74. THE STORY SO FAR (THIS BLOG STORY SITE)

If you have read my blog from 0-73 including the legal notice what have you discovered & learnt? Maybe what I went through growing up (Please click here for more information) & (Please click here for even more information) & working in the world's oldest profession, "Pretty Woman" would know, was to prepare me for having voices for more than 11 YEARS now in my head.

Yes i was like "Pretty Woman" & i knew how to make money although without soliciting it on any streets (Please click here for more information) & i have been to the "Beverly Wilshire" several times & the balconies on the top floors have fancy wrought iron balustrades, whereas the Boutique Hotel under the name of "The Paramount" on the other side of Beverly Hills has solid concrete balconies & are on the first floor & have outdoor terraces so are the best rooms, not the top floor & where they produced the film.  

hmmmmmm if you know the movie I have just let you in on a insider joke! When Julia Roberts leans backward sitting on the balcony she would only have fell down one floor & into the garden. LOL

Safety Goggles Required

Hopefully without sounding arrogant I have been lucky enough to have travelled to Hong-Kong, New Zealand (Both North & South Island), South America (Columbia - Bogata/Bucaramanga), South Africa (Cape Town), London (actually lived in London for almost 2 years), Scotland, Canada & parts of Europe (Italy, Greece, Spain (Sitges & Ibiza)) & a lot of the USA in sometimes 5 star accomodations such as the Hotel Britney Spears stays in when in London (sorry to name drop), even stayed on the estates of Skibo Castle (Inverness Scotland which is not a castle it's more like a palace or hotel so I never needed to look inside the place) & yes i will be a wanker & admit slept in the same bed Madonna slept in without knowing it at the time, plus on the estates of Castle Howard (North Yorkshire which inside confused me with every room being connected). I wouldn't mind seeing some of Asia, & my mum went to China & loved the trip. Also now I have a BA from London Metropolitan University & a Juris Doctor (Law Masters equivalents) from UNSW (Please click here for more information) so I am definitely not stupid & blessed meeting people of all walks of life! 

How far would you go to obtain money? 

Is the world coming to an end (3rd World/Planet Warning)?

If the end of the World occurs, what then? 

What are the warning signs the World will end? Please read on.

73. HOSPITALISATION AGAIN BUT BLUE SKY'S NOW INSIGHT!

Sadly Jock Hudson in the care of Sutherland Hospital Thursday 23th January & Discharged Sunday 26th January after my Case Manager seen me & all i could do was cry in her presence decided it was best for me to be in hospital care again so i had to voluntarily admit myself.

Blue Skys are now on the rise thanks to visiting Beverley Bultitude, Sutherland Shire Hypnotherapist & Reiki Master whom i was lucky enough to visit today. For more information please click here. 
Definitely well recommended by myself. ✩✩✩✩✩

Please click on Pic to enlarge

Sadly looking at the weather forecast i am against all odds with this many lost souls in my head that i cannot seem to escape?


Back from Outta Space? (Please click here to see Blog 64 space encounter) 

But will I survive??? If you know the words missing from this song then you will know the answer!!! 

If AFTER LISTENING TO SONG FIRST POSTED BELOW FROM YOUTUBE, you are having troubles finding the answer to "will I survive or not?" then please check out the hint below or message me. GRIN :) 

Thanks to Son of 8 - Topic (https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCorgwB1LJxwYgaSmZBIzFqA)

What are the warning signs that i might need to be hospitalized? Please read on.

LEGAL NOTICE FOR THIS BLOG by JOCK HUDSON (Alan Dowsett J.D - UNSW). Yeah its sketch but i gotta protect that!

WHAT YOU MUST KNOW ABOUT THIS BLOG STORY SITE & THE LAW! 

All blog posts that have been written by Alan Dowsett (Jock Hudson) are numbered, and each title includes a number in the same way as a book or novel would have numbered and/or chaptered as it is being written. Under Intellectual Property Laws, Copyright protection exists on all unfinished books and novels and this blog site has been created in a way to exist in the same form as an unfinished Book or Novel and protected by law. Copying or plagiarising anything from any blog story post written at www.jockhudson.blogpsot.com would be a direct breech and infringement of copyright law. 

Additionally please be aware that Blog Story posts written in the years 2009 to 2013 at www.jockhudson.blogspot.com are still protected by copyright law as the 7 year copyright expiration period has not begun on anything written at www.jockhudson.blogspot.com as this is in the form of an unfinished work similar to an unpublished book or Novel that is still in the process of being written as explained. 

For free Legal-Well-Being Advice please click the following link: www.facebook.com/jockhudson

Every person in life has a story, this blog if you read from Blog Story - Entry Number 0 and all the way through until Blog Entry Number 96798749+ does tell some of mine. I guess i dreamed of one day turning it into a TV servies. why? well? hmmmmm? Save the world? hmmmm? Save some souls? or maybe just to hope that in the dark there is still time for a giggle, or hopefully a damn good laugh that every so often when i do achieve such a damn good laugh that even then feels like afterwards i have had a damn good ab workout too.... aaaaaaaaaaaah.... yep those laughs which is clearly heaven sent when that happens?

Legal notice referring to any TV series to be made.

To protect this Blog Story that i wanna protect!
Please if ever a TV series was to be made, please if i am not there in person to ensure what story you telling on my behalf after reading this blog to ensure you got my story correctly. Please respect my wishes by leaving this a blog and only blog to ensure others can read and see what they make of it instead of someone telling it incorrectly.

Porn stars on screen may not say much & i would have loved to have said something with the full story of what happened to me during this Life.

I discovered! From Religion & Christianity & (Please click here for more information) & UFO's (Please click here for more information) Eeeeeeeeek im exhausted & so leave it best said in writing as i have tried to do in this Blog Story.

Thank you for respecting me by doing as i have asked.
i am sorry i won't return until the Year 8453 so next opportunity to see me in person. 
(I'll be found floating around sitting in a cube watching onwards until then). 

What year will i return? Please read on.

72. THIS WEEK REMINDS US (AS SURVIVORS CELEBRATE) THAT IT HAS BEEN 75 YEARS SINCE THE LIBERATION OF AUSCHWITZ!- Remember "to forget how they died, is to kill them all over again"-quote by Elie Wiesel - SO I THEREFORE SAY IS THERE MORE TO WHAT LIES BENEATH THE SURFACE!

The reason it is so important for the truth about Auschwitz to be known is that 44 million people have travelled to Auschwitz since 1945 and left more confused than ever. Most of them did not know why they wanted to go but knew that had to go, most with phobias of the dark, or going into basements.

Tourists left more confused than ever & possibly angry after spending so much money to go there from around the world to think what happened was not possible. Plus if you read the rest of this blog post would explain why a lot of people that travel to visit Auschwitz have extreme phobias about cellars and some refuse to even live in a house with a cellar. Also to confuse tourist more Auschwitz Birkenau I which features a lap swimming pool with diving board at one end & at the other end a dias, unlike the Olympic games dias so that the winner stood the tallest. The the brick buildings seen in that location, besides experimental hospitals, i believe, were mostly one & two bedroom suites with ensuites for those criminals that created the place! Karl Josef Silberbaur (Please click here for more information) shot Jake (Please click here for more information), supposedly a friend, in the head & killed him because he dared beat him in a swimming race.

The confusion lies in the fact that before Auschwitz became an extermination camp it once house Jewish political war prisoners whom were treated well & had spring bunks & ensuite toilets which became living quarters for those assholes (Please click here for more information) running the extermination camp Birkenau I & II.

Photo found online says the underground building seen being built in the photo was a sauna/steam room for the benefit of Jewish people. Above ground building has disappeared. In the background of the photo you can see the building that does still exist at Auschwitz with the chimney and the vast amount of re-bar and concrete surrounding the building that place on top of chambers which can be seen in the photographs below within this blog post. It is located in the back field behind the famous train station.  

Above Photo shows the Kanada building during construction (Krema IV in the distance - see more photos in this blog post) at Auschwitz Birkenau II. 

Victims were lead into a building and forced to go downstairs into under ground buildings. Zyklon B pellets thrown in behind them, to escape the gas victims fled to the back of the room. This was done over & over, cramming more and more inside the underground chambers until completely filled. Trains packed with passengers simply disappeared into these underground buildings never to be seen again.

Need confirmation of underground buildings at Auschwitz? Please read on.

71•5. I WAS FOOLED BY KARL JOSEF SILBERBAUER! NEW YEAR START!

I guess i was fooled (Please see earlier Christmas Post - Please click here to see that blog post) & maybe it does not pay to be so forgiving? Countless souls that i hear in my head that won't identify themselves reminded me since Sunday that they can take away any bit of happyness i have & they are good at it. Why? because they did not enjoy life the way i had learnt how to do, &/or some souls find destroying life far more fun! "Why should we let him enjoy life when we did not"? its sad but that is what some so called 'Angels' in the afterlife are all about it seems? Even tonight as i go to bed unhappy... i've made souls in the afterlife upset because they have no challenge now! But they are all happy & proud of themselves? Or is Joanna his mother & Rob his father that are the happiest? (Please click here to find our more information regarding her and him)

Photo from 2010

New Year almost here... ☹️ Now when I look in the mirror what do I see? 

I do not see me like you see me pictured left, but i do see, looking at myself, that I have put up a damn bloody good fight... just look at the years that have past!

How worse can tomorrow be? Eeeeeeeeek! 

Hopefully I will become 

Super Grover (my nickname) 

once more?

Pic 1=How I feel now    | Pic 2=Hopefully how i will soon feel if voices are nice to me.|     Pic 3= Super Grover is what i wanna be again once more

71•25. LIFE DURING BIBLICAL DAYS! A CLUMSY LITTLE GOD???

Me, aged 1 years old in this life as Alan Dowsett

When i was around the age of 3 years old in my first life as a human being, unlike my twin brother, bored being inside the palace i stood outside looking for action. All the people that lived in the town below seen me, & because they thought i was born from Heaven & therefor a God, unlike them, they all look at me thinking i was going to address them. Eventually since i did not say anything they decided they had to leave the city limits to work in the fields before they got into trouble for not working. 

Since in my previous life i was the "Village dog" (Please click here for more information)  meant i wanted to hang out with the people & see where they all went so i started high tailing it towards the city exit gates with Stephano chasing behind me to stop me getting away, but i clumsily tripped over & face planted. Crying my eyes out, Stephano carried me back into the palace. The next day i did the same thing, Stefano chasing behind me... & yes I clumsyly face planted again as i fell on my face but this time Stephano figured i wanted to see what was outside the gates so took me outside the gates & this time stopped crying immediately. Everyday i would run to the gates with Stephano close behind. He soon decided to avoid the chase & another face plant to take me out to see the people whenever he could.

"Seizures & uncontrolled body movements" (Please click here for more information) same as in this life occurred when outside with the town folk & how i know the "Wagon wheel featuring Jesus" (Please click here for more information) was ideal to stop moving & hurting myself. One lady gave me a hug/cuddle & then told she needed to touch all the other workers because she had been blessed by a God. 

What kinda God was I? Please read on.

71. SUNDAY BEFORE CHRISTMAS, WHAT DID I GET THIS YEAR?

Sunday that just passed before Christmas things in my head have changed. If you have read my blog then you'll know that Karl Josef Silberbauer (Please click here for more information) has done a lot of nasty things to myself & I just assumed it was because of the time & place that he grew up... but you should never assume anything.

When the voices started in my head I was aged 32 & if you read Blog 5 (Please click her to see) you'll know I was doing well. Apparently I had reached what they call "Optimal" (Please click here for more information). When you have overcome challenges in your life & are heading in a good direction you reach Optimal. Life will still provide challenges but it's your direction you need to find. Anyways long story even longer or hopefully shorter... when you reach Optimal (Please click here for more information) you give off a glowing light that can be seen by all those who watch over you seen as bright as bright can be. Evil does lurk... it keeps you on your toes... but an evil soul told Karl the light he had seen was meant to be his rebirth. He thought he was meant to be me, that I somehow stole his chance of happiness & the more I have tried or been able to be happy the more drive he had to destroy any kind of dream & happiness I have!

We all have past life's & before I was Aaron Rothschild born 1940 that died age 4•5 years old, at Auschwitz (Please click here for more info),  I was in-fact someone else & sadly in that life I again only survived to the age of 3•5 years old (Died close to 4 A.D). But I had a twin brother in that life (Mary had identical twin boys which everyone forgets) Most folks did not know she had given birth to identical twins as they had only seen me as i had ventured out onto the fields (Please click here for more information) where they worked coz i was a people person whereas my twin brother stayed inside the palace all the time. My twin brother was connected to me & seen the turmoil seen as torture for any soul that consequently took my life. My feet never needed staking because i was pushing down so hard with them. Whilst on the cross they staked my hands. From my perspective the right hand the stake went directly through, whilst on the left hand the stake was not in the center of my hand but my wrist so i was bleeding to death & they untied me from the cross. Whilst untied & not on the cross they then decided to crack open my skull to see what my brain looked like & decided it was not the brain of a god but that if a human. (skull cracked open (a Euphorbia Milii desert plant (Crown of thorns) woven to keep my skull together & the thorns were not removed in order for it to be placed & to stick into the skin to keep my head together so no one could see my skull had been split down the middle) this was done to see if i was from heaven = god, born into the palace or from humanity like everyone else - Buddhism changed this mentality or way of thinking and that we are all equal & all have heaven, humanity, animality, hunger, anger & hell within us) 

What happened after they cracked/cut my skull open? Please read on.

70. TODAY I RETURNED TO THE CEMETERY LIKE @BLOG.1 TO PONDER LIFE.

Yeah cemeteries i have always liked. (Please click here for more info about why i like cemteries).

Will the abandoned Rothschild Paris Mansion become a sports centre as i dream (More info@Blog.62 - Please click here)? 
Will the Rothschilds of England take me & my plans seriously knowing i was once Aaron Rothschild, son to Jenny Rothschild (1920-1944) and Emil Rothschild (1902-1945) (More info@Blog.40 - Please click here)?

Will my religion "Universityism" be accepted as a way to live your life (More info@Blog.51 - Please click here)? 
Will nuclear bombs stop being further developed (More info@Blog.64 - Please click here)?
Will voices i hear (More info@Blog.55 - Please click here) ever stop ruining life (too many Blogs entries to list)
Will self harm be a thing of the past (More info@Blog.34 - Please click here)?
Will i enjoy endorphins released whilst at the gym (More info@Blog.46 - Please click here)?

Will i regain my love of life like i had once learnt (More info@Blog.5 - Please click here)?

Will i ever get a break from hearing them non-stop (More info@Blog.3 - Please click here)?
Will Hospital visits like in the past stay in the past (More info@Blog.48 - Please click here)?
Will emergency services need to be called yet again (More info@Blog.7 - Please click here)
and (@Blog. 26 - please click here) and (@plenty more times)
Will my life as Jock Hudson become a mini series (More info@Blog.53 - Please click here)?
Will by dreams ever become reality like they once did (More info@Blog.50 - Please click here)?

Clovelly Cemetery where i like to come and think. (Please click for more info)

HOPEFULLY THE VOICES IN MY HEAD THAT I HEAR AND THE ONES THAT I MIGHT NOT THAT ARE ALREADY DOING WONDERFUL AND GREAT THINGS WILL CONTINUE OR SOMEHOW START BEING ANGELS RATHER THAN (D)EVIL AND ASSIST TRY TO "GIVE LIFE" BY GETTING RID OF CANCERS, PAIN AND SUFFERING AND HELP ALL AS MANY SOULS AS THEY CAN! 

...Will life ever be easy? 
...At least i know life can be fun (More info@Blog.0 - Please click here)? 
...I say "More time in life should be spent on Fun... and clearly less time pondering it!"
...But i gotta say thank you to all those who have taken the time to read my blog. Thank you. 

69. DO YOU BELIEVE IN SIGNS? YES I KNOW I AM A MENTAL CASE, DOCTORS EVEN SAY SO! SCHIZOPHRENIA & PSYCHOSIS?

I live in Oyster Bay & when i went to the post office i notice what had just opened. "A Cafe in Oyster Bay Where I Live Called" (Rise on the Bay - Please click here for more information) & is all new & with all new wall art. Just like the guy i always had the hots for (Marc Wilcox) has tattooed on his forearm? He Has a fantastic Shop Called: N101 (Please click here) that sells all your nutritional supplies! Having Psychosis meant that seeing the new "Rise" on the Cafe Wall made me think about him. 

I need to stop thinking about the Bloke since he has made it very clear that he is not interested. Additionally, back whilst living in Los Angeles, Marc Wilcox's female business partner at N101 store in West Hollywood made it very clear that i was to stay well away from them & their stores. Hence why i wrote them both a Marketing Plan with what i thought were good ideas & smart advice. All completely free so then they would not think i was bad for business & so they did not feel like they needed to call the police if i came anywhere near their stores. 

Rentboys/Escorts claim to be in Marketing rather than admit their occupation???

(Please click here to find out why i did porn?)

However I am not a Liar!!!

(To prove that i am not a liar please click this link)

I wish i had been given the opportunity to further explain, as written in the Marketing Plan, that N101 form a partnership with AHF.

I DID NOT WANT THEM TO DONATE. 

Originally there was only one pharmacy AHF patients must go to get their prescription, located at the Presbyterian Hospital (Fountain & Vermont) in the same premacy as their clinic. To make life easier & so AHF patients did not have to travel so far to get their prescription medications they decided to open their first additional Pharmacy @ 8212 Santa Monica Blvd, West Hollywood 2010. Every time i went into the new Pharmacy the person behind the counter would apologise about all the empty shelves at the front of the store being empty & having nothing on them. They needed someone to do front of store for them. They felt embarrassed to not be a full Chemist/Pharmacy & would have welcomed help to act like full Chemist/Pharmacy. Plus if they did help out AHF then just add "N101" in neo signage above"Sports Nutrition Center" left hand side of Pharmacy to further advertise N101.

Please click on Map to enlarge
or Please click this link: https://ahfpharmacy.org/locations/

Back when i suggested the partnership with AHF, AHF's  Home Page said: 

"We provide all prescriptions for free" 

i would have negotiated for N101 for providing front of store & filling shelves with products for sale, the placement of a banner advertisement across entire bottom of AHF homepage directly linking to N101 saying:

"For everything else we rely on N101" 

Since AHF had difficulty getting someone to sell products at their front of store meant every new AHF pharmacy that has opened has frosted glass windows/doors with a only a counter inside!

Imagine now how many N101 outlets would exist & full AHF Chemists/Pharmacies? 

Please click the following link to see how many: https://ahfpharmacy.org/locations/   

Sadly a missed opportunity

Now sorry back to why he is on my mind again this time? 

Seeing cars like he drives??? 

Well it caught my eye coz these cars (Infiniti) are RARE in Australia & not even sold here anymore (If you don't believe me that these cars no longer exist in Australia & why Please click here).

What do these cars, number plates and music mean? Please read on.

68. REALLY REAL GOOD NEWS AND SAME OLD BAD NEWS!

Best news ever. Results from this weeks tests came back and i am all completely clear from Myocarditis (Please click here for more info) caused by Clozapine treatment (Please click here for more info) although the weight gain from that was significant. 

Thats the good news. Bad news is, although my heart won't now go cactus, as i attempt to work my ass off at the gym, like usual (Please click here for past gym info), tryin to get back into shape since gained a lot of weight from schizophrenia medications (Please click here for more information regarding medications) and the voice of Karl Josef Silberbauer (Please click here for more info) harrasses me to say the least. Thinks I have money he can gain and all my feel good moments that creates a good vibe stimulates him to be even more jealous and more nasty in my head. Trying not to let it bring me down. They are still"Harnessing" or "Obtaining" or "Receiving" my endorphins (Please click here for more information) so i do not get to feel them  either. 

I wanna make my 40's my best years yet. That was my aim for along time. (Please click here for more info on main aim).

Photos taken 7th November 2019 Bondi Junction gym in the change room mirror & then the mirror above the sinks before leaving.

67. I'M READY TO CRACK IT! SPENDING TIME IN THE SUN SHOULD ONLY BRING FUN & HAPPINESS?

Photo taken 1st November 2019

In writing this i am scared everyone with think all i do is complain and frankly there is a-lot of people that have life tougher than me so the last thing i have is an excuse to crack it. 

I am allowed, after Myocarditis (Please click here) to return and workout at the gym & that includes doing weights now, and my results from the hospital regarding my health have been good. Only one more week of follow up tests.

I been extremely luckily to spend the last few days in the sun which have been more than enjoyable to say the least. That's why tonight at the gym... frustrating... grrrrrrr... I couldn't have looked unhappier if i tried? It's a great thing being able to start getting back into shape again but i guess i'm still dealing with the fact that i am stuck hearing voices non stop & no matter what I say & do and whether i like it or not, and everywhere I go including here at the gym.

I really miss being me. I want me back! 😕

Thanks to Foxes (https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCf5x_oiTyNRK72ALzmddwUA)

66. TODAY

I had the horniest beeeeautiful dream, I woke up with a morning glory, even though it was late afternoon!  Lol 
🍆💤🌐🆙

I gotta take it easy because i still have myocarditis (Please click here for more information) but maybe Im taking it too easy. After my appointment today with case manager & because it was a rainy day i went back to bed & had a good old fashion wank & caught up on some more sleep!

Had blood test this morning. For more information about recent hospital visits re: Clozapine Treatment  (Please click here to go to Blog. 63) or for a list of previous treatments & medications (Please click here to go to Blog. 9) Then one more week of tests to follow up! Best to make sure myocarditis an't returning.

 

Thanks to Rui Da Silva & RuiDaSilvaMusic for posting at Youtube.com. Please subscribe here: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCeFuuWItS1kJthlMguJX0iA 

65. TROUBLES AWAKENING!

Today got my cuddle monkey (same as the monkey i owned when i was Aaron Rothschild & had taken away from me after death at Auschwitz & therefore the monkey that helped bring me into this world. When i was born in this life as Alan Dowsett, my father had exactly the same monkey (the only difference is the eyes are blue rather than cross stitching) ready for me & he was the first thing placed in my crib to keep me company (Please click here to see more of my monkey)

Today as i try to wake up i cannot stop blinking, i have to close my eyes, which i don't want to do, just to stop damn blinking. It is such a nice day & I do not wanna miss out. They are making me blink as some of the voices in my head dislike me so much they want me to be asleep & to not see the day, but thankfully I could listen to Tina Turner Chant all day. Although its making me cry it keeps me from doing anything stupid like go back to sleep coz its a beautiful day. 2 hours later - managed to get outta bed still listening to Tina & shower. She is a life saver for me today.

Sadly on other days those in the afterlife make me rub my eyes constantly so that they will be wrinkled and old. They additionally deliberately talk to me so when i respond i am looking directly into bright lights so that cataracts will form & i will need eye surgery.

To see my religious beliefs please click here.

I've tried to give perspectives on everything i have learnt & know.

I did wash my hole (ass) with "Dove" soap. hehehe. Does that mean, or is it a sign Im not gonna go peacefully and let these voices (Please click here to see) get the better of me?. LOL
🕊 

 

Thanks to Tina Turner Blog (https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCLP3TfuYaKSqYjhi8KI3J4g)

Further information on how I managed to be born again after dying age 4•5 years old as Aaron Rothschild when my monkey was taken away from me (Please click here for information).

Who was Kate & did she give birth to me? Why & how was it possible for me to reincarnate? Please read on.

64. ALIENS AND UFO'S? AND THE FIRST BEAUTIFUL SOUL THAT GOT THE SHOCK OF HER LIFE THAT THEY DO EXIST & THEY BEEN WANTING HER TO HANG WITH THEM HER ENTIRE LIFETIME, AS LIKE MANY, THEY SEEN HOW BEAUTIFUL SHE IS! THE GALACTIC CUTIES ROCK ON!

Adalia (Addy? or Addie?) Rose Williams.
Please subscribe here: 
https://www.youtube.com/@AdaliaRoseBudd

Please be patient with the time it takes for me to write this blog because i don't want to offend especially this girl or her parents. BUT IN MY HEAD I RECOGNIZED HER STRAIGHT AWAY. Been on a current affair or a news show like Mike Willesse or 60 Minutes cause of her rare condition & now in heaven & her beautiful spirit had been seen by Aussies...I remember seeing her on TV as i should have been crying as she was dying of old age like a little old lady right before your eyes & apparently died in hospital before her prom day which was sad but watching her you could not help feel energized & pumped up ...anyways I was in mental health hospital doing extremely badly & it felt like a heart attack. (Click here to show hospital record) Having Myocarditis (Please click here for more information) you can understand how bad of a condition i was in. She was so concerned about me, except I could answered how her age, height, growth, health was all taken away from her as in my head the hypnotics (Please click here for more information) 1072 of them took my breath away i was in serious trouble.........hmmmmmm .....how to explain ...hmmmm ....i was wondering how would she would look if hypnotics hadn't taken everything away from her?

...but then I thought she is too cute already as is & her look could probably get her places?

...how to explain ...then she said there was a bright light above? 

...Then hmmmmmm how to explain... She went to check out the bright light... 

Her reaction to them, them which i had sensed always existed & kinda had an inclination she was about to meet...

Hearing in my head her reaction was PRICELESS..... OMG OMG OMG... IT WAS THE FUNNIEST THING EVER! OMG OMG OMG. She firstly screamed her head off! LOL. 

I started wetting myself laughing... but again she more concerned about me.... 

SHE ASKED IMMEDIATELY AFTER HER PRICELESS REACTION OF REALIZING THAT THEY DO EXIST & SCREAMING HER HEAD OFF she said...

"Got a bee bee gun to shoot assholes?"

She was worried more about me being close to heart attack & heart failure than herself. They beamed her up.. she returned with something in her hand.... 

"But hang on this thing doesn't work she kept repeating" They beamed her up" & beam her back down "But hang on.. how this work", beam up beam down.... 

SHE TOTALLY UNAWARE EACH TIME AN ASSHOLE SURROUNDING ME IN MY HEAD DISAPPEARED INSTANTLY... & hypnotic suggestions too. All 1072 of them. 

THE WHOLE TIME I WAS WETTING MYSELF WITH LAUGHTER. 

I WENT FROM HEART FAILURE/HEART ATTACK FROM MYOCARDITIS... 

TO LAUGHING NONE STOP ALL BECAUSE OF HER BEAUTIFUL SOUL & HER SELFLESSNESS!

hmmmmmm they trusted her instantly! They just had not found a right time until now to get her attention 

after all these years that they had always known of her.

THERE IS SOOOOOOOO MUCH MORE TO TELL... & I'm not even telling it right. i need to think PLUS keep my eyes out for lights in the sky... Probably her & them again if i was to be that lucky. OMG OMG OMG OMG I was so blessed to have her check on me. FILLED ME WITH SO MUCH FUN FUN FUN & LAUGHTER - BEYOND PRICELESS! PLUS SHE IS ON A UFO & CANNOT FIGURE OUT WHY THERE IS NO STEERING WHEEL WHICH MAKES ME LAUGH EVEN MORE BECAUSE I ALREADY FIGURED THAT OUT! (Please click here for more information). LOL 

Ok let me think how I'm gonna write this properly! 👾👽👀🏡🏘🏪

Area/Hanger 51 (Nevada)? 

OK forget where they or weren't they here? 

LET'S GO WITH WHY WOULD THEY BE HERE?


Do nuclear & hydrogen bombs get tested regularly back in the 70's in the Nevada Dessert? YES? NO? SHIT YEAH THEY DO! 

(Please watch the below video on Youtube.com for evidence)



What is the biggest problem & the biggest problem with NASA? Please read on.

63. JOCK HUDSON TO BE HOSPITALISED THIS MONDAY

After 10 years of hearing voices & having difficulties Jock HUDSON (aka Alan Dowsett) will be placed in hospital at the start of next week for different treatment. Unfortunately hospitalisation is required to ensure the former porn star does not leave us if adverse effects of the treatment occur.

I had intended to write more in this Blog Story Post but the weekend has come to an end & I'm not sure what to say. Hopefully this week will go well, i'll be back in charge of my life instead of having it dictated by voices in my head, finally get some of the tattoos i been wishing to get (Please click here to see) the following week and soldier on ahead. Sure you never want to be the last one to leave a party but i still think there is plenty of party left in me yet. (To see how the party started please click here).

Update Monday 7th September 2019 Morning:
Been at hospital having tests done. Was shown around the Mental Health unit where i will be staying so i don't feel like i am being locked away like i would if placed as an Hospital inpatient. Have been told a lot of people are on Clozapine (Click here for more information) which they will be administering so it seems i have nothing to worry about at all. :) GRIN. Will be time to party again real soon. For a list of other medical treatments administered to Jock Hudson please click here.  

Note: When I was admitted to hospital I was suffering severe lower back pain which I thought odd & unusual because I had done nothing to injure my back & done nothing I could think of to induce such pain but whilst in hospital & the doctors could see my difficulty dealing with the pain they decided to check it out & investigate the problem to find nothing wrong. To be safe they transported me to St. George Hospital to have a lengthy & expensive (although administered for free) MRI completed as Doctors needed to ensure something more sinister like cancer was not causing the lower back issue. Turns out the lower back pain was caused by a Hypnotic (Please click here for more information) placed by Karl Josef Silberbaur (Please click here for more information) to cause me grief. Having gone to the effort of having a full MRI made someone decide to remove the Hypnotic & back pain now gone! 

Update Wednesday 2nd October 2019:

Jock Hudson under careful watch after being placed in Cardiac Ward today after Clozapine caused Inflamed Heart condition also known as Myocarditis - click here for more information  . To hopefully be released from Cardiac Ward this Saturday.

Update Monday 14th October 2019.

Allowed to stay at home evenings now. Still not allowed to start back at gym as sadly the risk of Heart Attack is too great plus sadly gained a ludicrous amount of weight over the last 5 weeks! Faaaaaark... it seems even if i look at food I gain shitloads more weight! Aaaaaaaaaah! Grrrrrrr.... Eeeeeeeeeek!

Stephano Monkey and Monkey with me in Hospital. (Please Click here for more of Stefano)

UPDATE 4am From Hospital 16th October 2019 - NEAR HEART ATTACK!

OMG OMG OMG Just had the most wonderful soul inside my head say hi.... & was checking to see if I was ok, after bad night to say the least after seriously close heart attack & believe it or not... after a bit of confusion & me wetting myself laughing she discovered a new crowd that she could hang with because she's totally selfless. She saved me from heart attack. 

Will write about it all in next blog post after i have slept & worked out how to properly explain (To go to Blog Story Post 64 to find out more, & who she is, please click here).