel my "Endorphin rushes" (Please click here for more information). A few weeks back i made it to the gym & because of amazing soulsi managed not to tingle but they enabled me to feel, what i call, the "I can climb Mount Everest" rush so i did a major Bicep & Tricep workout & gave off a good vibe as i destroyed the muscles to get them bigger & with my muscle memory from being a gym junkie in the past meant they felt huge. No pain no gain was true. "My Plan" (Please click the following link to see my master plan) has not been achieved & I only have a few more years to succeed.

Rather than being active why can't the voices lay dormant? The last time they lay dormant (Please click here for more information) I had a great night & everyone felt fantastic!

I am happy to provide good effects if i am allowed to feel them & they can enjoy as well without ruining their destiny & fate & giving themselves bad Karma.
 
It is my body & my brain that creates good effects that the voices steal & rob me of having!

Thursday, 28 August 2025

201. MEET WRINKLES THE DOG!

Meet Wrinkles the dog. Puppy Pound Number: 8026430. He was rather unhappy with me taking photos of him. What is different about Wrinkles the dog is that he shares love by giving people evils? Basically when he is happy he gives nasty looks at those wanting his attention. Not because he is unhappy as he has Snoopy & feels that he is in a dog pack. He makes me giggle & loves a cuddle.


 Do not you be giving me no evils?

"Hate is not a creative force: Only love creates" 

Quote by St. Maximilian Kolbe (Please click here for more information regarding him)

Monday, 18 August 2025

200. TATTOO DESIGN FOR A MAN WITH THE INITIALS M.D?

Question? Is it possible i can hear & talk with people whilst asleep? 

Since people do not remember their dreams, asking them about a conversation i had with them, they would have forgotten? 

Most of the voices i hear in my head are from souls in "Heaven" (Please click here for more information) but sometimes i hear voices that belong to people alive on Earth as a result of Souls in Heaven playing games on me. It is usually when they are asleep & would be dreaming & do not remember because unless you are like me you do not remember your dreams (Please click here for more information) I am open minded & have heard the voices from Heaven change what my dad said when i needed a yes or no answer & he none the wiser.

Below is a Tattoo design not for myself but one i designed for a voice I heard whilst he was sleeping. He has the initials M.D? I personally do not know him & not sure how i would contact him to check if true or not.Anyways the voice said he liked my "Star of Happiness" (Please click here for more information) & like mine wanted the star of happiness breaking through a flat line because you flatline if you forget about your happiness but did not want the same as mine (Please click here to view my Star of Happiness). It is going through a Square (Because the guy is straight not gay) Ying-Yang. The reason for the Ying-Yang is to show that the guy wanting the tattoo design is in touch with both his masculine & feminine side & definitely NOT HOMOPHOBIC. The additional Square around the Ying-Yang signifies that you must think outside the box & remind M.D you will never be framed for anything that you do or have done that is for the greater good of mankind (Please click here for more information). Surely you have seen the TV Series Dexter?

As mentioned being heterosexual male that wanted as well "Angel Wings" but not the same as everyone else that others have which is  Angel Wings with visable feathers. Here that are not just "Angel Wings" but the "Angel Wings" with a difference as they are also the wings used for Air Force "Top Gun"!. 

The pussy cat with a crown on its head signifying it is King/Queen because the fella LOVES pussy to the point that he worships pussy & women will find that appealing.



M.D Please leave a message in the comments section & let me know what you think & that you got the design? 

Thursday, 14 August 2025

199. REVAMPING JOCK HUDSONS TATTOOS - ITS TIME FOR AS CHANGE!

Revamp Inspired by Ben Volt Tattoo Designs. 
To view more Ben Volt Tattoo Designs please click here.


Luckily i have met an outstanding brilliant tattoo artist named Marty Creak (Ocean Ink - Miranda. Please click here for more information) that listens to what i want & although i LOVE what he did (Please click here for more information to see additions that were done well by him) i have decided I'd rather have something bold & abstract. 

I have never like the big thing on my shoulder as it was not what i wanted & the tattoo artist would not listen to what i wanted & I was too busy being nervous & concerned about the pain level to stop him from doing what he wanted rather than what i wanted unlike Marty. I was even tempted to try Tattoo laser removal. If i blacken out what is on my Shoulder then being abstract i can say it a Superman Symbol. Plus will make my shoulders look bigger (Please click here to see original of what i wanted).


The original black strip down my abdomen boarded with straight lines is meant to signafiy a road & remind people to read between the lines but its straight with no bends, & no way to change directions & boarded by flatlines, which is not really what my life is about. The black beside it going up to my armpit would signify a road without boundaries and widens as it gets to the top as you learn more & more as you travel down any road. Also finishing in my armpit where you sweat the most reminds me that not all roads are easy & some are hard work. 
The possible additional strips (Similar to what Ben Volt did in second photo above) on arm/bicep/tricep would signify military lines/double strip like a Sargeant meaning i can follow orders & do my best to care for those that not as well off as me. Also in photo far right the added strip which matches the road, means i need to show discipline not matter what road i am on, small or big. 

The changes simplifies & makes tattoo abstract & means i can read anything into what i want the shapes to be as written above. I should have gone with my own designs in the first place rather than Pagan Symbols that anyone else could have. If you click the following link you see what i mean about why you sould create your own symbols & design.I am keeping one Pagan Symbol on chest meaning "Those who seek to harm me & my loved ones have their intent turned back upon themselves!" 

What do you think? Please leave a comment?

Wednesday, 18 June 2025

198. MOVED OUT OF THE SUTHERLAND SHIRE (OYSTER BAY) & MOVED TO WESTERN SUBURBS! ESCAPED FROM THE VOICES???

I heard from the voices I hear in my head that my Bedroom in the family House located in Oyster Bay (The Shire) was loaded with "Hypnotics" (Please click here for more information) & hence why voices in my head were so troublesome... so moving out & heading with my parents whom are downsizing from the Shire (Oyster Bay) home i grew up in to their new property in the Western Suburbs (Glenmore Park) to be nearer to my sister. It was an ideal way to escape being abused further from the voices due to set Hypnotics. Epic fail, as the voice i named "The Dirty One" refused to leave my head & was behind setting up my new bedroom to be nasty again. As soon as i manage to get rid of her, some new soul always seems to take up her persona/identity in order to win a "Game" (Please click here for more information) & my only ability is to somehow make sense with her (Please click here for more information), however she just does not care about me & feels she has nothing to lose. 


Changing residences & moving to a new location should have meant that i escaped the voices that threaten to give "Episodes" (Please click here for more information) if they do not get stimulation which I cannot handle & should not have to do. I do not ask them to make me feel good & want them outta my head!

Basically It should have been similar to faking my own death (Moving house) & I could have gotten away from the voices I hear in my head?

Thank you to Red Carpet for producing this song & Jenelle for posting it on Youtube.com. To subscribe please click the following link: https://www.youtube.com/@xCasaMia

Tuesday, 27 May 2025

197. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT... A ENTIRE MONTH WITHOUT AN EPISODE?

If you have been reading this Blog Story then you will know that the voices in my head have been giving me "Episodes" (Please click here for more information) sometimes twice weekly which i can not handle. During an Episode i cannot speak properly or be understood & usually screaming my head off as they give me jaw stretches & painful neck twists which is just the start of it. The voices cannot hear me screaming because they are so selfish being in my head without my permission & do not want to hear me as it may stop them from doing them, hence why i cannot talk properly. It has been touch & go though, been close to having a episode, & almost was not able to swallow at all & choked, but mostly thank you to good souls & some no longer here anymore (Please click here for more information) that have been stopping the nasty souls from treating me badly. I think finally they have realised that playing "Games on my Head" (Please click here for more information) are not fun & are detrimental to anyone that plays them. There are some souls that just want to be nasty but hopefully they do care about themselves & will do nothing other than watch over me & lay dormant to reduce their bad karma & improve their destiny & fate. Sadly the voices are still "Harnessing" (Please click here for more information) so when i want to have fun i miss out. The main reason they harness is to feel good whilst treating me badly because they loose the "White Light" (Please click here for more information) & consequently feel uncomfortable. Surprisingly i have been wanting to have fun a lot more than usual which has not been successful but it has assisted in decreased episodes.

Is it me or some good souls above that have prevented me having Episodes for an entire month? Either way I am grateful! 

I'm so happy i could cry! I pray no more "Episodes" (Please click here for more info) continues?

Thanks to Commander Tom for producing this song & Raffi3o3 for posting at Youtube.com. Subscribe here: https://www.youtube.com/@raffi3o3  

Monday, 5 May 2025

196. FOXY LOXY SAYS "GET YA MOJO BACK?"

It's hard to look & feel good when "Women voices" (Please click here for more information) are constantly calling you a selfish asshole or cunt because i am not focused on entertaining them or primarily making them feel good. If they are not treating me badly they spend their time trying to convince everyone that i am a selfish asshole? Why can't they allow me to feel good? I sadly am not happy with myself as i have gained weight from the "Medication" (Please click here for more information) & going to the gym is pointless as i cannot work out whilst i do not feel any "Endorphin Rush" (Please click here for more information) as the voices make it that they feel them while i feel nothing? What is the point of them feeling like they could climb Mount Everest (Feeling from Endorphin Rush) when they have unlimited time & do not have to push out the next set?

Its been at least 3 years since i have had sex with someone? I even have problems "masturbating" (Please click here for more information) as the voices do not leave me alone. One of the last attempts to have sex with someone was a disaster. The expression on my face showed pure pleasure & enjoyment written on my face, then as i tried to tell the voices in my head to shut up & fuck off, the expression on my face then looked like i was ready to kill someone which, as you can imagine, was very confusing for the guy i was playing with.The arrogance of the voices feeling they were more important wanting attention, with their unlimited time, rather than allowing me fun & fun for the person i was with?

Imagine the fun i could/would have if I did not hear voices?

Foxy Loxy showing how to bust a move?
How to be Foxy? How to show off a hairy crack? 
It's not a party if there is no crack?

I need my Mojo back?
The "Women" I hear in my head would rather give me an "Episode" (Please click here for more information) than have that happen?
How can i when i cannot go to the gym? 

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Friday, 11 April 2025

195. WHERE ARE ALL THE GOOD LUCK TROLLS WHEN YOU NEED THEM?

I need please Good Luck Trolls instead of the large amount of "Hypnotic Whores" (Please click here to find out what a Hypnotic Whore is & how they turned Heaven into Gang Bang City) that keep treating me badly & disrespectfully simply because they have done it for so long (Please click here for more information) & have unlimited time & nothing better to do or get off on the challenge of breaking me. There seems to be an endless supply of stupidity & nastinest! They can see my "White Light" (Please click here for more information why white light is so important) which proves i do my best not to be an asshole & makes them an insult to the intelligence & I do not deserve to be given "Episodes" (Please click here for more information to understand how bad episodes can get) like they did again last Sunday night.

There is light at the end of the tunnel, some "Ladies" (Not women (Please click here for more information explaining my dislike for them)) have finally realised i was not an asshole & now these "Ladies" are doing their best to rectify the situation & help me as i need helping & to stop women treating me like shit & being disrespectful/rude/vulgar for a quick rush! 

Good Luck Troll??? Nah... FUCK MY FACE DOLL???

How do i get the women to stop Harnessing? (Please click here for more information & to learn what harnessing is) or whatever they have spent their time renaming/redefining "Harnessing" to continue the bad karma practise no matter what is done to try & stop them which is in their best interest? If they spent half the time getting everyone to lay dormant rather than "Harness" then both them & I would be having more than 100% good times! No one would loose.

Do these women need cock? Nah... they need to be torn new assholes!


What do these women expect from me? Please read on.

Wednesday, 2 April 2025

194. WHAT HAPPENED TO ROWLF THE WONDERFUL DOG? I MISS ROWLF!

What a wonderful dog was Rowlf. Why didn't he feature in the latest Muppet Movie? He was in the original Muppet Movie, he sung to a broken down Kermit the Frog "I Hope Something Better comes along"! He was a great piano player & singer! He even sung about "Pie"! FANTASTIC! Best dog a friend could have (Please click here for more information of why I would be happy being a dog).
  

Thank you Jim Henson for creating an amazing Dog named Rowlf! 





Thank you to Dorcm1973 for posting this at Youtube.com. 

Tuesday, 11 March 2025

193. BOTH STEPHANO MONKEY & PAPA RICK REINCARNATED TOGETHER!

I knew the couple by names of "Stefano Monkey" & "Papa Rick" because both Stephano & Rick used to connect their souls up to my Pyjama Monkey (a monkey that comes alive when you store your pyjamas inside of him when your not wearing them) & Papa Smurf (Please click here for more information & to find out what happened to them both when they were naughty).  

It was like the plush toys came alive & fun. 

Now they have gone. When i was stressed or not coping with things i used to grab my thumbs (just like when i was Aaron Rothschild & since i was so young & small used to grab Stephano's thumb rather than hold his hand) & they would sense i was in trouble & help me deal with things. Now i cannot do this. Also when i was Aaron Rothschild when Stefano hid me out in the Cemetery so to not be taken by authorities whilst at Lodz Ghetto i had my face pressed against his since it was warm & we were out in the snow. Jenny Rothschild (Please click here for more information) could not find us & Stephano could not hear her calling out for us as i had stuck my finger in his ear in order to hold on to him & his warmth. With Rick when i was in the Afterlife the first time (Please click here for more information) when i was not watching over people i would sit quietly cuddled up in his lap & head on his leg whilst he talked to Cleopatra (Please click here for more information).


The above mentioned memories, since in my memory bank from past lives, means i was able to connect, sense, feel, talk & hear them both. I can no longer connect with them, as by choice, they reincarnated together.

In their new lives both Stephano & Ricks were placed well as their mums are best friends from School so they will definitely re-unite in their new lives. When i watch over them when i die i will see if they are best friends, BF''s, married, with/without kids etc which keeps me from crying thinking about how i can no longer connect with them.  I am scared that some soul who shows hatred towards me will kill them both which is what happened the last time they both reincarnated together. Died of SIDS (Sudden Instant Death Syndrome) because of souls doing the wrong thing in the "Afterlife" or to be correct "Heaven" (Please click here for more information). Talk about nasty, sad & unfair. I am doing my best to deal without them.



Wanna know what song Stefano sang to me before he reincarnated? Please read on.

Wednesday, 5 March 2025

192•5. REMEMBERING HOT MEN - WILFRIED KNIGHT (PORN STAR) & JERRY ENRIQUEZ (HUSBAND)!

Wilfried Knight a French born (February 19th 1975) Porn Star with Lucas Entertainment, Raging Stallion & Falcon killed himself on this day 5th of March year 2013, after his husband Jerry Enriquez committed suicide 2 weeks prior to Wilfried ending his life. They were married in Canada 2011 where marriage was legal but sadly had difficulties having their marriage recognised in the USA & sadly faced leaving each other, which they definitely did not want, since unable to live together in the USA. They killed themselves in order to be together rather than be apart like USA wanted.

Wilfried, like myself & sorry for sounding arrogant was extremely intelligent & studied & graduated in Law (Please click here for more information) from University in France. He additionally continued studies at University in Belgium & Greece.

The United Kingdom acknowledge same sex Marriage by introducing "Commitment Ceremony" for same sex couples & has same legal rights as Marriage in 2006. Australia should have followed suite & having studied "Constitution Law" (Please click here for more information) which means Queen has ultimate power & can make Acts in motion or even if a referendum & laws pass through parliament the Queen can say no & the Act scrapped! Yes she has that much power & if she said we having it then the Act just has to be written. What Australia should have done was grab the Queens attention which easily done if every float in the Sydney Mardi Gras did something to grab her attention. Mardi Gras parade was built on a protest rally to gain equality for homosexuals. The Queen just has to say the word & Same sex marriage is enacted. For example Dykes on bikes having Queen Elizabeth masks & the indigenous float having the Queen ride their serpent, & the dancing boys wearing Tiaras. Same Sex Marriage could have been introduced 2006/2007 but was not introduced in Australia until 2017 (Please click here for more information).


I am sure both hotties are watching down from above & happily still in love.

Their love lives on forever!


Saturday, 1 March 2025

192. DOGS KNOW HOW TO HAVE A FUN TIME! MARDI GRAS THIS WEEKEND, HOPEFULLY THE VOICES IN MY HEAD WILL LET ME HAVE FUN TOO!

If i was a dog (Please click here for Blog Story 94.) then could I have fun?



So how was Mardi Gras? 
 I did my best, "tried to get off my face" (Please click here for Blog Story 168.) because, although it's not for everyone & sober living is best, i knew if i got the effect that i should get then it would be fun. Sadly the voices "harnessed" (Please click here for Blog Story 97.) or as they are now doing robbing me of an increased effect that I produce which made me feel like shit & all i wanted to do was lay down. You would think that since the women in my head gave me an "Episode last week" (Please click here for Blog Story 176.) that being Mardi Gras they should let me have fun. Still like a trooper i managed to get out & have a dance with once voice in my head that was just getting off on a quick rush by calling me an "Asshole" or "Selfish Asshole" or "Cunt" (Please click here for Blog Story 76.) with vengeance & giving me attitude. If i had a dollar for every time someone has said in my head, which they have no permission to enter, a nasty name or a show of disrespectfulness, i'b be a Billionaire 

I bought new dancing shoes & everything!
BUT... No fun with a frown on my face? 

Voices won't stop harassing me & it becomes too difficult to have fun when they will not relent, so i went home & slept rather than bring everyone else down & ruin their night.
  
Happy Mardi Gras 2025 everyone!

Wednesday, 19 February 2025

191. I AM NOW A LAWYER! YIPEEE! NO LONGER ONLY A SOLICITOR!

Well after doing my "PLT" (Please click here for more information) with UNSW & doing volunteer work as a Solicitor at HALC (HIV & AIDS Legal Centre) & volunteer work at KLC (Kingsford Legal Centre) after starting April 2024 but had to stop in August (Please click here for more information). of that year due to mental health condition so bad it forced me to stop... I have now, after returning to KLC this January & February, I have done enough volunteer work as a Solicitor that means I can also finish with doing my PLT & be admitted to the Bar. 

HUGE THANK YOU TO EVERYONE THAT WORKS AT KLC, I CANNOT THANK THEM ENOUGH! 
EXTRA THANK YOU TO FIONA DUANE & RACHEL GREGORY FOR GOING OUT OF THEIR WAY TO ASSIST ME, WHICH IS NOT EASY GIVEN MY MENTAL HEALTH PROBLEMS!
I CANNOT BEGIN TO TELL YOU HOW AMAZING THEY ALL ARE!

I am no longer just a Solicitor, that cannot represent clients in court. 

I am now a Lawyer!


Just some paperwork & ceremony at the court to be sworn to the Bar is all needed & its official!
Thumbs up for KLC (Kingsford Legal Centre) 
If anyone needs Legal Assistance I highly recommend
giving them a call +61 2 9385 9566


Wednesday, 15 January 2025

190. DUCK MARATHON - SOMETHING THAT CHEERS ME UP WATCHING - YOU GOTTA WATCH THIS! I LOOOVE THIS!

I love this! 
Where are all these ducks going? 
Do they go running down the middle of suburbia every afternoon?
How do cars drive up the street?
First one to the duck pond wins? 
Please leave in the comments if you know where they are going?

Posting Thanks to Regan Appel. Please subscribe at https://www.youtube.com/@reganappel6271 

Wednesday, 8 January 2025

189. BACK IN HOSPITAL AGAIN!

Not the good start to the year like i was hoping! The voices were “Harnessing” (Please click here for more information) everything again or automated harnessing which I cannot stop plus even worse they were playing a “Game” (Please click here for more information) but a more elevated version with nastiness at its worst. I had no way of sleeping, valium did not do the trick because they were harnessing. How do  I get a break? The new "Medication" (Please click here for more information) should be working but voices have deliberately stayed in my head to try & make it Treatment Resistant Schizophrenia. Anyways I needed a break & consequently i took too many Zyprexa (Olanzapine) Tablets.

Doctors were worried about my heart & irregular heart beats so i got hospitalised Wednesday 8th January. 

Discharged Monday 13th January.

Wednesday, 1 January 2025

188. HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!




Well reflecting on 2024, sad to say but it was a relatively shitty year for me. An "Episode" (Please click here for more information) almost every week, more than a month in "Hospital" (Please click here for more information) plus i never managed to finish my volunteer work to complete my PLT (Professional Legal Training) (Please click here for more information) to go with my "Juris Doctor" (Please click here for more information). Hopefully with the new "Medication" (Please click here for more information) & KLC (Kingsford Legal Centre) is Happy to have me return (Please click here for more information on why i had to stop) in January to complete 6 days volunteer work for my PLT then I will be a fully fledged Lawyer (Please click here for more information), So the start of 2025 should be good. 

Fingers crossed the voices in my head allow me to have a good year!



Happy New Year Everyone! 

Let 2025 be great?

Thanks to Kleerup for posting this song "I just wanna make that sad boy smile" at Youtube.com. Subscribe here: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCAV2Kx67bReBgucF3ftqSSQ