116. ONE NASTY/STUPID BITCH

One girl i hear in my head (Kara) has been mistreating me for a long time, mainly because of Karl Josef Silberbauer's deviate friend from Auschwitz. Her first girlfriend broke up with her because she was sick of watching her place nasty hypnotics (Please click here for more information) on me & refusing to listen to any good advice i tried to give her. I only ever tried to help her. Her second girlfriend broke up with her for similar reasons but also because she would "Harness" (Please click here for more information) & tell everyone that i was an "Asshole" or "Cunt" (Please click here for information regarding language). She had a hypnotic on her head placed by Sam (another asshole) or herself, that she knew about, that blamed me for all her problems. Sadly while i slept she the entire night busy bad mouthing me to everyone & therefore i have experienced head & testicular pains & not been able to enjoy myself as souls place the "Release" button (Please click here for more information) & deliberately place games (Please click here for more information) on my head to ruin my fun as they defend this girl saying I wrecked her life. Please do  me a favour and get rid of her!

Souls should have checked their facts first before acting on what she has been saying about me. She does not have white light around her (Please click here for more information).

Apparently there is a notice board in the afterlife which lists my mistreatment. Should see how i was treated because of her? Those appearing on it look like total Hypnotic Whores! (Please click here for more information).

Will she remain a Nast/stupid bitch? Please read on.

115. DIRTY RATS OR HEAVEN RATS?

Well for now Karl Josef Silberbauer (Please click here for more information) & the nastiest of souls & 509 evil Hypnotic Whores (Please click here for more information) have gone from in my head & the afterlife. All souls that did not reach "Optimal" (Please click here for more information) & are not allowed in the afterlife have also been removed. Also since i changed my new tattoo design to the symbol for "Every second every day life gets better every way" (Please click here for more information) things progress in a better direction for me. Souls are still "harnessing" (Please click here for more information) my endorphin rushes which makes working out impossible & the last three workouts have been sadly complete fails (Please click here for more information). I am sick to death of Dirty Rats that enter my head without my permission & "harness" (Please click here for more information) & play games on my head (Please click here for more information) Plus i hear Dirty Rats constantly say "but I/We need to feel good" & expect me to provide them good vibes & energy to feel good when they do not have white light around themselves (Please click here for more information).They should focus on having white light so they are not so dirty (Please click here for more information).

Come on Afterlife if all the evil has gone from my head then shouldn't i be enjoying & loving life again? I do not understand what is going on or what the problem is? Luckily there are some Heaven Rats (Girls & Boys (Jeff & his Mate pictured)) that i do love & although i have never given permission to be in my head i would defend to the moon & back coz without them i would not be even remotely happy. 

Wanna watch Rizzo & his rat friends in action? Please click the link below.

114. THE BEST ANIMALS FOR REINCARNATION!

ALF dressed as a Koala Bear.

Depending on what you do in life & afterlife (Please click here for more information) means when you pass onward into the light or go through the doors at the pearly gates (Please click here for more information) you may be reincarnated as a human (Best possible scenario) or reincarnated as a micro-organism (Worst case scenario) Please click here for more information or sent back to the core for a full reset if your that big of a selfish asshole needing to learn their lesson on how to be a better person. When i die before being reincarnated i will not be going to the afterlife but into the light to be held by Present (Please click here for more information) & then will be placed with the Galactic Cuties (Please click here for more information) which is higher than any level in the afterlife. Sadly if i do not make it to the Galactic Cuties like intended i may go into the dark as i did once before and wont return to life as we know it until year 8453 (Please click here for more information) when someone discovers this blog & brings me out of the dark as was done by Warner Sallman who brought me out of the dark in the past (Please click here for more information).

I have said if i was reincarnated as a dog i would be happy (Please click here for more information) having a short life, not working & with a good owner live happily. 

What are the best animals to be reincarnated?

Sadly Koala Bears in Australia are now endangered species which is sad as they are the ideal thing to be reincarnated as. Why? For starters they have no predators except for wild dogs so nothing but bush fires harm them & cutting down trees. Also would you believe when a Koala bear eats Eucalyptus leaves & digests eucalyptus leaves & it processes the leaf it gives off the equivalent to LSD to the Koala. Yes basically like taking a dose of acid. Explains why they have pink eye! Koala's are total trippers and spend their days in the trees completely shit faced. If a bird flew over their head chances are they mistake it as being bigger than an Airbus 380. All day fun! They must spend all their days laughing their heads off with perspective & deception problems, hallucinations & sadly pink eye because they are such trippers. Shame there are not more of them to be something you could be placed as & reincarnated. Ozzy Osbourne eat your heart out. lol.

Another endangered species that would be ideal as an animal that you would want to be reincarnated as, would be the Panda Bear. Lets see, how bad would it be spending your day having a massive sugar fix? No pretaters to harm you which is the same as the Koala & if your living amongst sugar cane then a never ending supply of food & a cure to your sugar cravings. Have you ever wondered why Panda's are extremely temperamental and extremely dangerous? Well think about humans when they have sugar fixes, do they not suffer problematic come downs as the sugar rush is over? So if a Panda is not enjoying a sugar rush and is on a come down then he would be beyond dangerous and a bear that you do not want to mess with. So only if a Panda is high on sugar then he is fun and approachable.

113. NEW JOB POSITION FOR JOCK HUDSON

 Currently Jock Hudson is applying for the position of Policy Officer for Scarlet Alliance (Please click here for more information) which is the national peak body representing sex workers across Australia. Located in Newtown NSW. Hopefully he can put his Juris Doctor (Equivalent to Law Masters for postgraduate students) (Please click here for more information). & Diploma of Community Services to good use. (Please click here for more information)

Applications close 17th February 2022 so wish me luck. 

112. WHAT IS THE AFTERLIFE DOING??? DESTRUCTION OF THE AFTERLIFE!

Well if you thought things were getting better with the voices in my head. Think again. One woman named Jolene who was one of the 717 ladies Karl made into Hypnotic Whores (Please click here for more information) decided because she likes a good game (Please click here for more information) & of course the Bitch & a Half (Please click here for more information) & all ladies without white light around them (Please click here for more information) whinged that they needed to feel good without white light around them & that i needed to provide it. Why? I am not even in the afterlife & grow older by the second, unlike souls in the afterlife that should feel good since no sickness or bad health.

The afterlife would not allow/permit souls they watch over to be treated the way i am treated. The world doomed when games are place on humans that the afterlife watches over as well as me? (Please click here for more information).

How far will they go? Please read on.

111. MY BIRTHDAY AGAIN!

Photo taken 18/01/2022

Last year when it was my birthday (January 19th) all the stars were inline (Please click here for more information) but they will not be this year as the stars were inline just recently (Please click here for more information). What i would like for my birthday this year, which is thank goodness going to be nothing like last year, although sadly my favourite tattoo artist Marty Creak (Martin Creak) who fixed the last tattoo i had done (Please click here for more information) after the artist did not do as i asked or wanted & i was extremely unhappy with what he did. It was meant to go straight across my shoulder not upwards & same width as under my arm tattoo! If i had not been all nervous about how much pain i would be feeling i would have not allowed the tattoo artist to have done what he did. If that bloke had gone with what i originally went to the effort to design with the angle of the stripes when placed would go directly straight, not upwards. I want to increase the size/width of my shoulders which upwards rise does not do. Not happy. Anyways sadly my new tattoo artist named Marty from Ocean Ink (Please click here) is in isolation due to COVID but i would love to get some tattoo work done & he goes above & beyond his best to give you exactly what you desire or want done. It would include the road (Stripes) going up side of my stomach to my pecs which signifies "I know where i am heading & have direction again. Plus read between the lines - Look for, or discover a meaning that is implied rather than explicitly stated. Also three symbols that include: "Im approachable", "My wishes come true", & "Every second every day life gets better every way". 

To see my existing tattoos & their meanings (Please click here). 

Plus good good good news, Karl Josef Silberbauer (Please click here for more information) has been removed from my head and the afterlife, and the 710 ladies (Please click here for more information) seem to have disappeared or are disappearing out of my head and the afterlife as well, so i am doing alright. Touch wood... which means i should touch my head. LOL. 

What happened on my birthday? Please read on.

110. NEW DESIGN LAWS FOR NEW AND EXISTING HOUSES/APARTMENT BUILDINGS???

The indigenous Aboriginals of Australia were ahead of their time (Please click here for more information) & since they built no dwellings meant the land would always be regenerating & existing & creating homes for new animals, birds & wildlife, however people of today seek comfort in having a home for security purposes and more... I therefore propose, roads sadly there is nothing we can do, but all buildings even existing ones, but especially new builds or a new building should all be made by law to have soil & then have native plants, trees & shrubs on their roof-tops to increase natural habitat & wildlife PLUS its better insulation. For existing buildings with flat roofs i propose that instead of washing/blowing all the leaves that fall off the trees during Autumn/Fall down the drain, we should pick them up since they are light-weight & place them on roof-tops which in turn creates soil & material suitable for vegetable patches & full blown gardens & parklands. Admittedly more concrete during construction of Houses/Apartments would be needed & sand is the main ingredient... but hell we have the Sahara Desert... get the sand from there & as you dig away the soil will become fertile & things will grow?

It is definitely not a new idea & needs further development & laws. Imagine how landscape, wildlife & environment would improve?

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109. WHAT IS TO COME OF THE AFTERLIFE NOW?

Photo from 2006 before the voices started 

The afterlife has/will become:

Doomed to become "Robot City" (Please click here for more information)

Becoming "Sex Doll Gang Bang City" (Please click here for more information)

Easily seen as "Total Fuckwitz City" (Please click here for more information)

I honestly do not know what is to become of the afterlife now with "Karl Josef Silberbaur" (Please click here for more information) around again who wants to be God. If consequences occur because of what he took from me in this life, the afterlife loose's every privilege & will not be connected to their overlays. Karl reckons he will save souls with hypnotics but expects more than just spreading his ass cheeks & licking out his dirty hole to thank him. He wants to "Harness" (Please click here for more information) the life out of other living souls on earth too. No one in the afterlife would remain with "White Light Around Them" (Please click here for more information).  

I should feel more protected since my soul looks & is only 4 years old in this life as Alan Dowsett/Jock Hudson & the afterlife was told to protect me back in 2013 (Please click here for more information) because my soul is so young after 3•5 years not managing to turn 4 years old in my first life (Please click here for more information) (Jesus). In my second life, again only turning 4•5 years old (Please click here for more information) but when i died in that life i stayed in the living dead at Auschwitz rather than entering the afterlife like i did after my first life (Please click here for more information).

Photograph right (Courtesy/Thanks to "The Muppet Christmas Carol"): Apparently close to what i looked like the first time i was in the afterlife, young & big eyed. "I Was The Youngest To Be Allowed Into The Afterlife" (Please click here for more information) BUT I was not a spoilt evil little shit. Sadly i was so young there was A LOT i did not understand. "Papa Rick" (Click here for more information) nicknamed me Paddle feet coz of the way I ran around. Eventually after watching over the "Indigenous Australians" (Please click here for more information) when white men started killing Aboriginals, & they did not kill white man & the animals did not take affirmative action, i entered into the dark. "I Only Came Out of The Dark Thanks to Warner Sallman" (Please click here for more information).

Photograph Right: Apparently what "Jacob" (Please click here for more information) looked like who was a best friend in the afterlife after i turned up there the first time in 0 B.C-4 A.D coz he was so close to my age. He could easily influence me (Influencer) whereas, everything anybody else told me, i would compute through all my three & a half years of knowledge before i believed them or not. LOL. 

(Thanks to Mark D Fulwiler for the Bear pic)

"Believe it or not a bloke named Rick and Cleopatra used to watch over us both & at night when all the people i watched over were sleeping i would cuddle with Rick and remain quiet as he spoke with Cleopatra until the people woke in the morning for me to watch over" For more information on myself whilst i was in the afterlife the first time please click here.

Whilst in the Afterlife Jacob, as did i got along well with everyone except for Rick's half brother whom thought we were trouble. Jacob always wanted a tricycle & was given one & i got one as well. BUT i was a little small for the tricycle & rode so out of control i cunted (Please click here for an explanation of language used in this Blog Story Site) myself. LOL. When i went to ride the tricycle again Rick's brother put his foot in my way & stopped me which scared me, so i ran to Papa Rick & wrapped my arms around his head (Just like i used to do to Stephano back in Biblical days when he used to look after me). Ricks brother seen this & again assumed i was trouble & hence they all decided to banish me from the afterlife & send me to Australia to watch over the "Indigenous People or Aboriginals" (Please click here for more information) which i loved. 

They knew me as the spirit guide that was little & sketch & had a funny hair do. "I taught them about the soft bit of cotton you should never touch or go near because it on-covers a Funnel Web spider... DEADLY". Jacob remembers after looking for me & finding me in Australia & i was like a horse whisperer with the funnel web spiders making them stand on their back feet & slamb their fangs into logs of wood & get themselves stuck which apparently i found very amusing. Sadly when the White Man turned up to settle Australia & started killing the Aboriginals which i had all the love in the world for, when the animals (funnel web spiders) did not take affirmative action & kill all the White Men (Spear Heads) i slipped into the dark to be forgotten about as mentioned above until Warner Sallmans most famous painting of "Jesus" (Please click here for more information).

Side note: When Jacob found me after such a long time in Australia & after seeing what i did to the Funnel Web Spider, i asked about Rick (Please click here for more information) & if he missed me after telling me to get lost & was forced to be nasty to me & say he no longer wanted me around since he had agreed to banish me to Australia. I started crying so Jacob gave me a hug & that is how he came of age, & unrecognisable when he returned to the Afterlife. 

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108. SOME SOULS IN THE AFTERLIFE CAN KISS MY ASS!

Photo year 2020

Hearing voices coming from souls in the afterlife that are in my head absolutely drives me crazy and the unexplained aches, pains and headaches created by hypnotics (Please click here for more information) that hurt & are severe & interrupts me from thinking, so take me hours to do or go anywhere, & stops me from enjoying life as a human being. The amount of my precious time i have spent trying to help and make souls in the afterlife stop being fuckwitz (Please click here for more information) & help protect & preserve the afterlife is un-bloody-believable. Today was a rude awakening for souls in the afterlife as the nasty souls that should not exist or be enjoying the privileges of being in the afterlife, that i have managed to remove, started harassing & causing harm & pain to people that they watch over instead of me, so they went from bad to worse! 

One bitch & a half continually treats me unfairly, nastily & harmfully in my head, & for lord knows how long, & she even brought Karl Josef Silberbauer (Please click here for more information) back into my head & the afterlife, expects me to help her with souls she brought back into the afterlife that i spent days removing. She can kiss my ass! (For more information on ass kissing please click here).

How bad can she be & wanna see more ass pics? Please read on. 

107. GAMES BEING PLACED ON HUMAN HEADS LIKE MINE. I AM NO MONKEY!

Tonight the afterlife removed the games placed on my head plus 609 voices & hopefully removed for good. Why? Because when i go to sleep at night i do not care if i do not wake up since yet another game will be placed on my head. (Please click here for more information). They forget that no game & no hypnotic can make you feel as good as when you glow or tingle which can be achieved by simply doing the right thing & talking to one another.

When games are placed on my head they usually place one million & one games, plus a hidden game underneath plus probably another game that supposedly cannot be removed to ensure they have unlimited games on my head which is all done without my permission & with no way for me to remove. 

The main object of any game (Mostly search & destroy) placed is to kill any dream i might have (Please click here for more information), any happiness i might have (Please click here for more information), and kill the life i have within me after spending 10 years learning to love life (Please click here for more information). Game players get extra points if they make me self harm (Please click here for more information). Game Players have no-one to watch over & do it for fun & place games on my head because I cannot remove them, & I cannot remove the hypnotics (Please click here for more information) I have no escape & I cannot get away from them. Also because my soul is only 3 1/2 years old in this life as Alan Dowsett/Jock Hudson because my soul is so young after almost turning 4 years old in my first life (Please click here for more information) and almost turning 4 years old in my second life (Please click here for more information) means my soul is fun to destroy & bounces back pretty quick no matter how much harm they cause me.

Today yet another game was placed on my head & not a monkey's head lasted more than 24 hours. I have heard that over the past thirteen years that i have been hearing the afterlife in my head, 87% of the last thirteen years have been consumed not by me enjoying life and having fun but by the afterlife with their agendas. 59% of the last thirteen years i have had one or more and uncountable numbers of games (Please click here for more information) on my head which i have no ability to remove or do anything about. Karl Josef Siberbauer (Please click here for more information) invented most of the games which are nothing but mere torture to me. Since he is not around it is the nasty bitches (Please click here for more information) that he taught that love playing them.

The main reason the afterlife plays games on my head is boredom because they have stopped watching over loved ones & have nothing better to do! They have unlimited time!

What you need to know if playing a game? Please read on.

106. VOICES IN MY HEAD, OMG SERIOUSLY I HAVE HAD ENOUGH!

OMG... the nastiest voice that i hear in my head (Karl Josef Silberbauer - Please click here for more info) has now gone, he got sent back & burnt at the core over a year ago but i am still bloody dealing with the women he used to get to be nasty to me, 509 of them. (Please click here for more info). These ladies all lived privileged lives & are only in the after life because when they died they were told they would be drawn to Karl who would be in a cage & they would get answers to what he did to them in their past lives & why they had problems in their life & why they did not reach optimal, otherwise they would not be permitted to be in the afterlife. OMG i cannot tell you how sick & tired of dealing with them i am. Thought it was finally over & now some asshole that loved Karl & like him thinks i am the most useless thing (Please click here for more info) because i was Jewish Aaron Rothschild (Please click here for more info) in a past life. These souls that bother me do not even have white light around them (Please click here for more info). It means i cannot do things that i want to do (Please click here for more info). Sadly i do not think i will ever understand what has gone on relentlessly and continues in my head. 

Seriously the afterlife in my head is meant to be filled with angels not assholes & fuckwitz (Please click here for more information). 

What rock did they crawl out from under! 

Last weekend i had 534 voices in my head all at once & seriously the good souls that try to help me were outnumbered & i suffered greatly!

How nasty can they be? Please read on.

105. IS IT TRUE THAT ALL THE STARS IN THE SKY ARE INLINE?

I have been told tonight that all the stars in the sky are inline again? The last time this occurred believe it or not was when it was my birthday when i turned 44 years old. (Please click  here for more information). So what does this mean? I was hoping a celebration that i get gifted my life back and everyone lives happily? Both down here on Earth or up there in the Afterlife? 

But something tells me tonight maybe the mark of the date of the beginning of the end? I hope not!

So sad when the answers to avoid world warning number three which maybe the last & final warning given were easy to follow? (For the warning signs - Please click here for more information). The biggest problem (Hypnotics) - (Please click here for more information) have been increased instead of removed? Anything worthwhile does not need a Hypnotic! (Please click here for more information). What about the feeling you get from someone being interested in you, the feeling of tingles when you glow, the sensation of an orgasm & old fashioned fun... But then all this has been taken away from me & no-one seems to rediscover how good it all can feel? What about souls having the white light around them (Please click here for more information) which i have somehow still have around me. Seems the afterlife is still more concerned with protecting those without white light & those that "harness". Harnessing is basically leeching anything good out of a soul & not letting the soul that you are getting the feel good effect from feel anything. You can even harness a person's orgasm so that you feel it & the person does not feel the slightest tingle down their spine. (For more information pleases click here). They would feel nothing! As of 01//11/2022 I have now missed out on feeling a total of 99 orgasms. No goosebump down my spine as should be felt when having an orgasm! 

Who cares anyway? Was the afterlife warned? Please read on.

104. QUIT SMOKING - PLEASE I URGE YOU TO QUIT IF YOU ALREADY HAVE NOT DONE SO.

On this day back in 2017 i finally quit buying cigarettes. I was almost a pack a day - Seriously unhealthy & it needed to stop.

How to quit smoking? My Advice. 

Set yourself a date, for example in 3-4 weeks time i will quit smoking & get used to the idea as the 3-4 weeks runs out & learn that you will no longer be smoking ever again or as i prefer to say you will NEVER buy a packet of cigarettes again. I posted this pic of me smoking on Facebook since i never looked good smoking to help myself with the date i stopped.

Please note: From time to time in the future you will have the urge to smoke especially if someone you know still smokes. Having a cigarette from time to time or once in a blue moon is ok, if you find a friend willing to give you one, as long as you DO NOT buy a pack. I admit since i quit buying cigarettes i have had one or two here and there, which luckily will not kill you, however i have STUCK to my commitment of NEVER buying a packet again which means, NEVER buying a pack, you have NOT taken up the habit again. Smoking will kill you so you need to quit.

The hardest thing about giving up smoking is missing the ritual that goes with it. i used always find if i was having a bad day i could always think it was because i had not had a cigarette & then once i had a cigarette then bad day over, plus inhaling & watching exhaled smoke was enough to make any bad day enjoyable.

Nicorette Quickmist Spray administers one ml of Nicotine giving a rush enough to remove cravings. I found gum & locensgers & enhalaurs did not administer enough rush to reduce a cigarette fix. Too many squirts of the Nicorette Quickmist Spray gives severe rush & you could vomit or feel nauseous so it works i assure you.  

103. SEND THEM THROUGH TO SCHOOL OF UNIVERSITYISM!

Photo from 2006

If you have been reading my blog then you would already know what Universitysm is. If not please click here to find out what Universityism is. When you die if you have something left to prove or sort out then you will stay as a ghost in the "Living Dead" otherwise when you die you see a bright white light. If you have reached "Optimal" in your life then before going into the light you will be allowed to enter the "Afterlife" which is amazing and allows you to watch over the loved ones that you have left behind. Or in the 509 women's case (Please click here for more information) they were told that someone would be in a cage for them to meet, Karl Josef silberbauer (please click here for more information) because of what he did to them at Chelmno & Auschwitz is why you have had problems or unhappy lives in the life you just lead.

Anyways in the afterlife when you decide to pass on to the next life, doors will appear and "Equilibrium" will occur and you will pass on. Hopefully you pass on as a human (the ideal thing to pass on as) or if you have done seriously the wrong thing a microorganism (Not so ideal). When people passed on you would see a green image as to what they were placed as from animals & spiders (fully grown as i suppose your life is mapped out for you) to a lady holding a baby which means they made it as human (because destiny & fate set by what you did in life & afterlife however you have the ability to change it throughout life by going with the good voice). 

Best when thinking of "God" to think of him/her as being a energy or the universe rather than a person to best get your head around how powerful he/she is. Why? Because if you combined every soul on earth, babies and old people, every race and religion, plus all the souls in the afterlife and combine them all together then you will come close to understanding who god is. (Please click here for more information). He/she is more than all those souls combined and knows all about all those souls combined meaning he/she is more than he/she, he/she is both he & She so is a third type at least and knows everything... more amazing than you could ever imagine. When people have passed on, souls in the afterlife have been bringing souls back that did not make it as human & going against the wishes of god & that is why now in the afterlife you no longer get to see the image of what a person has been placed as in their new life. Silly mistake especially if you really knew who you were dealing with. 

How many souls want to mess with the "Universe" or "God" (Please click here for more information) & what it wants? If God reincarnates someone why would the afterlife argue & bring them back?

Who is, or what is God? Please read on.

102. VOLUNTEER AT LEGAL CENTRE NOT A SPACE CADET AT NASA

Jock Hudson (Alan Dowsett) since completing postgraduate certification as Juris Doctor UNSW (Law Masters equivalent) - Please click here for more information - (BA  Marketing London Metropolitan University) is now working as a Volunteer Solicitor at HALC 

(HIV/AIDS) Legal Centre - Please click here for more 

information)- also known as the Surry Hills Legal Centre 3 days a week. 

"I am no rocket scientist at NASA (Please click here for more info on NASA) but hopefully i have enough brains to be of great assistance to the Legal Centre as a solicitor" says Jock Hudson after his first week in the office. 

Plus the legal Centre is located in the same Building as ACON (AIDS Council of NSW) & Positive Living Org and SWOP (Sex Workers Outreach Program) and a whole heap of other amazing not-for-profit organisations so a good working environment. 

101. THE AFTERLIFE IS TOTAL FUCKWITZ CITY!

When ever i am feeling unnecessary pain or it is being caused & inflicted by someone in the afterlife (the voices that I hear in my head - Please click here for more information) with the use of hypnotics & done without a proper reason it is sometimes worth trying to make the person that is dishing out the pain feel what i feel so hopefully they will stop or at least have some kind of remorse. But what happens is that soul puts on it reverse or opposite so that they feel good & fantastic instead of pain & harm or they scream so loud someone comes to their aid whilst i am still left in pain trying not to cry my eyes out. Because i am human when i am in pain caused by the souls in the afterlife i cannot scream in my head as it was not designed to do that & if i scream out loud I will end up hospitalized. How can they let souls get away with this without consequences? The afterlife has some good souls but mostly is total fuckwitz city! Total fuckwitz are easy to spot because they do not have white light around them! (for more information regarding white light please click here).

The pain can be anything from testicular & groin pain, throat, teeth, & back pain through to severe head & eye pains!

What do Total Fuckwitz do? Please read on.

100. I'LL BE WITH GALACTIC CUTIES (ALIENS) WHEN I DIE!

Well tonight the universe (god which is best considered as an energy that is made up of all the people on earth and all souls in the afterlife - Please click here for more information) felt the pain & agony that i have been through from hearing voices in the afterlife & dealing with nasty hypnotics (Please click here for more information) meant by destiny has been approved. I got a sense that is, it felt what I am going through so now it is set that when I die I will not go into the light or through to the afterlife like everyone else but instead will go higher than the highest level in the afterlife & directly through to the Galactic Cuties (Aliens) who are all about fun & will look after me. Tonight after a rough night I felt the sense that I was being judged but I made it through the judgement. The Galactic Cuties recently placed me on the largest UFO (Please click here for more information) to train.(Why The world does not have UFO's please click here). 

When the time comes I'm going with Galactic Cuties (Aliens)! (Please click here for more information).

Thanks to Olivia Newtown John for singing Xanadu Featuring in Bob the Galactic Cuties Dance.

99. THINKING POSITIVELY! ANY ADVICE WOULD HELP PLEASE?

If I were a Smurf I’d be all about Papa Smurf, as I love facial hair, 

it is my biggest turn on! 

I'd be happy with either a monogamous or an open relationship with Papa Smurf but I’d be one proud bitch no matter how many there are of those other smurfs. Even though all those other smurfs could bend over & Papa Smurf could hopefully rock their world if he wanted & rock their world he better do so they would understand how proud i'd be & they would come back begging for more, its me Papa Smurf comes home to & me he cuddles or at night & puts arm around me so i sleep better, so i could not be happier! Although if i was a smurf i would wear yellow so i'm not dressed all in white same as them since they all cannot even dress differently to each other. LOL

Whats the biggest problem with voices in my head? Please read on. 

98. NEW BUDGY SMUGGLERS FOR SUMMER!

Decided to buy new swimwear for summer. 

From CA-RIO-CA (Please click the following link for more information) which i am absolutely loving. I love their classic cut Sungas but they come in Bikini cut, Brief Cut, Low rise cut and Traditional cuts too! Definitely worth checking out. I bought four pairs that included the ones seen in below photos plus a navy blue pair too. SMILE :) 

Feeling a bit out of shape at the moment even though i will admit my abs look good but i'll be honest and admit that is thanks to a Doctor working for Dr. Lanzer (Please click here for more information) after i decided i needed to do something to remove the excess weight i had gained from all the anti-psychotic drugs (Please click here to see a list of drugs used to attempt to remove hearing voices from my head). sadly some of the anti-psychotic drugs that i have been forced to take cause excess weight gain. My case manger told me that one of her clients had gained 60kg from one of those drugs (Seroquel (Quetiapine) but luckily it had no good effect for me when i took it so luckily i was only on that drug for less than one month. As they say "My body is my temple" and i needed to loose weight gained from Zyprexa (Olanzopine) (Please click here for more information) and people will say Liposuction is cheating but if you knew the pain i went through during the process and for the length of time the pain of just trying to sit upright if laying in bed after having liposuction then maybe you release its a harsh way to cheat and then maybe the good old fashion way of loosing weight may have been a better option. GRIN. LOL. I only had my stomach & flanks liposuction-ed so i am not sure how women that have stomach, flanks, thighs, butt and back all done at once after the pain i felt & went through, manage to survive or deal with the recovery process.

Would I do it again? Please read on.

97. ITS MY BIRTHDAY AND I'LL CRY IF I WANT TO!

Hearing so many souls in my head takes away the fun in life that I should be having. Last week on my birthday, apparently the stars were inline & my family tried to make it great but because of hearing voices i had one of the worst days of my life. The voices discover the pain & agony that they cause me & feel sick, i hear them, but then they give themselves memory loss to stop feeling sick. Memory loss means they forget the pain & agony that they caused me & do the same thing to me again & again. Eventually their use of memory loss will catch up with them.

Whenever i feel good or off my face souls "harness" my effect which means I miss out. They should "lay dormant" which means they will feel good plus they will not be in my business & I will not miss out. 

My problem is that last year on my birthday i said if things have not changed i would take myself out of the equation once & for all, but that means i lose everything & everything i love in life. I do not want to have to do that & i should not have to do that. It would mean no more birthday drinks & cuddles with ALF, Gordon Shumway (Pictured on the bed) LOL. 

I wish souls to not "harness" as they are "Harnessing" my dopamine increases, my endorphins, my Valium consumption, my Melatonin consumption, even my Viagra consumption. You can even harness an orgasm! Why? Because when they "harness" anything it means i completely miss out & feel absolutely NOTHING. i have stopped taking the Melatonin tablets (10mg) because i was taking some days 4 tablets & not feeling slightly sleepy whilst the afterlife souls "harnessing" said they felt amazing & like they were stoned or been smoking marijuana although 2 tablets was good & that i was a asshole because 4 tablets was too much for them even although i did not feel a bloody thing. Not even slightly sleepy!. How am I meant to get to sleep?

Luckily i do hear good good good souls & they are trying to help best they can & correct the bad behavior of those selfish souls with problems they expect me to solve. Hopefully the fun in life i am missing will return. It cannot return soon enough.

96. WHO NEEDS A GOOD WANK/JO SESSION? I DO PLEASE! GRIN :)

Men would agree that there is nothing better than putting on porn & having a good old wank or a jerk off session. I'll be honest, i love stroking off BUT sadly where my problems begin.

It seems lately whenever i am doing ordinary stuff the voices i hear in my head, due to having schizophrenia, are usually tolerable. However heaven forbid if i wanted to do something fun & that is sexual. I would love to be able to sit back & enjoy stroking one out but it seems the voices refuse to allow me to do just that. When i attempt to masturbate or have sex with others the voices absolutely annoy the shit out of me, what i hear from them is insulting to the intelligence, & beyond frustrating! They like to steal erection, make my cock release cum when i am not hard & it becomes hard to orgasm, make my cock overly sensitive or under/less sensitive to what it should be which makes you stop stroking your cock to not cause damage, or make my groin hurt or give me testicular pain. For more information on nasty cock things please click here. I am over these voices in my head. PLUS if i was to do something that i should not being admitting to be doing like smoke meth to enhance masturbation when my receptors release dopamine souls in the afterlife "Harness" (Please click here for more information) my dopamine release which smoking that stuff does then it means i feel nothing & might as well be smoking a fart coz it does nothing & has no effect, & it means they are then stuck in my head hearing my sexual thoughts and fantasies. If they laid dormant they would get the full effect whereas as soon as the harness because they are in my head they have reduced the effect significantly & it is no where near as good. 

SERIOUSLY THESE VOICES WON'T GIVE ME A BREAK & LET ME HAVE A GOOD WANK! (PHOTOS FROM YEAR 2006). THEY WILL NOT LET UP FOR A MINUTE!

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