58. I DON'T DO JEALOUSY OR REVENGE BUT I'D LIKE TO TELL YOU TO FUCK OFF IF YOU DO! SIMPLY BY RAISING THE MIDDLE FINGER!

Photo 2013, 2015, 2008.

Raising your middle finger should be enough said to unpleasant souls? Or not enough said?

Unpleasant souls are those filled with jealousy & hatred toward anyone that doesn't kiss their ass, that realistically need not just a kick up the ass or seat of the pants... but a damn foot right up their ass sideways & with good force to reduce their complaining of even how that is done!

Photo 2006

If your one of these souls and want revenge coz your ass wasn't kissed, your never gonna get it coz the beautiful souls that do not need to ass kiss & are good ass kickers in this world are still gonna look better than you if they shoved their foot up your ass sideways as they kicked your ass even if they didn't use lube!

PLUS why waist time with revenge and jealousy, which is never a good look, when you could be spending your time doing something you love & is a much better look?

I seriously cannot understand how people can waist time with jealousy & revenge rather than doing something enjoyable & that they should love instead... much more productive if you ask me.... Remember the TV series "Revenge" that was great viewing but please stop & think... to get revenge for her dad's death, she's not with the man she loves, she spends all her time unhappy ruining other people's lives which is bad kharma, she ends up with no family she loves & to call her own, she waisted how many years focused on doing bad evil things to others and so on... why? a quick unlasting rush from jealousy & revenge seems enough for some people to thrive on doing things that way... sad really! 

Try doing things eternally better & enjoyable rather than jealousy & revenge! If she had spent the last, i do not know how many years, focusing on enjoyment & doing things she loved, would the nasty ones not be far more jealous & angry when she is having a fun & good life. It would be far more revenge than any of the revenge she committed during the TV series???

Would i perhaps be an unpleasant soul? Maybe do not answer that!

Do you need clarification on what unpleasant really is? Please read on.

57. REMEMBERING FREEDA THE FREELANDER! THE CAR WITH A HEART AND SOUL THAT LOOKED AFTER ME!

"Freeda" the Land Rover Freelander was a car with a spirit & a caring personality of her own & she had HIV? Her engine caused excessive wear & tear & engine break-downs due to badly designed Cam Shafts. 

Her Land Rover cam shafts were designed badly only to ever cause her engine problems! Like timing belt breakage, head gasket blowing... over & over... so some days she thought she was a tractor & sounded like one too & some days she would burp & fart the whole time we were going somewhere & some days she wouldn't feel like going at all! Sadly because Hornburg Land Rover overcharged on the service fees i ended up needing the Bureau of Automotive Repairs to investigate Hornburg Land Rover & ended up in court fighting about her as they reclaimed over charges i could not pay for. But i did love Freeda. Her engine had an immune problem (will always break down) like she had HIV! Even after the service fix it was said i might only get 15,000 miles out of her if i was lucky. Hornburg Land Rover located on Wilcox Avenue was trying to get her a totally new engine to resolve the problem but after 6 months they gave up & simply tried recalibrating the cam shafts (useless) which meant i had now been without a car for an entire year. Grrrrrrrrrrr doing the groceries & going to the gym on the bus or in style on my push bike. One day i got on the bus with only $100 notes & the bus driver just looked at me funny & let me ride for free. LOL. 

Wanna hear how Freeda stopped me from speeding & micro-sleeping? Please read on.

56. FINDING SUN AND FUN EVEN IN THE CLOUDY RAINING DAYS!

Summer time (photos not recent) I miss like there is no tomorrow. Cant beat the sun, surf & sand! At the moment in Sydney its raining & I'm trying not to let it get me down coz that is not fun. If you can find fun & happiness on dark cloudy days then when the sun it out its heaven. Tomorrow no matter the weather I'm going to my favourite beach (Click here). 

The water will probably freeze my ass & tits off but usually in the cold and the wet weather the water is warmer! hmmmmmm. 

I guess i will see! 

55. SOULS IN THE AFTERLIFE I AM HEARING OR HEARD! SOME ANGEL'S & SOME (D)EVIL'S!

What is it i am hearing? How many voices is a schizophrenic meant to be hearing? Now after 10 years plus i have lost count! But they all have a past or history? I can identify them?

Taken from MyHeritage.com February 22nd 2019

I hear the real Jenny Rothschild (descendant to Mayer Rothshields/Rothschild whom created the Banking Empire) in my head who was born 1920 & was my mum as I was born to her & her cousin Emil Rothschild as Aaron Rothschild but she died or should I say killed by being stabbed to death hiding under a false floor made on the second floor of the school building next to the cemetery in 1944 at Lodz ghetto (please click here for more information) 

I also here another Jenny Rothschild (Julie Nanna Rothschild) who was Jenny Rothschild's mum when as I was Aaron Rothschild who do their best to protect me from evil since they know me still as little Aaron Rothschild (Please click here for more info),


And Emil Rothschild (The nice one (pictured right) born 1902-killed in 1945 (Please click here to see who i am talking about)), He was actually Jenny Rothschilds cousin & she had her first child which was me with her cousin because Mayer Rothschild insisted it be that way because they were so wealthy & made billions & billions of dollars creating the banking empire which was me Alan Dowsett/Jock Hudson as Aaron Rothschild (as per Anselm Salomon von Rothschild's wishes as seen below from wikepedia). It was Emil Rothschild under Popsicles Rothschild’s (Emil) instruction (Please click here for more information) rather than buying the worlds biggest teddy bear like everyone else had done which would not have impressed Jenny Rothschild at all like the monkey did & AS MENTIONED HE WAS MY DAD (Please click here for more information regarding Emil).

Please Click on picture to enlarge

Jenny Rothschild & Emil Rothschild were Aaron Rothschilds parents. See above insert as to why they were cousins.

He also bought an Elephant for Christie (Please click here for more information), who is a real Rothschild as she is Emil Rothschilds Daughter (the nice Emil)  NOT EMIL MAY & her mother is Joanna Davies. The lady who assumed Jenny Rothschilds identity & money.

NOW for the NOT so Rothschilds 

or never were Rothschild to begin with at all? 

Assholes category (Please click here for more information) as I call it?

Firstly Joanna Davies had how many souls killed to steal the real Jenny Rothschild identity and Bank account which she had already been accessing while Jenny Rothschild was at Lodz ghetto. The Jenny Rothschild was unable to gain any of the money that belonged to her even with sign letters sent from Lodz ghetto with an ingenious way to ensure the money would be delivered to her at Lodz ghetto if they followed her signed instructions (in a coffin & delivered to the Lodz ghetto cemetery that was right beside the building we had be place into). But by then Joanna was already pretending to be a Rothschild & accessing funds from her bank account! 

Joanna escaped flying the Zeppelin? or was that prior trips she made to the USA? Did both her & Christie, dressed as a boy to make her look like Aaron Rothschild, whom stole my monkey, make a flight that was with Lufthansa to fly them out of Europe, & i am guessing why Lufthansa was then put out of business & they escaped the damage that they caused at Auschwitz. 

Was this when Adolf Hitler (Please click here for more information) discovered what had been happening right under his nose & he called the Americans to assist but Joanna & daughter already in American that cried they were victims? Makes sense as the Americans could have then helped or assisted Hitler in conquering Russia for the Jewish people to move in & develop since they ran & owned shops, railways & trains, electrical companies & so forth, but only then Hitler discovered all his Jews had been murdered as thought although he had never checked because he was too sketch & off his face created plans for the new Germania (Please click here for more information). Hence why he quit the land grab in World War II a & killed himself. 

Who was Joanna's twin brother? Please read on.

54. HYPNOTIC SUGGESTIONS FROM HEAVEN OR FROM (D)EVIL???

Hypnotic suggestions? What are they? Can angels or the (d)evil place them on heads/souls to change their thoughts & behavior? Even physical appearance? I believe so! Can they alter what you are doing & saying if your not totally self aware? Seriously the amount of hypnotics floating around in the afterlife has gone too far!

This girl maybe onto something?

Hypnotics are totally dangerous in the wrong hands & not to be used. Plus there is no such thing as a good hypnotic! 

Plus no hypnotic will make you feel good! Find one that is not nasty?

Why would you have one or want one on your head?

For example: 

If you put the hypnotic on someones head like "Put yourself first" because you did not want to see them being used by others. Sounds like a good idea, but that means you can only put yourself first & will only put yourself first & nothing else. what about their surrounding environment, what about their friends and family, what if the person owns a pet like a cat or a dog? You need to put those things, like surrounding environment, like friends & family, like pets, like +++ ??? first at some stage in order to put yourself first??? It would mean with the hypnotic "Put yourself first" the person you placed that hypnotic on would easily get hit by a car or truck since they have not put their surrounding environment first, they would ignore their friends and family as they only think of them-self, their pets would be neglected, starve & die because they have not put them ahead of them-self. What about even a perfect stranger or even money, fashion, laws and more? A stranger asking for directions would probably be treated rudely by you! Think about it??? If your rude to a stranger who is politely asking for directions & that stranger then thinks your an asshole ...is that putting yourself first at all? Basically you have given that person a death sentence! To make the hypnotic work you would have to place "put yourself first, plus include surrounding environment, plus include friends & family, plus include pets & animals, plus include strangers & the public, plus include money & finance, plus include fashion & finance, plus include society & the community, plus include laws & morals & ethics, plus include, plus include, plus include, plus include, plus include??? AND EVEN STILL YOU MAY HAVE MISSED OUT ON SOMETHING TO INCLUDE TO PUT FIRST & TOTALLY CUNTED THE PERSON (Please click here for more information on vulgar language).

"Put yourself first" Hypnotic if placed, 

means death or serious harm to them-self & others!

Wanna find out more about this Hot Brunette & what to do instead of hypnotics? Please read on.

53. GOLD! IT CAN BE OBTAINED DEPENDING ON HOW YOU LOOK AT THINGS IN LIFE!

The voices asked me coz they think I'm materialistic & have everything I could want in life. 

Nop I don't want a brand new Ferrari?
Nor a brand new Lamborghini? ...I am 6'5" tall? Faaaaaaarck just getting in & out of them would put me in hospital!

If I was back in Hollywood, California & I had an opportunity to make my story a television series ("Sex in the city" v "Exorcism of Emily Rose" v "Go" the movie v "Queer as Folk on Steroids") what car would I buy?

I found this beauty (above right) on Craigslist! Absolute GOLD! Gold & everything! & such a cute little face! Colour coded leather interior! Beautiful! Just like "Merv" the Merc in my blog 18 (Click here)! This ones name would be "Merry" the Merc! Even number plate was right! 2HGLI72. Too highlight the number one (I? or 1?).. & 1972 being the year Karl Josef Silberbauer seen in my Blog post number 40 (Please click here)  my twin brother from back in biblical days (Please click here for more information) died age 61 (Please click here for more information) reached the afterlife & placed in a cage!

Are my skid marks gonna be the only gold i see? Please read on.

52. PSYCHOSIS MEANS THE WATCH ON YOUR WRIST IS TELLING SOULS TO WATCH OUT?

Today as I tried to get the voices to stop, listen & look at the effect they have on me when they are distracting me! I wish they would watch what they are doing!

Then a bright circle of light (orb? (Please click here for more information) passed by me & onto the ceiling???
At first i thought maybe it is a reflection from my WATCH i was wearing??? I moved my wrist back & forth & looked but it was not from me.

Then i thought maybe it is a reflection from my teachers WATCH she was wearing??? I looked to see her wrist & if her movement related to the light.

But then the light disappeared so it came from no ones wrist WATCH? Please read on.

51. UNIVERSITYISM??? NOT UNIVERSALISM!!! WHAT IS IT? READ AND FIND OUT! PLEASE CHECK LINKS BEFORE PASSING JUDGEMENTS.

Growing up i was always told to question anything you do not understand. 

Religion is one of them everyone should question.

WANNA KNOW WHAT I HAVE WORKED OUT? 

Please read on.

50. DREAMS EFFECTED BY VOICES? MAYBE IM JUST GOOD AT GIVING NIGHTMARES?

How often do you think or dream? 

Can you dream when not asleep? 

Can dreams come true? 

I used to dream about my future about what i wanted to do, where i wanted to go & then think about how i was gonna get there... 

I felt dreams always come true. 

The Monkey i have in this lifetime & how i managed to be born in this lifetime without dieing (Please click here for more information), & helped me dream at night & very similar to the original Monkey given to me by "Emil Rothschild"(Please click here for more information) back during my past life as "Aaron Rothschild"(Please click here for more information) got taken away from me when presumed dead at Auschwitz. The voices say the person took him from me & discarded him on the backseat of a Limo as they escaped prosecution of their involvement at Auschwitz. Please return him to help my dreams & improve my mental health?

Maybe the return of monkey would have meant the avoidance of the difficulties like today with hearing voices & feeling immense unexplained pain (testicular/groin pain @ level 1000) and a overdose of Lurasidone & Quetiapine occurred in order to deal with the pain. After the overdose I firstly noticed i was not laying in bed & I had left fecal matter on the bed & seeing my mum scream when she seen the state i was in & was already on the phone to Emergency Services when i collapsed completely paralysed & only hearing the sirens of the Ambulance getting closer did i feel relief from such a near death experience. They helped me regain movement of my body parts after paralysation & only being able to slur speech & took me straight to Hospital.

Dreams totally taken away as i end up in ICU (Intensive Care Unit - Sutherland Hospital) because the voices I hear in my head go too far in ruining them! 

49. LOOKING HAPPIER HEARING A HOT MAN'S VOICE SAYING HE LOVES ME!

Photo taken 2019 Kings Cross Gym

Today I was happy as it was one of the first days in a long time that the voices actually allowed me to work out properly. Last time, out of frustration and in an attempt to avoid self harming, I ran to car to get Nicorette spray.

A guy sitting in a outdoor bar area seen me smash the side of my head (Please click here for more information) & seen me yelp & he screamed out that he loved me as i ran. He was a sexy bearded man too, just my type. LOL.

Sadly I am still experiencing pains in places that I should not be hurting (unrelated to gym workouts) & suffering headaches that go from each temple across my forehead every day. I do not even get to feel the endorphin rush that i should feel when working out as those nasty souls in the afterlife feel them instead. The voices in my head harass me whilst i try and work out, they say i cannot self harm when i am in front of other people at the gym and then as i push out a set as i workout they harness my endorphin rush that i should be getting and believe that is their reward for harassing me to the point i have to leave the gym or have a nicorette overdose to avoid self harming because i have no way of escaping the voices & their harassment. "Harnessing" or "Obtaining" or "Receiving" my endorphins means they feel the endorphin rush and all i feel is headache or nothing at all. 

photo taken 2019

Thanks to iamkelis (https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCB_SEzbn0RC3UnetPdJdNkg)

48. GREY AND CLOUDY DAY UNTIL NIGHT WHEN A LADY MADE THE GREY DAY BEYOND BEAUTIFUL!

Tonight at Coles (Sylvania Southgate) a beautiful lady seen me sitting in the aisle crying & i tried to run away... 

but she said please let me do one thing before you go... 

SHE GAVE THE MOST SINCERE & CARING HUG & I COULD NOT STOP MYSELF FROM CRYING SOMEMORE! 

Thank you! If only there were more beautiful people around like her then the world would be a better place! 

Sadly since I had been having extremely rough & painful days dealing with the voices that were out of control...that night two police officers & two paramedics were with my mum & dad at my bedroom door listening to me sreaming my head off. 

They were all HOT men which was great... but they were all worried about me & wanted to check i was alright & take me to hospital.They had been outside my room for i do not know how long listening to me screaming my head off to the voices in the afterlife that i was hearing that to stop what they are doing but they had placed 101 on my head. So to stop them for example hurting my head i would have had to say "Stop hurting my head please", "Stop hurting my head please" "Stop hurting my head please" and so fourth and only after the 102tnd time i said that or in this case yelled at the top of my lungs or threw objects in the direction i could hear one of the many voices i was hearing if i had said it 102 times in a row before they would hear me. 

Only when i gave in & laid down as the voices finally stopped & i went quiet & relaxed on the bed did they knock on my bedroom door.

I returned from hospital that night & the next day placed into ICU (Intensive Care Unit) & the Psychiatric Inpatient Unit. 

I do not even remember my parents taking me back to hospital, only being placed in a wheel chair & for the first 3 days not even being able to see what my doctor looked like because i was so heavily drugged.

Released Tues 15th January just before my birthday! 

Thanks to Kleerup (https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCAV2Kx67bReBgucF3ftqSSQ)

47. ORB EASILY SEEN IN THE PHOTO. JUST NEAR LA PAROUSE BEACH... HEAVEN? ON PRINCE OF WALES DRIVE :)

ALF shines his light to help me avoid the dark.

photo taken 2018

***If i never see the sun again & feel the wind on my face even tomorrow... everyone needs to know that im gonna be alright. 10 years from the 19th Jan 2019 i have been hearing voices & the fun before this started i was having got taken away from me. RUOK?***

Bright White Orb = High frequency protection! Some souls are trying to help me. Evident in the photo, taken on Prince of Wales Drive, La Parouse around 9-10am as the sun was rising.

For more information about "orbs" please click here!

Photo taken in 2013 but only discovered Protection Orb in Photo Blog Story Post Date

P.S "IMPORTANT" to my loved friends & all those i met out & about over the years that make me smile and anyone that has heard me even giggle or spent personal time to speak to me, I THANKYOU, for discovering how different i am...I now smile if you hear me giggle & i am sorry but giggles & laughter, it means i no longer feel pain! But sadly i fear they are outnumbered by evil souls that are telling, lies, are racist, & full of hatred!

46. WORKING OUT AT THE GYM! GETTING FIT SHOULD BE FUN? WHAT THE VOICES WILL DO TO STOP ME WORKING OUT.

Embarrassed to show this but today my stomach stuck out & stretched to the point it hurt & for almost an hour or more? 

Only when i gave it in & voices had stopped me from working out & I left the gym & back in my car did my swollen belly deflate? Can voices in your head do this to a person?

My stomach being this swollen (please see photos) made it difficult to lift weights & I was scared of getting a hernia which was more than likely to occur when bloated is an understatement! You can see the shitty unhappy look on my face... How could i be happy? I wanted to crank it out & feel good after yesterday & feel like I was doing something towards getting back in shape! The voices enjoy my endorphins while I get dizzy! Well no dizzier than usual I guess! But sadly not in a fun way! The voices "Harness" or "Obtain" or "Receive" or “Acquire” my endorphins which means i do not get to feel them but rather than feeling nothing at all the voices go to the effort of making me feel Reverse/Opposite endorphin rush so i feel headaches and nauseous each time i push out a set doing weights if i do attempt a gym workout.

The voices call my name, constantly criticise me, put me down, and annoy the shit out of me & do their best to stop me working out although today was a step further than that! Like it isn't hard enough? Why do the voices i hear get a kick outta doing this? So today was not fun. Plus seen no hot naked men in the change rooms like normal. GRIN Lol! (But they even steal my hard on & try embarrass me in the showers - Please click here for more info)

I guess i should just grit my teeth & workout if and when i can! Please read on.

45. SHALLOW BREATHING? WILL I END UP IN A COMA?

The voices say "hearing my breathing offends them!" For over half an hour i felt the possibility i would fall into a coma or faint? It is not normal to breath that shallow for so long & feel like that in such a way! 


This morning after extreme harassment from the voices... i found myself breathing irregularly & the brains mechanism that i have that make me suck more oxygen if my body is not getting enough oxygen missing? A mechanism i have due to deviated septum that makes me shallow breath a&not breath properly (Please click here for more information). Hence why i sound like Grover (Please click here for more information) and make Grover from Sesame Street sounds because if i do not breath deeply enough my voice sounds funny. Then horrific pain like never before. Voices say was pain at level 490! Then as i was breathing i started getting chest pains that made my breathing uncomfortable & hurt. I lay on the bed, hands starting to tingle slightly & my head aching... wondering if because of this shallow breathing & almost no breathing at all will a lack of oxygen to the brain cause more damage to my brain then occurring?

You took it all.. but i am still here! I'm Still Breathing! Please read on.

44. FIRST AID TENT IN THE BACKGROUND, A SIGN OF HELP REQUIRED PLEASE!

Photo taken 2007 - Before i started hearing voices 2009!

This photo was taken in 2007, before i started hearing voices, & life interrupted in 2009 when Jenny Rothschild (Please click here for more information) & Karl Josef Silberbauer (Please click here for more information) decided after rejecting the idea 3 times prior to both seeing me glow (Reached "Optimal" (Please click here for more information)). Since they both seen me glow at same time because they were both drawn to me because i was Jenny's son in a past life (Please click here for more information) & Karl's twin brother if a life time before that (Please click here for more information). This time they could start their game quicker if they tried, along with Katherine Jones (Please click here for more information) & a Bloke i called Scott this time because i had glowed to play their game on my head.

Hearing voices reduced all of the fun in life i should be having majorly. 

Help me if you can?

Only now looking back at it do i think damn i looked good. 

But now thinking I seriously need that first aid tent you can see in the background.

My "Master plan" is that I'm gonna make my 40's better than my 30's which should be achievable but I should not be saying my "Master Plan" because it gives the voices a heads up as to what they will want make me fail as they gain enjoyment from stopping any chance I have of succeeding.


I gotta try get myself back into shape & in a place that i feel good. Only when you feel good will you attract the right people... or is the problem wanting to attract people in the first place? Usually when your on the lookout to pick someone up its like insect repellant... everyone runs a mile away from you! Eeeeeek! Its when your not looking for anything you find it right in front of you. Please wish me luck! Everyone I know should really be on the run!

Thanks to London Recordings (https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCpDPOKeVLYSvIAtgmkwVAAA)

43. WTF IS THIS??? WHY??? A REVERSE HARD ON??? WHY??? BECAUSE A JEALOUS VOICE I HEAR HATES MY GUTS???

This is what a voice in my head (Blog 40 explains who - Please click here) does to me. He reakon's he is "God" and calls this a reverse hard on! How & why is this possible?

The voices i hear do this to me for some reason? When ever I am in the gym change rooms after a workout (Please click here for more info about gym workouts), when ever I meet a hot guy or at my favourite beach, when ever they want to laugh and make fun of me! Its embarrassing to say the least! They say I could never have been Jock Hudson (Alan Dowsett) a porn star?

Photo Taken 2015 to prove real cock size

Sorry but I do love to have a good wank or jerk off session but I CANNOT a lot of the time coz of this! THEY HAVE EVEN TAKEN AWAY THE ENJOYMENT OF A GOOD ORGASM.... MAN'S greatest enjoyment! gone? They harness my orgasm? (Please click here for more information). Seems like i cannot have any fun without them destroying my fun for amusement. it sucks & because Karl was jealous which i do not do (Please click here for more information).

The voices in my head are always playing nasty games on me.... when have i ever done nasty type games to them??? 

(Please click here for more info on Games) 

and as for frustration??? (Please click here for more information).

42. CAN YOU FIX MY HEAD PLEASE?

My name is Alan Dowsett, also known as Jock Hudson & all these pictures are of me!

Do you know who i am? Who am I pointing at in the picture?

Can you help fix my head please? Do I sound different out loud to how my inner child sounds in my head? The voices i hear say my soul is the age of 3/4 & a half years old.

I have asked nicely & politely as possible, I have screamed at the top of my lungs, I am sick  tired of asking voices in my head that are doing me harm!

Why do the voices i hear in my head think that they know what is best for me when they hear what they want about me & they never find out for themselves who I am first? It hurts like you would not believe & they say in my profession that we have the highest pain threshold out of any profession in the world!

41. SEIZURES RETURNING! WHY? DOCTORS CANNOT EXPLAIN?

Today while i was in class the voices made it so that i cannot think twice. This means, what ever you read you cannot comprehend as that would be thinking it twice. You cannot write because what ever you think of writing you cannot then remember to write! It sucks when they do this to me. I couldn't participate in the group activity that i was meant to be doing. Then from what was already bad to even worse.. in seconds, I fell backward off the chair making a horrible shriek & my body then spasmed uncontrolably on the floor. It reminded me of all those times in the past although this was not a bad one in comparison to some of those back then.

My wonderful teacher, Debbie (plus Matt another teacher who heard the shriek/noise, as the seizure occurred, from the staff room) were beside me the whole time... They calmed me down & to focus on them & breath in & out with them & I started regaining my ability to control my body parts & breath properly again!.

Why this is happening? More seizures??? Please read on.

40•5. WHAT HAPPENED TO ME (AARON ROTHSCHILD) IN THE AFTERLIFE?

Emil Rothschild, (Please click here for more information) who is an original Daddy Ruxpin if ever i seen one & was Jenny Rothschild's cousin, but still my dad as Aaron Rothschild, when he was killed at Auschwitz he was killed in almost the same place i had been put out of my misery (Please click here for more information) & that is where i stayed rather than entering the afterlife. Before going into the afterlife Emil seen me against the wall & was drawn to me as I sat there in the "Living Dead" rather than the afterlife. I remained in what is called the "Living Dead", as i had completely shut down & no one but Emil knew i was there. From May 1944 until December 1976 Emil would visit me and sit with me. In 1976 i finally spoke to him and said in half German and half Hebrew do you know where my monkey is? (Please click here for more information regarding my monkey). He still did not say anything, i guess the tape in his belly or back was not working, naughty Teddy Ruxpin, but instead found Jenny.

Emil (Daddy Ruxpin) Rothschild was the one that bought me the monkey (Please click here for more information), with Jenny's dad's advice (Popsicle Rothschild), rather than buy me the largest teddy bear he could like everyone had already done to impress her, he decided to go with Popsicle Rothschild's advice & bought the monkey (Please click here for more information) which Jenny liked & ended up the only toy I ever had. Emil suddenly realized i was his son that he had never met & immediately, as previously mentioned found Jenny Rothschild in the afterlife & told her & who went running to find me. Unaware she had reverse or something on her head she scared me so i ran straight into the light & was born to Kate (Please click here for more information) the second she approached me.

In this life i have felt Emil hold me better than i could hold any Teddy Bear. If Emil Rothschild is Daddy Ruxpin then why am I telling his story? Please read on.

40. WHO ARE THE VOICES THAT I AM HEARING? I WAS AARON ROTHSCHILD IN A PAST LIFE!?

Am I hearing people that have died & are in the afterlife?

Karl Joseph Silberbauer

I discovered and learnt that one of the voices I hear belongs to Karl Josef Silberbaur - Please click here for wikipedia link (right & left pics) (Please click here for more information). Born 21st June 1911 & died aged 61 years old in 1972 and escaped any conviction! There is no mention of how he died???...My theory is perhaps nature did us all a big favour because of his attitude & hatred towards jewish people especially little jewish kids which he considered the most useless of all! (Please click here to see how he attempts to steal my life). All the good times and fun experiences i have had in life he claims was him, telling everyone & then expects a thank you in the way of getting souls in the afterlife to do as he says! He hates my guts. (Please click here for a nasty example of things he does!)

Karl Joseph Silberbauer
15-16 years old
Not 12 years old

Karl Josef Silberbauer became well known from the raid on the Frank's secret annex & as an SS officer after leaving duties at Auschwitz which enabled him to rank as SS Officer. Karl wanted the Jewish peoples money & is shitty he discarded her now famous diary. (View Anne Frank - (She was reincarnated back to life when her diary got published in English- Link)

Karl discovered that I (Alan Dowsett/Jock Hudson) was once Aaron Rothschild born 1940, son of Jenny Rothschild born 1920 & Father being her cousin Emil Rothschild (Please click here for more information). When i was 1-2 years old Jenny & I were sent to Lodz Ghetto in Poland. Jenny and Aaron were not meant to be on on a different train & not the train to Lodz but because of a misread telegram error at the train station they grabbed a lady & instead of a 1 to 2 year old they ended up getting another lady (Joanna Davis who did not want to go to Lodz) & her so called 12 year old son (15-16 year old) whom then escaped instead. It was actually like I said, it was Joanna Davis & Karl Josef Silberbauer. Hence how Joanna since she got on the double Decker electric train instead of Jenny Rothschild & myself, & ended up meeting Emil Rothschild (Jenny's Cousin as Mayer Rothschild insisted on her first child being that way & so was my dad & he & Joanna had a baby girl named Christie who was Karl's sister &, since Christie's dad was not Joanna's twin brother like Karl's, she was actually my half sister. Because of me is why they made Christie dress & pretend to be a boy (Supposedly me) so they could assume the real Jenny Rothschild's identity & money. Karl is shitty coz he seen none of the money.

Christie (as mentioned above) sadly got dumped into boarding school as soon as they arrived in America USA, & had the worst time imaginable. She was never allowed to come home for the holidays & spent most of her lifetime in boarding school, only when one of the school bullies came back to school early from holidays & found Christie there but with a noose around her neck standing on a chair did she realize the bullying had gone too far since USA had heard about the holocaust & she had survived. She then had friends. She was killed in a car accident when her head hit the dolphin wing/tail of a Porsche after hitting the bonnet & going over the top of the car. Poor girl did not stand a chance the Dolphin tail took her head off!

I WAS part of the Rothschild's family that founded the Banking Empire in Europe & unaware i was worth millions & millions of dollars, in fact more than they could image... Billions!  I was worth more than $50 Billion when I was born 1940! Apparently after i was born Jenny Rothschild (My mum) opened my account & transferred half the money from her account (The Bank Teller is in the afterlife & can prove this).

What happened at Lodz Ghetto & when I was at Auschwitz?

Please read on.